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hypersensitive // 1.26.2022

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sorry for being cold i’m just tired

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“I know that feeling. You have to do something. You have to change something radically, because you can’t stay like you are for another second, or you’re going to explode.”

— Jennifer Echols

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Vincent Van Gogh

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“I don’t know if I am a good person or a bad person. All I know is that I suffer more than you realize,”

— Nikos Kazantzakis, from a letter to Galatea Kazantzaki wr. c. May 1923

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living with debilitating depression is kind of a joke statement, because you aren't actually living. you're surviving, just trying to get through each moment of the day. I watch other people helping others and changing the world and I can't bear to break my precious little routine of doing nothing long enough to help anyone. so that makes me feel like my life is even more not worth it. but I can't do more, when all I want to do is die. I'm stuck in this cycle, I desperately want to get out but I don't know how. I need help. my existence feels pointless.

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hw // vent

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oh hey sorry I’ve been distant lately…. I’ve been really busy having a brain that is bad

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Words cant explain the hurt I'm feeling

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11.09.21

I don't know what to do (I say this over and over again - but it's the truth.) I have become a complete shell of the human I used to be. i try so hard every single day and all i can manage is to stay alive. I go to bed around 630pm because the suicidal thoughts are too much and I can't keep myself safe. I wake up filled with fear and dread for the day ahead, worrying if I'll be able to handle it. so many people have invested their time and energy into me getting better and I feel like I'm letting all of them down. I'm scared I won't be able to keep my promise, to keep trying. It's getting so so hard, harder everyday. and I don't know what the fuck to do.

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them: how close are you to a mental breakdown?

me: yes

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i’ve lost myself ... again // from my journal

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i’m so mentally exhausted it’s unreal

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Safia Elhillo, from Home Is Not a Country; “The Airport”