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They left me on "read" and we never spoke again

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When you realize who your friends aren't.

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"To heal from your mother wound, you need to mourn the loss of the mother you wish you had. She's not going to change, things won't be different. Allow yourself to grieve that fantasy of the ideal mother." -Ruth @thehealingdaugh

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I've always been quite fond of Near Death Experiences (NDE). I enjoy hearing them because it gives me hope. Also something lighthearted to look forward to once it's my time.

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Fear

I'm worried. What if I never find the right career path? What if I end up stuck in a mediocre job where I'm working paycheck to paycheck. How long will I be searching? Will it takes days? Weeks? Months?...years??

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May 2, 2023

It's been a rough journey. I left my office job for a design job that pays better. It was totally out of my comfort zone, but I took the risk because I wanted to grow. I realized I spent most of my life living comfortably and it was time to move forward....Well fast forward and I am now jobless with a pinch of freelancing. Company was not the right fit. It was quite overwhelming and toxic too. They let me go...thankfully with a severance. Now I am back to job searching...whoop-de-do my favorite thing to do! Interviews, resumes, endless searching, rejections, you name it!...ugh I understood the risk of leaving my job for that one, but I did it anyway. Sometimes we have to do things scared. Was it all worth it? I guess I'll find out once I finally secure a job that's the right fit. Sometimes I have really depressing and self-defeating moments. While I'm relieved I no longer have to be at that toxic workplace, I am concerned about the direction of my career and my finances. What on earth am I meant to do? Is it really design? Is it something else?

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One of the most crucial qualities in this life is to welcome defeat in the same way you'd welcome success - fully surrendering with the possibility of either falling down and picking yourself up or soaring...but even more importantly so, to not let it take away even an ounce of your hope... Let your hope be indomitable at all times, relying on the one who is unchanging even in the face of changing circumstances, - even when your inside feels like you swallowed the storms of a thousand seas know that your rock remains among the clashing waves. ~ 

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Everybody isn't your friend.

Just because they hang around and laugh with you doesn't mean they are your friend.

People pretend well.

At the end of the day,

Real situations expose fake people, so pay attention.

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"Anything you lose by being honest, you never really had to begin with."

- Jessica Anyadoo

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"Gossip is supposed to make you feel morally superior to the subject of your gossip, right? I would argue, however, that I felt morally superior—especially to my old self—in not gossiping. In one scenario, you are reaping the benefits of looking down on someone. In the other scenario, you are eliminating your need for that type of validation and instead, ideally, practicing empathy."

-Erin Nicole, I Stopped Gossiping For A Month & This Is What Happened

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The art of loving you is worth mastering. You are worth it.

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At some point just gotta say fuck it and move forward.

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"Just move on. Stop worrying so much. Let it go. You're being too sensitive."

Words said by someone whom you initially thought was compassionate and understanding. Ugh.

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Fresh Wounds of a Broken Friendship

It's quite painful. All that time spent together not realizing they were in process of exiting the friendship. Their indifference makes it even worse. They haven't deleted, blocked or unfollowed me. Now they only acknowledge me if I reach out first. Aside from that, not much effort. They seem a lot happier without me too. Ouch.

Part of me wants to contact them one more time and ask what happened, but last time I asked them I got a b.s. response, "oh sorry you feel that way. I'm not mad at you I've just been busy." However, their changed actions disprove this. When I told them I miss them, their response seems distant.

I want to delete them and unfollow each other from from everything, but last time I did that with someone else I regretted it. So I just leave it. They are now just a person I used to know on my friend list. It breaks my heart to see them online. I notice they login right when I'm about to have an event, so I wonder if they will join me like old times. Not a peep from them. Lately I am wondering if they are doing this to taunt me. One thing I know is they haven't reached out to me in about 3 weeks, and it's been about three months since they stopped supporting me. They're done with me.

I think I unintentionally upset them or made them uncomfortable, so now they are distancing themselves.

I hate when people say to just let it go and move on. I can't just turn off my emotions like that. Sometimes I have to sit in the darkness. This wound runs deep and nothing anyone says can make it better. I'm just about done telling people about it. They just...don't get it. I know this isn't true, but sometimes it seems like I'm the only person who is sensitive about losing friends while everyone else easily moves on. It's a blanket statement I know.

I don't know how I'm going to get through this, but I will.

#quote #journal #diary #losing friends #heartbreak #i miss them #i miss her #i miss u

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“I notice everything. I mean everything. I noticed when the way someone talks to me starts changing. I notice the little things that people do, and the little things they used to do. I noticed every single little detail…”

and it’s fucking overwhelming

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