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[A/N: ayooo! I know its been awhile but Iâve finally finished a new chapter of this story...I promise I havenât forgotten nor have I abandoned this story. Iâm just having a bit of a slump I guess you can say. School is taking a lot of my time and Iâm already having to narrow down my options for job applications once I get my degree so a lot is going on in my head and I havenât had much time to visit this universe and add to it as I would like. But I promise this story will have an ending and I wonât discontinue it!]
I stood at the entrance of the kitchen, leaning against the wall as I looked over at the table. Mingi, Seonghwa, and Alix were sitting at the table while Hongjoong stood at the end of it, his back to me. From where I stood I could see a map laid out across the table, the four of them going over something in hushed voices. It didnât take long for one of them to notice I was there, Alix giving me a small smile before nudging Mingi who was sitting next to him. When he raised his head to look at me Seonghwa did the same, Hongjoong was unaware of this as he stared at the map intently, still talking. He only stopped when the others got up in unison, the three of them leaving the kitchen. Only then did Hongjoong notice me there. I pushed myself off the wall and walked over to him silently. Hongjoong opened his mouth to say something but before he could get anything out I fell into his arms, wrapping my own arms tightly around his waist. He tensed under my touch for a split second before he relaxed, gently placing his arms around my shoulders, one of his hands resting against the back of my head.Â
âWhatâs wrong?â He asked, concern laced in his voice.Â
I tightened my hold on him, burying my face in the crook of his neck, âNothing,â I mumbled but refused to let go.Â
I lied through my teeth because I didnât want to worry him but I knew my silence just worried him more, even so I refused to tell him the truth. I refused to tell him that I was afraid, that I was terrified. I was scared of something happening to him, afraid that heâd be taken away from me too. I couldnât stand that thought of being all alone again, not again.
-Yuriâs P.O.V-
I sat on the windowsill, staring out the window, absentmindedly staring up at the sky. What was I going to do? How was he even able to tell it was me? Itâs been four years and Iâve obviously changed. Maybe thereâs a possibility that he doesnât actually--no, he definitely recognized me. If my face didnât give me away then the sword he had gifted me as a farewell present was more than enough for him to figure out who I was. But what is he doing here in the first place? Iâve scouted the village several times over the years and not once did I see him. Did he just recently come back? What if he told Y/N that Iâm alive? Would she even believe him?Â
Despite all the worries in my head I let out a sigh of relief, âAt least sheâs not alone anymoreâŠâI muttered under my breath, a small smile playing on my lips at the thought.
âWhat are you smiling about?â
I tensed when I heard his voice, my blood running cold as I wiped the smile from my face. I refused to look him in the eye as I stood up from the windowsill, keeping my head down, âNothingâŠâ
He stood in front of me a moment longer before he left, his footsteps echoing until he was gone. When he was gone I let out the breath I didnât know I was holding, my knees trembling for a second before I plopped back down onto the windowsill. It had been four years and he still instilled a fear in me I had never known before. My heart raced and my lungs felt like they were on fire every time he directed his words to me. If it wasnât for Jongho I donât know how I wouldâve survived these last few years.
âHey...hey breath...youâre okayâŠâ Jongho whispered, sitting beside me as he wrapped an arm around my shoulders, his fingers finding their way into my hair.
It didnât take long after that to finally get my breathing back in order. I let out one last shaky breath, running my hands over my face, âHow much longer do I have to-â I cut myself off, tensing once more.
Even after all Jongho has done for me he was part of Joraâs crew. If he heard what I was about to say...I donât even want to think about what would happen. Jongho let out a heavy sigh, tightening his hold on my shoulder for a second before he removed his arm, standing up to leave me alone on the windowsill, âJust be more careful next time, Yuri. Youâve been doing good for the last few years, just keep it up for a little longer...Iâll get you out of here soon.â
I sucked in a sharp breath at his words, reaching out to clutch tightly at his arm with both my hands, my fingers digging into his skin. I looked up at him, quickly shaking my head before letting it fall back, my eyes burning with tears, âNo, no please. I--Iâll be fine. You donât have to do that. Please, Iâm begging you donât even think about it. I donât know if--if Iâll be able to go through that again. PleaseâŠâ I begged, the tears that had built up finally falling.
Jongho said nothing, standing still as I cried, my tears falling to the floor. He exhaled slowly as he combed his fingers through my hair, âIâll make sure not to get caught this time. Seeing you so miserable...I donât know how much more I can takeâŠâ
I tightened my hold on him, looking up, âJongho, promise me. He wonât stop at a simple beating this time. He--Heâll kill you.â
He clenched his jaw as he stared into my teary eyes but he quickly looked away, a frown on his face. I saw him chewing on his bottom lip, a habit he did when he was thinking. Even if he wasnât looking at me I could still see the look he had in his eyes, it was one I knew well, one that had undoubtedly caused him trouble over the years.
