thisiswalmart

[thisiswalmart]

The only thing I truly want is peace. Just peace. No screaming inside my head, no one disturbing me. I just want peace.

And thought it may seem to be such a simple thing, it's the only thing I can never have.

#mentally ill #sad thoughts #fuck #depression vent #anxious #heartbreak #i hate my mind #i'm fucking drained #suicudal #sewer slide #self h@rm

[thisiswalmart]

Just wanna live with my plants and books and music and not worry about who I am or what I look like.

#mentally ill #sad thoughts #plants #plantlife #books #booksarelife #music #hate myself #i just wanna leave #depressing life #fuck #i hate people

[thisiswalmart]

i wanna be so skinny i don't need a binder lol

[thisiswalmart]

I hate love. I hate it so much because I crave it like nothing else. I scrape love off the ground and lick it off the lips of people. I'm terrified of love. How am I supposed to ever believe anyone could love someone as ugly and pathetic as ME.

Being in love just makes me want to commit suicide.

#depression vent #mentally ill #sad thoughts #anxious #heartbreak #i hate my mind #i'm fucking drained #memories #mental abuse #love #fuck love #i hate this world #in pain #fuck #tw selfhate

[thisiswalmart]

Mother,

I do not love you.

#depression vent #mentally ill #sad thoughts #heartbreak #i hate my mind #i'm fucking drained #in pain #memories #mental abuse #anxious #i hate my mom #mommy issues #child abuse #parents #living with ptsd #i hate you

[thisiswalmart]

Reblog if it’s okay to befriend you, ask questions, ask for advice, rant, vent, let something off your chest, or just have a nice chat.

[thisiswalmart]

i was just a vessel to my parents to fill up with their anger, guilt, trauma. i was just a vessel for every person i ever met, to dump their lies, mistakes, needs in it. nobody ever bothered to check, nobody waited. i was never a person to anyone

[thisiswalmart]

i wish i just committed suicide when i had the chance.

[thisiswalmart]

I want to be mad at you. I want to hate you. I want to punch you. I want to scream at you. I want to tell you everything you did to me and then abandon you from my life.

But I am sitting here. And I just cant be mad at you. And its tearing me apart.

#childhood trauma #depression vent #mentally ill #sad thoughts #anxious #heartbreak #i hate my mind #i'm fucking drained #in pain #memories #mental abuse #child abuse #abuse mention #angerdriven #tw anger #dealing with anger #i hate you #fuck you #ptsd #sewer slide #tw selfhate #tw s/h

[thisiswalmart]

you know when you feel bad but its not the depressed, cry and eat comfort food kind of bad where you can let it all out, its the internalised uncomfortable, irritable, might behave self-destructively in order to feel worse kind of bad?

[thisiswalmart]

The amount of alchohol I've been drinking lately is ungodly

[thisiswalmart]

I always thought I was polluting my surroundings. But I'm starting to think that maybe, just maybe, my surroundings are polluting me.

#mental abuse #child abuse #abuse survivor #depression vent #anxious #mental illness #mentally ill #ptsd problems #i hate you #i hate my mind #childhood #sad thoughts #sad but true #i hate this world #i hate myself #i hate my mom #fuck you #i'm fucking drained #in pain #memories

[thisiswalmart]

I don't want all this pain anymore. I just feel so heavy and it never stops. I want to feel light.

#depression vent #tw depressing thoughts #depressing quotes #grief #sad thoughts #anxious #in pain #heartbreak #ptsd problems #mental abuse #mentally ill #mentally drained #always tired #tired #i'm fucking drained #i want it to stop #i cant take it #hopelessness

[thisiswalmart]

[thisiswalmart]

I mean yeah communication is key but so is a sense of understanding. Because if I tell you something and you're not willing to see where I'm coming from, then what's the point of telling you anything.

[thisiswalmart]

Every time I tell someone about my memory issues I feel like I'm not being understood. It's not just forgetting appointments or buying groceries or the name of a person. It's forgetting your best friend's favourite colour, a core memory with your loved ones, whole conversations and evenings spent laughing and talking and entire years that just vanish into nothing and you are left with this gut wrenching feeling that tears you apart. And I really don't think people understand that.

#tw depressing thoughts #mental illness #mentally ill #sad thoughts #living with ptsd #i hate my mind #i want this to end #tw selfhate #depression vent #memory loss #memories #heartbreak #misunderstood