sam: there’s a group of people who genuinely – they like despise my character which i’m okay with, i get that y’know i get that they hate things that my character’s done and they don’t like my character, but what’s interesting is like there’s another group of people…they like my character because of that complexity…it makes the character’s story more interesting as well as opposed to like ‘oh i am the good guy please always root for me’
happy anniversary to watching a country be attacked by violent insurgents storming its capital on Jan 6th, only to go online and realize a literal country was being attacked by violent insurgents storming its capital on Jan 6th
I tuned into Tubbo's stream after weeks of wondering what the hell the dsmp was and why it was all over my Instagram fyp and my little sister gave me a very thoughtful (but not too helpful) powerpoint on it; along with showing me the two SAD-ist animatics that were out at the time.
I had no idea what I was getting into, but the animatics were so fucking cool, I just had to see what the fuss was for myself.
Long story short, I watched Tubbo's stream, was introduced to Awesamdude's lovely, lovely voice, and the dsmp had me in a chokehold for about seven months until the lore died down and everyone started having meet ups.
With all the controversies and the toxic people aside, I'm grateful for the time I've had with the dsmp and the fandom. Meet some cool people, spent like over $60 on bits and subs for a white man (it's Sam), got some merch, and just felt a huge surge of creativity during the time that I was fixated on it.
Yeah, maybe I don't care all too much about it anymore. Hell, I barely make it to Ponk streams and I prided myself on making every single one; but it's been fun.
Anyways, a year ago today I started crying over pixels in a block game and I really wouldn't change anything about that.
Love how I used to think I'd be fixated (???) on the DSMP for a looooong time because they were constantly coming out with new lore and content.
I was like, "How could I ever get tired? There's lore every other day!"
And then the lore kinda slowed down and I was okay with it because I told myself that even if it was the lore that got me hooked, it was the friendships and dynamics they all had that kept me together.
Then the lore switched out into meet ups and I just,,, didn't care (??) anymore??
I know it's bad to be like,, "LORE!" because they're all human and have their own priorities and what not, and I don't wanna be that person, so I kinda just,,, don't care about the dsmp all that much anymore.
They're all great people (with flaws) yeah and maybe when the lore comes back I'll get back into it (maybe,, idk) but for now I'm perfectly content with my mutant turtles again because oh man, I guess I missed them more than I thought I did.
If I had to describe it, it's like everyone in the dsmp fandom (??) is on a train headed towards get things. Everyone is excited and happy on the train, but I just got off and am wandering in the station, looking for somewhere new to go.
Anywho, this was a bit of a rant I guess, I don't know, about how once I squeeze out every last bit of content (in this case: Dsmp lore) I feel empty and need a new piece of media to fuel myself for the next couple of months. Call it fandom burn out or whatever, I dunno.
Take it as a just PSA that I won't really be updating on this account. If I do it'll be most likely reblogs or Ponk or Sam things.
so im unsure if ponk meant the “13 pillars of salt” line to be a biblical reference, but either way, i think its a really good analogy for ponk’s relationship with sam, and their character as a whole. the “pillar of salt” refers to the story of lot, in which lot and his family are warned by an angel to leave their city before god destroys it. while fleeing, lot’s wife looks back, is turned into a pillar of salt, and is consumed along with the city.
ive always liked the slaughterhouse-five interpretation of this story, which is that lot’s wife was so attached to the city that she looks back instead of choosing to be saved. and i think that is a flaw of ponk’s character: they are constantly coming back to the past. they still love sam despite being hurt by him, they rebuild their lemon trees after they’re continuously destroyed, they’re the only smp member to be tied to reincarnation. ponk has the compulsion to look back. they know doing so will only hurt, but they look back anyway, because they are so very human.