âJongho, pleaseâŠâ I muttered desperately my hold on him like a vice now.
âYuri-â
âPromise me you wonât do anything.â I implored him.
He sighed heavily and closed his eyes, his brows furrowed, âI...I donât think I c-â
âJongho please!â I sobbed out, my heart crawling its way up my throat, âPromise me.â
He finally looked down, his eyes staring into my own. I could see the conflict going on in them until he closed his eyes again, placing his hand on the back of my head and pulled me towards him. As much as I wanted to go back to my sister I didnât want to do it at the risk of his life. In these past four years Jonghoâs the only one thatâs made them bearable for me. The last time he tried to help me escape he was beaten half to death by Jora as they had me watch the whole time. Itâs been about a year since then and I had convinced myself that I should just resign myself to living this life but after going back to the village I grew up in and seeing Hongjoong there I guess I had a longing to go back again, that longing not escaping Jongho. But even if I went back now what would I tell Y/N? She obviously thinks Iâm dead somewhere...Iâm sure the shock of knowing Iâm alive would be too much for her right now. And I was the one that decided to go with Jora all on my own...what right do I even have to go back there now?
-Hongjoongâs P.O.V-
I leaned against the doorframe as I watched her sleep peacefully. She had refused to let me go a few hours ago in the kitchen so I suggested going to her room. The moment we got there I laid the both of us down, wrapping her tightly in my arms. Even without her telling me something was wrong I knew, I just didnât know what the problem was. Even so just one look in her eyes told me just how sleep deprived she was so thatâs why I had suggested we move to her room. The moment she laid her head on the pillow she was out like a light.
âCaptain we-â I cut Alix off with a glare as soon as he started.
I glanced back at Y/N to see that she was still sleeping soundlessly, shutting the door as I turned back to Alix, âWhat is it?â
âWeâve secured outposts around the village, taking extra care to not scare the locals as youâve ordered. Though...theyâre much more scared of those bandits than they are of us...especially after we were the ones that got rid of them.â He quickly explained, his eyes going back and forth from the door to me then back.
I nodded along to his words, thinking over the plan we had discussed in the morning before Y/N walked into the kitchen. I had them create a perimeter around the village, only leaving the port open since itâd be easier to see anyone coming into the port than anywhere else. With the number of people I had I was able to assign at least three people to each outpost. It should be enough to fight off those bastards if they returned while still having enough to alert the rest of us. Every member of my crew was skilled in what they do so I had no doubts about their abilities but should I really be putting their lives at risk like this?Â
I sighed heavily, running my fingers through my hair, âIs everyone here?â I asked, turning to walk down the hall, silently telling him to follow.
âYes. We were all about to go back to our posts after informing you.â
I nodded, seeing Seonghwa in the living room, a pensive look in his eyes, âSeonghwa, gather everyone outside, I have an announcement to make.â
He said nothing as he only stood up and walked out the front door. I guess heâs still angry about last time. I donât really blame him either, I would be furious too if anyone threatened Y/N the way I threatened Eunwoo. But that was the only way I could guarantee Seonghwa to keep his mouth shut, at least until I managed to bring Yuri back to Y/N safe and sound.
âAlright everyone, before we go any further with this I want to ask if youâre willing to help me with protecting this village.â I announced, looking over at them, âI know some of you have family not far from here and I canât guarantee that youâll all still be alive when this is over. So Iâm asking if anyone wants to back out and Iâll more than gladly drop you off at your chosen destinations, so long as it's not more than a few days' journey from here.â
They all stared at me dumbfounded by my words. Last time I ordered them to fight I ordered them to die as well, so many of my people were lost. This time I wanted to give them at least a choice, a chance to stay alive without having to risk anything. They murmured amongst each other before silently turning to Seonghwa. Without even sparing them a glance he heaved out a sigh, crossing his arm over his chest as he stepped forward.
âWe joined your crew for a better life and for some adventure...and for the most part youâve given it to us. We knew the risks that came with it and weâre prepared to deal with it. Weâll follow your orders, no matter what you decide and whether we agree with it or not.â He stated matter of factly, âBut if you chose to leave this place you mightâve been met with some resistance from me and a few others but in the end your orders are absolute.â
I was shocked to hear those words coming from Seonghwa, especially after the tension that had been surrounding the two of us for the past few days since our argument. Not only that but the last time I gave an order to fight he lost his brother, someone neither I nor anyone else could replace. I wouldnât have blamed him if he didnât want to partake in something as uncertain as this but I guess I may have been underestimating him. A smirk finally made its way onto my face, my crew members mirroring it.
