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Glasses people love to make you try their glasses on to see how fucked up their eyes are. It's a sign of respect in their culture.

#MEEEEEEEEEEE

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#😫😫😫 #I just got a Facebook message from my dads coworker #to let me know that they are having a retirement party for him next week #and that they’d like to surprise him with my presence #and I really don’t want to do that drive and go #and have to figure out work scheduling #but also I feel like maybe it would be important to go? #idkkkkkk #I’d have to miss my kickball game which would be sad #since it’s my last season #but also I have quite a few more games after this #or I guess I could drive at 8pm after but that seems like a nightmare #ugh #will have to think it over and decide #I feel like I’m probably going to end up going #even though it will exhaust me #truthfully I wish they hadn’t asked at all

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i have to be at the airport for a 6:30 flight tomorrow! (💀) and i need structure to get me there:

would like to go to bed between 10-10:30. ideally i could go to bed now but i know i won’t fall asleep so that feels pointless.

if the flight is at 6:30, i think i want to aim to be at the airport by 5. this is probably overkill because it’s a tiny airport but you never know i guess.

if i leave my house at 4:40, it will take me 12 minutes to drive there and then about 7 minutes to walk to from the lot to the terminal

so i think i could get up at like 4:20 and quickly brush my teeth and hair and pack those two things, get dressed, and then leave. oh and maybe eat a snack.

things I must remember: poster tube! leave keys in mailbox! phone charger!

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alright so both of my clients cancelled today so i just have a meeting at 2pm with my supervisor. i am really tired today so i would like to rest a bit but id also like to get some stuff done. here’s a tentative plan:

10-11:30am: rest and play on my phone

11:30am: maybe go for a quick walk

then: fill out supervision log

12-2pm: figure out VA stuff and email them about doctors note. also maybe code a few tapes

2-3pm: sup

3pm: go get poster from campus. maybe work in the stacks for a bit? Or maybe just go home

pack for trip

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i did the date! and i felt anxious but it’s okay! he still wants to keep seeing me anyways!

okay i have a date at 6pm and i feel increasingly anxious about it so i will make a list to help me feel more in control!:

4-4:30ish: go for walk

4:30-5ish: do makeup and maybe hair?

5ish-5:30: pick up around the apt (garbage away, pillows in place, change bedding and make bed, dishes in sink)

5:30-5:45: get dressed

wait around!

#he asked me tonight why i swiped right on him #given our past history #and it felt good to get to explain why that was #because I’ve been wanting to try out saying those words to a romantic partner #about like my difficulties with physical intimacy #so i liked that i got to #and that it was received well

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okay i have a date at 6pm and i feel increasingly anxious about it so i will make a list to help me feel more in control!:

4-4:30ish: go for walk

4:30-5ish: do makeup and maybe hair?

5ish-5:30: pick up around the apt (garbage away, pillows in place, change bedding and make bed, dishes in sink)

5:30-5:45: get dressed

wait around!

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okay i worked at the coffee shop for two hours today and am trying to decide whether i can be done so let's see what needs to be done by tomorrow evening:

need to figure out where to make edit for manuscript (could take up to 1.5 hours maybe?). also need to write the cover letter (30 minutes)

need to organize data analysis (could be like 2-3 hours)

need to go to brown bag presentation (1.25 hours - can work during)

should probably code reliability tapes (1 hour)

submit poster for printing (30 mins)

if i got up at 10am, i could finish the edits by 11:30ish and code the reliability tapes until the brown bag, and then do the cover letter during the brown bag. then i could do the data organizing afterwards until the end of the day. okay hmm maybe i will try to code one or two tapes right now and then go home and call it for the day. oooh or i could work on some data entry stuff. maybe when i go home i could put on a show and do a bit of that (or figure out a time to set aside to really dive into that).

