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bliss

après ma relation avec tim je me suis persuadée qu’il avait pris des morceaux de moi. qu’à chaque nuit qui passait il en prenait, et que je ne pourrais jamais les récupérer. que tous les morceaux qu’il m’a pris étaient perdus à jamais, que j’étais perdue à jamais.

après la pire nuit de ma vie, écoutant bliss de muse dans sa voiture, il m’a dit « tu vois dans la chanson, c’est toi mon bliss », alors que je me tordais de douleur de la nuit passée.

cette chanson me fait toujours penser à lui, que je le veuille ou non.

sauf que cette fois-ci, je suis allée voir muse seule. j’ai fait la queue seule. je me suis amusée au concert seule.

et surtout ils ont joué bliss. chose qu’ils ne font jamais.

et là j’ai réalisé.

j’ai parcouru un énorme chemin non terminé encore, et je l’ai fait seule. je me suis époumonée sur bliss, parce qu’en fait il ne m’a rien pris. il n’a pas réussi à me détruire. je me suis relevée sans lui et j’ai avancé sans lui. j’étais là et je suis encore là.

il ne m’a rien pris.

c’est moi mon propre bliss.

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ohhhh to be tenderly kissed and held and cuddled and loved and go to sleep knowing you'll wake in the arms of the same person you thought you'd never cross paths with!!!

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hugo si tu vois ça casse toi de là arrête de lire merci

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when i’ll be thin i’ll be pretty

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learn to love again

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me: isolates myself

also me: cries because i feel lonely

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do you still think of me ?

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i wanna be hugged till i fall asleep

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Dare me to jump off of this Jersey bridge

I bet you never had a Friday night like this

Keep it up, keep it up, let's raise our hands

I take a look up at the sky and I see

Red for the cancer, red for the wealthy

Red for the drink that's mixed with suicide

Everything red

Please, won't you push me for the last time

Let's scream until there's nothing left

So sick of playing, I don't want this anymore

The thought of you's no fucking fun

You want a martyr, I'll be one

Because enough's enough, we're done

You told me think about it, well I did

Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore

I'm tired of begging for the things that I want

I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor

The thing I think I love

Will surely bring me pain

Intoxication, paranoia, and a lot of fame

Three cheers for throwing up

Pubescent drama queen

You make me sick, I make it worse by drinking late

Scream until there's nothing left

So sick of playing, I don't want to anymore

The thought of you's no fucking fun

You want a martyr I'll be one

Because enough's enough, we're done

You told me think about it, well I did

Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore

I'm tired of begging for the things that I want

I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor

Imagine living like a king someday

A single night without a ghost in the walls

And if the bass shakes the earth underground

We'll start a new revolution now

(Now! Alright here we go)

Hail Mary, forgive me

Blood for blood, hearts beating

Come at me, now this is war!

Fuck with this new beat

Oh!

Now terror begins inside a bloodless vein

I was just a product of the street youth rage

Born in this world without a voice or say

Caught in the spokes with an abandoned brain

I know you well but this ain't a game

Blow the smoke in diamond shape

Dying is a gift so close your eyes and rest in peace

You told me think about it, well I did

Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore

I'm tired of begging for the things that I want

I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor

Imagine living like a king someday

A single night without a ghost in the walls

We are the shadows screaming take us now

We'd rather die than live to rust on the ground

Shit

#Spotify

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spoiler alert : tu l’étais déjà léa, depuis plusieurs mois

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I’m surprised I haven’t killed myself yet, lol.

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