âThen, let's get to work shall we?â I asked, the smirk morphing into a grin when they all let out cheers of agreement.
They all dispersed, heading to their respective posts but I stopped Seonghwa before he could leave. I waited until we were alone to speak, âSeonghwa listen I-â
âDonât apologize.â He cut me off curtly, running his fingers roughly through his hair, âI get why you had to resort to threatening Eunwoo but even if you apologize I wonât accept it. Iâll keep my mouth shut. Just...donât say I didnât warn you but this secret is too big to be held from her. If anything...be prepared to lose her over keeping this from her.â
âShe wonât leave me over it.â I said quickly, mostly trying to convince myself that Iâm not making a huge mistake.
He gave me a look but said nothing, turning on his heel and heading towards the village. I heaved out a sigh as I ran my finger through my hair, looking out over the rest of my crew. The one I was looking for stood out, his height making it easy to spot him.
âMingi! Câmere for a second,â I called out to him, waving him over.
He quickly made his way over to me, waiting for me to speak, âSince you know Jora best, you're in charge of any decisions that need to be made in town, run them by Seonghwa before you do anything. Have Lea or Marshall report back to me if there's any change in the situation in town.â
âYouâre not going into town?â He asked, his brow furrowed in confusion.
I shook my head, âIâm staying here in case they try and attack from here like they did four years ago.â
He frowned, concerned, âBut if itâs just you here you wonât stand a chance against so many of them.â
âI havenât survived this long because of my great looks,â I said with a smirk, his frown only deepening, âIâll be fine by myself. Besides, the nearest outpost is a little over a mile away from here, Iâm sure I can manage until they get here. That is if Jora decides to revisit that tactic of his from years ago.â
âBut sir-â
âThatâs enough of that. Get going, let Seonghwa know of what I decided.â I cut him off, turning on my heel as soon as I finished, not giving him a chance to say anything else.
The moment I reached the door of Y/Nâs home I went inside and shut it behind me, surprised to see her sitting on the couch. A small smile made its way onto my face at the sight of her but it vanished the moment I noticed the bottle in her hands. I felt my heart drop to the pit of my stomach as I watched her stare at the bottle, as if contemplating if she should have a drink. She had been doing fairly well to keep her drinking down to a minimum, only having a glass or two at the pub when we went. Before my mind could wander back to a night that seemed so long ago I took hurried steps over to her, snatching the bottle out of her hands.
âYou promised me you wouldnât drink like this again,â I spat through gritted teeth, grabbing onto the bottle so tightly I thought itâd break in my hands if I squeezed any tighter, âAfter last time I thought you had learned but obviously I was mistaken. Will I have to babysit you again to make sure you donât revert back to your old ways?! Now isnât the time to be losing it Y/N! Not when Jora and his crew are out there! I canât be protecting you from yourself and from that bastard! I can only-â
âI didnât drink anyâŠâ She mumbled, her voice barely reaching my ears.
âWhat?â I asked, my voice having dropped down to a whisper.
âIt's not even open.â
 I looked down at the bottle in my hand to see that it was in fact sealed. I let out a relieved sigh, plopped down on the coffee table in front of her. I set the bottle down before burying my face in my hands.Â
âI wasnât going to drink anyâŠâ
âIf you werenât going to drink any why would you take it out in the first place!â I shouted, losing my composure, âDo you have any idea what went through my head when I saw this bottle in your hands?! That time I found you on the ground on the verge of death because of this damn alcohol still haunts me! You promised me you would never drink like that ever again so please...please keep that promise.â
My voice broke towards the end of my sentence, a lump forming in my throat, the memory resurfacing. It was about a week after I had come back. I had left her alone for less than an hour, nothing shouldâve happened in that short amount of time. But when I came back I found her in the middle of the hallway, laying face down on the floor, not moving. I thought she was dead with how unresponsive she was. My world came crashing down around me at just the thought. It felt like this unbearable weight had fallen on my heart and I knew I was never going to be the same, that is until she groaned low in her throat, moving the slightest bit.Â