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i ended up going to the park and it was so nice! there were a bunch of different little areas and there weren’t very many people and it was so peaceful to just take my time and explore ☺️

i also want to make a plan for tomorrow so i can relax tonight:

10-11am: therapy

maybe go to the grocery store if the traffic doesn’t seem crazy

12-2pm: work on either poster or revisions (probably should do poster)

2-4pm: figure out eclipse plans and watch eclipse

code a few transcripts

do a cleaning task or an exercise task

#what a weekend honestly #i feel really happy today

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i had a good date on friday night and actually spent the night at his place (terrible sleep quality because i do not do well with other people next to me BUT love cuddling) and then i drove to Niagara Falls to spend a few hours with my best friend who is visiting there from NYC!!! it was so nice to see her without it being a huge product and plan and even more special because i wasn’t sure i was going to be able to because of all the eclipse craziness! but i just decided to go for it and it was so so worth it. i really wish we lived closer to each other so we could do that all the time but at least soonish ill have a job with money so i can afford more trips. anyways im wanting to continue to make this weekend fun and positive so i think i’ll go explore a new park today! i think its going to be muddy probably but i’ll just wear some old shoes and figure it out!

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i got a covid vaccine and flu vaccine this morning (job requirements for my upcoming internship) and i was going through the whole day like “yay! i feel fine!” and even went on a run in the 35 degree weather and then about 30 minutes ago the side effects hit and now i feel miserable 🙃 im disappointed too because I have a date tomorrow and it would have been nice to do these vaccines on Saturday instead so i could feel miserable at home but i was worried about places running out of flu shots so i just did it. luckily i think i’m just going over to his place to watch basketball so it shouldn’t be too taxing if im not feeling well

#guess I could always cancel if i had to also #but I’ve been so anxious about it that I really just want it to happen

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reblog or reply with your love song. you know, the one that you think is what love sounds like

#i was just thinking about this today #and realized that every time i start going on multiple dates with someone #i start playing fearless by Taylor swift #so I guess that’s up there! #probably a close second is at last by Etta James #if i’m feeling classy

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i'm literallyyyyyyyy so tired (when will i ever not be??? who knows?!?!?!?!) but time moves forward anyways so i must make a plan of how i will get through this cursed day!

11:30-12pm: finish editing paper for ED and send it to her

12-2pm: figure out how to adjust for outlier and run a few analyses with that to prep for meeting with JTM tomorrow (didn’t quite do this but did work on the data at least)

2:30-3:30pm: work on poster and eat lunch

3:30-5: code as many transcripts as i can. also send codes to VA

5pm: can be done at this time if i want to

oh also need to call the vet at some point

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i still have not recovered from my terrible weekend of sleep/the ongoing anxiety around dating (fun!) so i need some structure for my brain. i think i might do best if i try to really just work through this whole day and tire myself out. here’s the potential plan:

9-10am: session

10-11am: write GB note, send GB referrals, grab ML materials, find feelings wheel for ML

11-12pm: session

12-1pm: write ML note, make sure i have materials for BW ready, maybe start FP termination note

1-2pm: session

2-3pm: consult meeting

3-4pm: session

4-5pm: write BW and AT notes, either work on termination note or code transcripts

at home tonight: either do stepper or go for jog, prep chicken for freezer, make chicken and asparagus

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GOING CRAZY RN

#I’ve only very very recently gotten into smosh #(mainly their trivial pursuit videos) #and I’ve have been looking into this SO MUCH #i hardly know these people but i NEED this to be real

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why can’t i escape the anxiety between a first and second date! this person has explicitly said multiple times that they like me and would like to see me again and yet im still like “….but what if they hate me? what if they think im weird?”. like, shut up brain! you are not being helpful!

#also ironically he texted me while I was writing this #it’s just so ridiculous! #it makes me physically nauseous and for what?

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OMG

#just got a text from the guy I went out with Saturday #and the exact face I made was 😳 #and then I squealed #this is wild #gonna have to channel all my fic writing experience into being sexy hot and cool #😂

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alright well i finally got into my apartment and my landlord came by with a new lock and now it’s 5:30 and im so tired and unmotivated so i think i will take this whole day as a sign to not work and will pick back up tomorrow

alright let’s see, i am feeling like absolute garbage due to poor sleep over the weekend (apparently two espresso martinis at 8pm are not a good idea) but i must carry on. luckily its a pretty light day today and i have time to make up for lost work tomorrow and Wednesday so it should be okay. here’s my thought for how the day could unfold:

12:45-1:15pm: eat lunch

try to work from like 1:30-4 or 5. probably largest goal is to code transcripts. other goals are: work on poster and finish editing ED paper. also if nothing is really coming together, it could be a good day to do some data entry

send in paperwork?

ooooooh maybe do laundry

would really like to go for a walk today

7:15pm: watch basketball