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happy Thursday the 20th

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hey reblog/reply with how old u were when u discovered fanfic, what year it was, and what site

#i was like 10 and it was wattpad

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working full time is terrible why do we just accept that having 8 days off a month is normal and okay........ being alive could be cool but we waste it at our JOBS.... sorry i’m just heated about capitalism again i’ll be fine

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One of the things that most writers can relate to is that we don’t want to and can’t write when someone’s sitting next to us. 

Like I don’t care if you promise me that you won’t even glance at the text. I don’t care if you don’t know me and I don’t know you. My writer, before I post/publish it, is 100% private and drafts are way more personal than people who don’t write expect them to be. In many cases the first writing is sometimes so raw that it almost pains me because I can truly feel it then. And I don’t want anybody else to see that. 

So if a writer asks you to sit a little bit furter while they write, please don’t question that. It’s one of the basic forms of respect you can show to an author.

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As a Taka kinnie, I can agree with the cries over everything

A bunch of fucking ishimondo headcanons

Mondo orders a cake for Ishimaru and the frosting is pink so he thinks it’s blood and starts crying

Ishimaru threw a rock and it accidentally hit Mondo and he starting bawling and he took him to the hospital and Mondo’s just like “Kyoudai calm down it didn’t hurt”

Once Mondo and Ishimaru tried switching talents for a day and Ishimaru ended up driving Mondo’s motorcycle into a lake and Mondo got detention for beating up people who broke the rules so he had to give himself detention

Once Ishi and Mondo were on a ferris wheel and they got to the top and it stopped and Ishimaru got really worried that they would die up there and started bawling and hugging Mondo and saying how much he loved him

Ishimaru and Mondo had a competition about who could be nicer and Mondo said something really really nice that it made ishimaru cry

Mondo and Chihiro put trick candles on Ishimarus birthday cake so when he tried blowing them out they kept lighting back up so ishimaru started crying

In Mondo’s birthday Ishimaru gave him a cards that said “Free kisses and hugs for a life time” and Mondo used them a lot

Ishimaru makes Mondo blush a lot by kissing him in public

Leon told Ishimaru bj stands for “Big Jet” and said Mondo really wanted a big jet so ishimaru went over to Mondo and said “Kyoudai I’m gonna give you a bj one day!!” In front of everyone and Mondo almost died of embarrassment

I saw after a long day Ishimaru likes to strip down and just sleep. So after a long hard day of being a hall monitor Ishimaru didn’t feel like putting his pajammies on so he just stripped down and slept but then Mondo came in and laid beside him and he’s like “Hey kyoudai” and Ishi just starts blushing really hard and says “Kyoudai I’m not wearing anything..” and Mondo just rolls of the bed and rolls under it and has a blush attack (and for some of you I’ll let your imagination see how it plays out from there)

Mondo and Ishimaru watched some scary movie and Ishimaru almost choked Mondo from from hugging him really tight

Everytime Ishimaru tries to help Mondo study they end up trying not to do a bunch of cute shit with each other

Mondo gives ishimaru eskimo kisses a lot

Once Ishi and Mondo bought a big thing of cotton candy and shared it

Ishimaru sneezes like a kitten and Mondo thinks it’s really cute

Ishimaru and Mondo watched old yeller and cried really hard with each other

Fukawa wrote a bunch of dirty ishimondo fanfiction and they both found it and read it and blushed really hard

Mondo tried to make ishimaru cookies bit ended up burning them but Ishimaru ate them anyway

Ishimaru wore a bunny suit on Easter and it made Mondo almost die of cuteness

Ishimaru and Mondo shared a bowl of spaghetti and ended up sucking on the same noodle and kissed like the lady in the tramp movie

Everytime ishi and Mondo pass the butter at the store Ishimaru starts crying

Ishimaru and Mondo went star gazing once and they saw a shooting star and Ishimaru said “Make a wish kyoudai!” And Mondo says “My wish already came true..I’m with you” and gives him a little kiss and Ishimaru tears up a bit from the happiness (I’m proud of this one)

Ishimaru and Mondo watched the fireworks together on the 4th of July and There was one that made a really loud boom noise and Ishi got scared to Mondo cuddled him

Ishimaru made a dog that looked like Chuck at build a bear and gave it to Mondo and he almost cried

Ishimaru and Mondo switched clothes and they imitated each other and Mondo didn’t mean to but when he was pretending to be ishi he said some pretty rude things without realizing it and Ishimaru started crying

Ishimaru tried to make a couple barbie dolls look like him and Mondo so they could play together

Ishimaru watched the Titanic with Mondo and started sobbing at the end

Ishimaru made a chart of everyday Mondo went a day without swearing and if he reaches 10 days he’ll take him to a motorcycle race or something

Chihiro gave Ishimaru the lyrics to a sex song and told him to sing it in front of everyone and Ishimaru didn’t mind cuz he didn’t understand what it was about so he said something like “This song goes out to my kyoudai!” And he sang it and Mondo just stood there face totally red the whole time

Ishimaru and Sayaka put on a show and Ishimaru plays the recorder and Sayaka plays the tambourine and when they’re done Ishimaru thought he sucked compared to Sayaka but Mondo just tells him how great he was (Even though they both sucked)