I sucked in a shaky breath through my teeth, running my fingers through my hair as I willed the tears not to fall, âIâve lost way too many people in my life,â I began, speaking to fill the silence to try and keep my emotions in check but it seemed to have the opposite effect, âIâve had to say goodbye to so many people way too early but the thought of having to say goodbye to you, permanently, itâd be way to much for me to handle. Youâre the one person, the only one I never want to have to say goodbye to. So just the idea...of never hearing your voice, seeing your smile, hearing your laugh that I love so much, never being able to hear or see you again for the rest of my life is something I know I wonât be able to go through,â I continued, my voice breaking but at this point I didnât care, the tears I had fought back free falling as I stared at the floor, âSo please, Iâm begging you, please keep the promise you made me. Donât make me have to say goodbye to you tooâŠâ
I bit down harshly on my bottom lip, fiercely wiping the tears from my face as they continued to fall. I heard her sigh softly before she spoke, âI really wasnât going to drink any. I...I dreamt of that night when those bastards first came and I grabbed the bottle out of habit. I did go to open it at first but then I remembered the look on your face after I woke up that one night,â She paused, averting her gaze before she continued, âI...I was just so scared. I know you and the rest of your crew know how to fight and how to win but I justâI just canât help but be afraid that this would be the one battle you lost. And I hate to say this, I really do because it just shows how much of a terrible and selfish person I am, but what scares me most, even more than the thought of losing you is the thought of being alone again. Everyone Iâve ever loved has left, died in one way or another, leaving me behind. Itâs the reason why I tried so hard to push you away, I didnât get attached only to be left behind again.â
I set my jaw at her words, my heart twisting in my chest at the silent tears that fell from her eyes, âEven if Jora gets the better of me, even if weâre outnumbered 100 to 1 I wonât die. I will do everything in my power to fight and live on so I can come back to you. I canât promise that Iâll be back safe and sound or that Iâd be in one piece but I can and promise that I will come back to you alive. Iâm never going to leave you, do you understand me? That is never going to happen,â I said in a firm voice, getting up from where I was and pulling her into a tight hug.
The two of us shared the same fear, the fear of being alone. Sure I had my crew and I cared about all of them deeply but there had always been this emptiness I carried with me for as long as I could remember, long before I had ever met Y/N. But as I grew to know her better and my feelings for her grew so big I didnât know what to do with them. I hadnât realized it at first but that emptiness I had always walked around was gone whenever I was with her but the moment I put two and two together I swore to myself Iâd do anything to stay by her side. Not even death could stop me from being with her and a mere man like this Jora is no match for me.Â
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If anyone is interested this is Soul Eater translated into Spanish!!!!
SOUL EATER (1)
[No sentĂas que necesitaras estar en una relaciĂłn romĂĄntica para ser feliz o para dejar de sentirte solo. SĂ, entiendo que los demĂĄs son capaces de hacerte feliz, pero si sales a buscar una relaciĂłn con el Ășnico propĂłsito de estar en una relaciĂłn o porque eres el Ășnico en tu grupo de amigos que estĂĄ soltero al final, terminaras peor que cuando comenzĂł toda la farsa.]
Tal vez me sentĂa mĂĄs amargado porque mi Ășltima relaciĂłn⊠bueno, no terminĂł bien. Todo lo que hicimos fue pelear y ⊠Pelear un poco mĂĄs. Ni siquiera puedo recordar si fui feliz durante toda esa relaciĂłn. Era demasiado celosa y exigente y aparentemente yo no estaba allĂ para ella lo suficiente. Puse los ojos en blanco con solo pensar en ella, mi molestia se duplicĂł.
âÂĄTe lo digo amigo, mi vecina, ella estĂĄ tratando de matarme! ¥Ni siquiera estaba siendo tan ruidoso y ella vino aquĂ golpeando mi puerta como una loca! â
âMi hermanastra⊠quiero que se vaya. Ella siempre recibe toda la atenciĂłn y los elogios y siempre me dejan a un lado. Incluso mi propio padre la prefiere antes que a mĂ.â
âAh. Estas alas son solo una mera extensiĂłn de mĂ misma⊠realmente no cuenta si se mueven, pero si digamos que mi pierna o mi mano lo hacen⊠â Me detuve, esperando que entendiera mi punto.
Iâm sorry for not being as active as I used to be but ya girl out here trying to get her degree ASAP...going to school all year round with only about a week or so in between semesters. Yâall donât even want to know how many units Iâm taking for the spring semesterđđ
Anyway, I DIDNT FORGET ABOUT YALL I PROMISEđ„șđđđœ Iâve missed you all so so so much and Iâm so sorry Iâve stopped updating as regularly as I used tođ honestly Iâd love to have another admin upload so I could keep this account active but I donât have many people I can ask that have the time to be uploading constantly. I just donât want to keep you guys waiting any longer but I donât want to upload anything thatâs half assed yknow?
Siiiggghhh. I do really miss interacting with yâall on here so Iâll try to come by more than just once every blue moon, maybe with a new chapter or maybe just to chat. I hope youâre all staying safe out there! I love you all so so so much!!đđđ