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I am early but I'm only here to tell you all choose recovery, like I am.

after starting to struggle with self harm as well, i had a sudden change in mindset. i am tired of struggling with my eating and my body for the past like 6 years, i wanna enjoy holidays and cake. you deserve to too. i hope im not back and i hope you leave, but this account will stay up.

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hii everyone, i think im going to take a longer hiatus from Tumblr. i don't wanna recover but i don't wanna actively restrict?

i just want a break this summer, ofc ill have that stupid voice in my head going "don't eat that" "starve" "you don't deserve food" but it's easier to overcome it if im not on tumblr seeing everyone else do amazing at losing weight.

promise ill be back after the summer holidays, ready to restrict and lose weight again.

p.s. my signing off weight is 56.85 :)

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WAOT GUYS im checking in real quick cause i went to the doctor and they measured more accurately and said i AM 5'4" WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO. also they commented on my weight loss and were a little sus but anyways.

orrait loggin off again :))

guys i just figured out im not 5'4", im actually like 5'3" which makes my bmi so much higher and probably explains why my body doesn't look like other people's with my stats >:(

i just updated my ugw3 so that it's ACTUALLY underweight for my actual height :((

i wanna die ://

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hii guys

im taking a little break from Tumblr probably untill school ends.

i gained weight (58.1) and it's really stressing me out so i wanna try intuitive eating for a couple weeks until im ready to restrict again.

bye, love y'all <3

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Also I hope this doesn’t come across as rude, but please don’t reply to my posts ( or anyone’s) like “OMG I could never eat 1000 cals 🥺🥺 I would literally ball my eyes out if I ate anywhere near the amount YOU eat” because it makes anyoneeee feel like pure shit. It makes me feel like I’m eating too much, which is ridiculous because I’m not, and I know that. But before you say something like this it please reflect on how it could impact others.

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How I reached 99Ibs

1. Drink at least 3L water everyday 2. Drink green tea in the morning 3. Eat at least 1500kcal otherwise your metabolism will slow down 4. Avoid sugar - eat healthy 5. Eat regularly 6. Never skip breakfast 7. Don’t binge 8. Still listen to your body!

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calorie intake: 700

workout: 100 (phe class)

well i overate by mistake at dinner cause i got really flustered and now i feel nauseous, at least the rest of the day was low cal.

vent time:

oh my god sometimes my mom makes me literally wanna k-word myself. so im at dinner blah blah, and then i remember how we're planning to go to india during summer vacation so we can my grandparents. but then i remembered that even thought id workout, id probably get barely any steps and indian food is so FUCKING HIGH CAL. i got really anxious so i asked my mom what we'd do. she said that they're planning to order from a lunch service that delivers the meal but i KNOW, from the pictures my gramma sent, that the meals are super calorie dense. so i asked is there anything else. and she gets so fucking mad like "im not your slave, you can't expect me to cook there" and "unless, you're gonna learn how to cook, don't bitch about it" and "if you're gonna be like this, you should stay here". and i start to cry because im sensitive and im still tryna explain that i just was wondering if she had any suggestions. and then she goes "i know what this is, you're being one of those teenagers who want to be anorexic". like okay, thank you, for invalidating me. thank you for being super toxic and implying im a "wannerexic". if you suspect your daughter might have an eating disorder, MAYBE help???? instead of shaming her?? well thank you for giving me motivation to starve. i will try and eat as low cal as possible on holiday (probably leaving like june 20th) and if i gain, i'll just restrict like crazy once im back :/

it feels so horrible but i low-key hope we don't go now, i do wanna see my grandparents but i don't wanna get fat. im a horrible person.

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it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself. it will be worth it in summer. you will thank yourself

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i want mutuals who have like similar stats 😩

reblog / like (so i can follow) if any of these apply:

- you're under 18 but over 14

- you live with parents

- you like exercising!

- you restrict like me (typical: 800-1100)

- you had a HIGH starting weight (70kg/155lbs+)

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y'all so i was doing a mini (liquid) fast

i started at 6:30 last night and stopped at 2 this afternoon (i had one 80cal orange juice box in between but it's not food so)

but i just finished my snack and i feel so nauseas, do y'all get that nausea too?

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Tumblr, because who needs therapy when you can talk to yourself 24/7 without risking hospitalization.

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Friendly reminder that tomorrow is the first day of pride month and if I see any biphobia, I will throw hands

This includes, but is not limited to:

saying that bisexuality excludes trans/nonbinary people (it doesn't)

saying that bisexuality is too binary (it isn't)

saying that bisexuality is outdated (again, it isn't)

saying/implying that bisexuals only care about gender rather than personality (which is gross and untrue)

derailing conversations on biphobia and its effects

excluding bisexuals from mlm and wlw spaces/discussions

speaking over bisexuals in conversations on the issues we face

refusing to listen to bisexuals if we say something is biphobic

ignoring bisexual history and activism

ignoring the present contributions of bisexuals to LGBTQ culture

making demeaning jokes about bisexuals or jokes that rely on negative stereotypes

stereotyping bisexuals in general

viewing bisexuals as 'half-straight'/'lesser' members of the LGBTQ community

and finally, speaking over bisexuals about the very definition of bisexuality

yes this includes saying things like 'that sounds more like [other sexuality]' or 'if you define your attraction that way you're [other sexuality] instead' in response to a bisexual person describing how they define their orientation for themself

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“If she puts her phone face down she a hoe”

*meanwhile on my phone*tumblr: “ANOREXIA.BABEXOX JUST LIKE YOUR POST”

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probably ate like 1500 calories but at least my summatives went well :'(

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ARGH

That “we have the same height and weight and body shape but your body looks better than mine” mentality

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FUCK im at 57.75 :((

i was so close to 57 but my weekend binge ruined it >:(

I'll have to be so strict if I want to get to 56 before i go on summer vacation, that gives me like just under 3 weeks to lose almost 2kg WHHDDUDB