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First day at the new specialist.
I'm so nervous and sad and scared.
I really wanted someone with me but everyone couldn't and they felt bad but I kept telling them that I'm a big girl I can to by myself to not let anyone feel bad....but in reality I'm a big scared girl and don't want to be alone.
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still trying to conceive without sex
Its been tiring for us to try for a baby. I am thinking of starting to use the "cup and the syringe" method. What are the problems faced while using this method? 
From what i have gathered from my friends who are trying to conceive, problems includes
(1) semen left in cup
(2) semen left in syringe
(3) unable to use one-hand to operate the syringe
(4) unable to see the volume of semen 
(5) difficulty to pull the plunger of the syringe 
I hope to gather some information of these procedure before starting it. I would like to know which problem is the most prominent one. ( please rank if possible) 
Please help a lost girl 
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Rant time...probably doesn't follow or read well but I need to get thoughts out.
I'm ovulating and of course my husband's family has to fuck it up/all cards are stacked against us. This was our last chance before we get referred out of our already specialist to the next level.
How did his family aid in fucking it up you might ask? We told them this week wasn't good for their moving trip. Mind you they can move anytime they want. They own both houses and have no rush. Well his mom said he had to move her and that my issues do not matter to her and she already has one grandkid from his sister (who mind you didn't even want kids in the first place) that she hates. She didn't want another one.
So he tried to tell her no. She said she didn't care and already rented a Uhaul. She is disabled and none of the other kids will help her. They are to lazy. Literally his sister pawns her kid off on anyone who will watch him and gets high all the time. The other brother says it's to hot and he can't work. So my husband is left no choice if he wants to see his nephew and be a part of that family. She also gave him such short notice and he has to take the rest of the week off. Thankfully he had PTO so we wouldn't be short on bills but there goes any chance of the vacation for visiting my family up north. I haven't seen them in 4 years. I have my family here but they are my siblings and grandparents from my biological father. I hate his guts as he was an abusive addict. They all live in up north. But aside from him everyone else has stayed in touch with me. My grandma is a wonderful women. She had a stroke and almost died and isn't doing well....I want to see her. I have my mom and one brother here. I'm thankful for them but I don't see them much do to work schedules....
We were planning on it.
I have to work. I could not switch my schedule. I tried....
He is leaving today after work and won't be back till Friday night late.
We baby danced last night and tried again this morning....except this morning he couldn't get off. He woke up late, I tried to get him up earlier, and he just couldn't. We tried many things. In his defense he was half asleep....
I just feel so defeated. I have been working on losing weight, taking my meds like I'm supposed to. Testing every day. I'm trying so hard.
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Welcome to the shit show...where people ask when I'll get pregnant and I'm surrounded by pregnant women. The being asked is the part that's the worse then anything else....
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Fucking mother nature.
Fucking aunt Flo.
I don't think I can do this anymore.
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12 DPO....All tests are negative. Gotta wait a few more days and try to hold it together. My poor husband is not holding it in so well. He's excited. The blood tests look very good and had the best numbers I've ever had.
I'm scared of breaking his heart by not getting pregnant. Its been almost 7 years.... He said he doesn't blame me.. but I blame me.
My nieces gender reveal is this weekend. She keeps sending me tik toks about how God only gives babies to those who need them/need saving. Not who want them, not who try for them.
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What do you say when you’re asked that dreaded question?
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Pregnancy Announcement jealousy. It’s a real thing and It’s one of the worst things in the world to feel when you are struggling to even get pregnant..
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For me, having PCOS is tolerable most days. Sometimes I even forget its there.
But then theres moments that make me feel like I've lost my womanhood to it and it makes me miserable.
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Stop asking women when they are having babies!
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Stop Giving People Unsolicited Fertility Advice!
A word of warning: This is a rant.
I went to a masseuse yesterday and this lady was someone who I had never met before. When I went there, I expected to get a massage and maybe some chitchat. Instead, she gave me a lecture on the importance of nutrition when trying to get pregnant. At no point had I mentioned anything related to pregnancy or children. Her lecture was totally unwelcome and not something you’d expect to get when going to a masseuse.
If a person does not ask you for fertility advice, then for f***’s sake do not give it to them. It does not matter whether you are their friend, a colleague, their physiotherapist, or their doctor – DO NOT GIVE UNSOLICITED FERTILITY ADVICE.
First of all, I am childfree. Stop assuming everyone wants children!!! When I mention that I am childfree, which only happens if someone asks about it or if the advice giver is especially annoying, I am usually met with contempt or “you’ll change your mind” BS. That’s why I generally try to avoid mentioning it, because the reactions to it make me wanna bite someone’s head off.
Second, I have endometriosis and PCOS along with other gynecological illnesses, and these illnesses are something I only want to discuss with a certain few. And even with those people it is me who prompts the conversation. These illnesses are not something I want to discuss with random people I have just met. When a person starts giving unsolicited fertility advice it catches me off guard every.single.time and forces me to think of my illnesses. This is exhausting. It’s even worse when this advice comes when you’re least expecting it, like when you’re at a masseuse. 🙄 Since I do not want to open up about my illnesses to a colleague/shop assistant/dentist/masseuse/nurse/hamster sitter etc… I usually zoom out of the conversation, try to ignore what’s said, and change to a different topic (behaviorism 101: ignoring is a punishment, yei). However, this still does not stop me from feeling completely shitty afterwards.
My heart really goes out to those who are struggling with infertility. I can’t even imagine how miserable unsolicited advice makes them feel.
TLDR: Do not give people unsolicited fertility advice!!
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I have seen so many announcements this week, and i have been told by so many that they are expecting/haven’t announced. I can’t help but feel jealous.
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Happy International Women’s Day
1 out of 4 women experience pregnancy loss.
1% experience recurrent miscarriages.
I fall under these. I’ve made artworks for each losses.
Many women suffer in silence from such a traumatic event.
You are not alone. Break the stigma.
Spread the word.
Remember us.
Pregnancy loss isn’t “oversharing”. We’ve lost a part of us and family. Such a traumatic event in our lives that other people could share about their loved ones dying.
Our babies died, too. They’re valid to us. 💖💖
Let’s stop shaming women for sharing their stories.
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(Also stop asking this question of men and non-binary people, too.) And if people ask you why you don't have kids, or when you're going to have a baby, or when you're going to have another baby, or when you're going to have a baby of the opposite sex from the one(s) you already have, or offers unsolicited (and probably not science-based) fertility advice, or nags you about your "biological clock," or makes insensitive BS comments about you "not knowing what real love is" or "not having meaning in your life," remember... You don't owe them an explanation. And you don't owe them a baby. Your body, and your sex life, and your reproductive choices are not anyone else's business but your own.
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TW: childhood trauma...
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