traumawings

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not to get all sad for no reason but something nobody tells you about growing up is that a part of you is just a little girl who is yelling ‘please like me please love me please tell me i am good’ at everyone you meet and most of your day is just trying to ignore her

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never thought i'd still be alive by now, let alone have a job and friends and a better relationship with my parents

things really do change

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shout out to the kids who used to wish they had cancer, or wish they had a broken bone, or wish they would get some deadly illness just so SOMEBODY WOULD FUCKING CARE

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Ive had mh care for 6 years now and i still feel like shit

Maybe i should try antidepressants or smth

#im just scared that ive been faking this entire time #i feel so nostalgic and sad still #like sometimes i have good days but my emotional baseline is still fucking shit

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Abusive parents will raise you so that every time you're in a room with another person you'll be asking yourself 'What if I'm not being useful enough? What if I'm being a burden right now? Could I have done something different? Can I do anything more to prove that I'm not a hindrance and a waste of space?" and then, when you're already using your entire life to do other people's bidding in hope that one day someone will love you, they'll attack you for being selfish, lazy, worthless, inconsiderate, greedy and spoiled little brat.

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sometimes i wish / i didn’t feel / so stuck, / so unable to change

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a.b | seen (1/09/2022) it has a companion, here

for more of my work check out my instagram & my paragraph

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Do you ever feel like people want pieces of you but never all of you?

#reblog #no but actually #ive literally scared so many people away with my... #intensity lmao

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i want to be fucking sick i want to be fucking sick i want to be fucking sick i want to be fucking sick i DESERVE TO BE FUCKING SICK

#vent #venting #trauma #traumacore #childhood trauma #ptsd #cptsd #just cptsd things #csa #cocsa #actually traumatized #trauma things #i dont think ill ever not want to be sick from time to time #just because i hate myself and because i wanna feel validated #but idk maybe im just fucking toxic

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my favorite genre of music is songs that make you nostalgic for something you've never experienced

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the impulse to hide what I'm doing at my computer still sits so deep even tho I'm literally never looking at anything objectionable , the door will open and I'll hurry to close the page like oh fuck no one can know I'm looking at the Wikipedia page for the Balkans

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i wanna get into filmmaking and make a living out of everything art related but i know thats just unrealistic

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i just wanna be a dropout man

let me rot in peace thank you and please

#vent #vent post #ventpost #mine #actuallytraumatized #traumacore #depression culture #trauma #ptsd

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