Mondo bought a Wii and got Mario kart so him and Ishi decided to play it together and Mondo beats Ishi like 10 times in a row and Ishimaru cries

Ishimaru thinks there’s a monster under his bed so Mondo has to pretend to scare it away every night

Ishimaru once dressed up as a maid and shows Mondo and he has a nosebleed

Ishimaru and Mondo go to SeaWorld and they go to the dolphins and Ishimaru wants to feed one so they both go over to the place and Ishimaru falls in the water and starts crying and Mondo has to save him

The whole DR cast goes go the beach and when it’s nighttime Ishi and Mondo sits on the beach by the waves and draw each other and stuff in the sand

Ishimaru makes a little scrapbook of all their favorite moments and gives it to him for Christmas

Ishimaru and Mondo go on a date and Chihiro decides to be the third wheel and tags along

When Ishimaru and Mondo first kissed it was very awkward because Mondo’s hair kept getting in the way and they were both blushing pretty hard and they didn’t know when to stop

Ishimaru teaches Mondo how to make rice balls

Ishimaru cries over almost everything but Mondo’s always there to comfort him

Mondo and Ishimaru watched some movie and a sex scene came on and they both just looked away from each other and blushed really hard

Mondo tries to make Ishimaru chocolate for Valentine’s day but fails so Ishimaru helps him make some and they eat it together

Mondo goes really fast on his motorcycle sometimes just to make Ishi hold on tighter and so he can comfort him when the ride is over

Ishimaru and Mondo made out once and it was really really awkward and Ishimaru cried afterwards

Ishimaru sings you are my sunshine to Mondo and cries as he sings it

When they’re studying Ishimaru tends to ask Mondo questions to make sure he’s listening and everytime he gets a question right he gives him a kiss

Mondo gets ishimaru to play the pocky game with him and when they’re noses start touching ishimaru starts blushing like crazy but Mondo ends up breaking the pocky and Ishimaru just kisses him

Ishimaru sees Mondo slide down the stair rail and wants to show him he’s cool so he tries it but ends up falling off half way and gets a bunch of cuts and starts crying so Mondo takes him home and takes care if him

Ishimaru and Mondo go out in the snow at night time and look at all the Christmas lights and stuff

Ishimaru finds some mini doll thing and shows Mondo and he’s like “Kyoudai look! Isn’t this doll the cutest thing you’ve ever seen?” and Mondo says “No” and Ishimaru asks “…what is then?” And Mondo gives him a little kiss and says “I’m looking at him right now” and Ishi just blushes like crazy and almost cries

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Snapchat really be testing this guy

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wlw and mlm solidarity

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i am LOSING IT

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I liked these all better than my original doodle on this canvas

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Hosuh: A waiter could literally kill me and I would still tip 20%

Jay: I would actually tip more if they murdered me. That's great customer service

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Daily Reminder from Jay

You can make it. It’ll be tough, but you can handle it. If you can’t, there are people to support you, no matter the issue.

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Spinel is BPD-coded

And I am ecstatic that there’s an actual canon character with BPD. Needless to say, don’t read farther if you haven’t seen the Steven Universe movie. There’s spoilers. Her whole arc is compressed, of course, since it had to fit into the span of a single movie. But it’s really obvious…

A naive, friendly child who made friends easily…

Left behind/abandoned by one who she thought was her best friend…

Years alone trying to come to terms with the fact that her friend wasn’t coming back…

Wondering what she did wrong…

Learning that her best friend made other friends that she loves…

Realizing that her best friend could have made room for her, too, but either chose not to or completely forgot…

An almost crazed depression when you realize you weren’t good enough.

The desire to hurt those people to show them how much you care.

You’ve made friends? They’re going to abandon you, just like she did. Hurt them, too.

The realization that you’ve been hurting someone you deeply care about.

The realization that you can’t take it back.

“I’m just not good enough–not good enough for pink. But now!? NOW I’M NOT GOOD AT ALL!”

“You actually liked me. Didn’t you? What am I doing? Why do I want to hurt you so bad? I’m supposed to be your friend. I just want to be your friend.”

“Friendship isn’t going to be easy for me. I’m gonna have to work at it… I’ve already messed up bad with you. I wish I could just start from scratch with somebody.”

Her power is literally causing everyone to “start from scratch” as it were. An idealized version of the person you met. A strong desire to go back and start over. The embodiment of “I wish–” or “I should have–” 

Because of how BPD works, I have a feeling she’ll be back. She started over with new people who “adore” her, as the song goes. But the problem with BPD is that it’s a cycle. People love you, or adore you, or give you the attention you’re craving, only for that love to fade to something comfortable or normal after a time. Which triggers the symptoms of BPD to return, causing the destructive phase all over again. 

I feel bad for Spinel. She’s going to have a lot to overcome if she wants to learn to truly love again. Hopefully this isn’t her whole story arc, either, given the fact that BPD takes years to develop and isn’t cured in the span of a few days or because someone shows love to you. 

It’s great to have a canon character with a severe mental disorder. I’m sure the crewniverse will treat her right.

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Friendships

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