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tubs-of-toast · 3 years

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Random Question Prompts

Second set of random question/dialogue prompts for your next story!

“Don’t you remember?”

“Where have you been?”

“Are they bothering you?”

“Well, who do we have here?”

“How long have you been here?”

“Am I boring you?”

“Why is he doing that?”

“Can you please help me?”

“How do you like that?”

“Are you ready to lose?”

“Is this too much to ask for?”

“What do you mean?”

“Do you need to take a break?”

“Wouldn’t you like to know?”

“Can we just go home?”

“Do you miss the ocean?”

“What does it mean to you?”

“Are you sure about this?”

“When did that happen?”

“Did you have a good time?”

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tubs-of-toast · 3 years

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I started crying today as I stood in my kitchen about to start washing dishes. I got to thinking that I live in a healthy environment that I always look forward to coming home to. I have a boyfriend who always makes me smile. I am actively working on chasing my goals (held a steady job for 7 months and counting and I got on the honor roll for my college). I make my own decisions. I have friends again.

A year ago I thought I was doomed to be miserable forever because that's where I was. It gets so much better. Go to therapy, take the pills, work on yourself. When you do, things turn out good. It really does get better if you put in the work.

#depresjon #depressiv #depression #depressing quotes

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tubs-of-toast · 3 years

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Update: I finished my first semester of college with 3 A’s and 1 B. I have a steady job and I still live with my boyfriend.

I feel useless. I'm not in school. I can't find work. I have no money. I'm not at my goal weight. I hate my life.

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tubs-of-toast · 3 years

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That's any year for me

sylvia plath once wrote in her journal 'if i get through this year, no matter how badly, it will be the biggest victory i've ever done' and if that's not a mood for 2020 i don't know what is.

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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I hate it when people ask me for money. Just because I have money, doesn't mean I want to spend it. It definitely means I don't want to spend it on other people who will likely never pay me back the full amount.

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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I've attempted suicide 3 times. No one clapped me on the back for living. And why should they?

not killing myself is a personal achievement but you cant really brag about that at dinner parties

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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It's hard when I'm struggling. I'm surrounded by people and I can't think of a single person I can talk to about this that will understand. I have a mental illness. I know that everything I'm feeling is just chemicals in my brain. It makes me feel like I'm faking it when I feel down. Everyone I know would just brush this off. I'm not suicidal so that must mean I'm fine. I'm not self harming so that must mean I'm fine. If that's the case, why don't I feel fine. I feel pain. I am hurting. I am hurting and I have no one to go to.

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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I have only had a 190 calorie Luna bar to eat today. I'm at work now and usually if my shift ends after dinner I eat at work. I love eating, but the emptiness feels so good. Maybe I will tell my boyfriend that I ate at work so I don't have to eat any more.

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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It was a good week... For once

This week I gained a half a pound since last week. Gaining isn’t the goal, but I’m assuming it’s just water weight from all of the sodium in my system from what I ate. Last week I stayed under my calorie goal for each day, which was 1300 by the way. I also started working out again. I’m doing the 21 day get fit challenge by Chloe Ting. So, that half a pound could be growing muscle. After all, my goal weight is just an idea, not the end goal. My goal weight is 115 lbs and my current weight is 142.2 lbs. My legs and core are so sore. Getting up and down from a chair is agony. I’m thinking that I might start running again, too. The only bad thing about that is that I’d have to carry pepper spray with me just in case. On average my daily workouts burn off about 300 calories. Almost forgot something! I am also trying to do 100 squats a day for the next 30 days. I just finished day 3. I feel most of the burn in my thighs which is good because that’s where I want to lose weight. Also, I would appreciate a flat stomach but that all takes time. Right now I’m a comfortable size 8, but size 6 was loose on me before I gained 54 lbs. That’s my goal.

#ana #pro ana #anorexik #bullimia #bulimina #bulimiz #buliimix #bulimua #ed #eating disoder thoughts

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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Day one: SW 169 lbs CW 143.5 lbs

#anamia #pro ana #ana #anarexx #anareksia #anarexiz #ana thoughts #mia #miau #ed thoughts #ed things #ed tumblr #ed #eating disoder things #it's not as simple as just eating #eating disoder thoughts #eating desorders

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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Working in the food industry when you're fasting is the worst. I'm surrounded by food and I can’t eat any of it.

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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Fall vibes AND thinspo? Yes please

I just wanna look like this in flannel shirts is that too much to ask for?

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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I know they say you shouldn't fast on your period, but I've overate and binged almost every day for the past two weeks. I need to get back on track. Tonight I will exercise if I have the energy after work. I'm determined to lose at least two pounds by next week.

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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I wish I could cry the pounds off

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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I have a pill that keeps me from getting pregnant. I have a pill that keeps me from going crazy. I have a pill that keeps me from being anxious. I need a pill that keeps me from eating.

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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All.

Reblog this If: You’re ashamed of your weight Youve been called fat before You have thought of killing yourself You have self harmed You are trying to lose 10+ pounds

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tubs-of-toast · 4 years

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My binge eating disorder is acting up again. I keep on wanting to eat. Whenever I do eat or even ask to eat my boyfriend points out that I'm eating a lot. I'm not even gaining weight because I only binge a couple days a week. It's not bad. Somehow whenever he points out how much I'm eating it hurts even more than when I think about how much I'm eating.

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