my existence is a scandal
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â Emily Dickinson, from a letter to Abiah Root (August 1851)
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There'll be a moment when you realise you're 27 when yesterday you were just 17; and you wouldn't be able to tell how a decade passed away and your life got divided into before and afters. The fury of youth will subdue and nothing will really change but everything will feel different when you look at old photographs and blurry videos taken on cheap mobile phones. Scents will remind you of childhood and certain friends you don't talk to anymore, hangouts will become reunions and mom's burnt pie will become the best food you ever had. And I know on some days you won't be able to show anything of those 10 years but I hope you remember to breathe, and let go of the knot in your chest. I hope you go out in the sun and live a little, because tomorrow is 37.
Edit- I added the visualizer for this piece on my YT, check it out here
-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned
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I think Iâve never had a true romantic interest before, someone who stops my heart and starts my stuttering, someone who I canât wait to see. All Iâve had are half-made crushes on any decent human being because Iâm so in love with the idea of being in love that I start projecting unto others and I feel like Iâll never find it.
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He asked me when I fell in love with him and I knew it sounded dramatic to say the moment I saw him, so I told him this story of my grandma who had Alzheimer's- she forgot her name and the words for fruit and food, she forgot her address and how to use the washroom, all her life lost to the disease. The only thing she remembered was her son's name and when that began to fade, the one thing she always remembered was that she loved him, even in illness, even in insanity. She saw this 6 foot 2 man with a scrubby beard and she didn't know him but she said she trusted him, she asked him to hold her hand when she died. When does memory end and love begin? All I know is- she loved him before she remembered him.
-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire
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The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath.
Iâve recently saw this one trending, and itâs one that iâve always resonated with.
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You have to steal time as a poet. You have to write poetry while youâre going to meetings and teaching five classes and crying at Nowhere Bar about some rejection again. The trick is not to feel sorry for yourself. The other trick is to resist everything thatâs in vogue. To not be understood by critics. To not join schools or movements. To make what you want and explain nothing.
- Alex Dimitrov (Poem written in a Cab)
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never let anyone tell u how many commas can go in a sentence, u measure that shit with ur heart
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"The joy of writing.
A chance to make things stay.
A revenge of a mortal hand. "
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On the train we swapped seats, you wanted the window and I wanted to look at you.
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ÙۧŰčŰŻ Ű ÙÙŰȘÙ ŰȘ۱ÙŰŻÙÙ Ű§ÙÙۧÙŰ°Ű© ÙÙÙŰȘÙ ŰŁŰ±ÙŰŻ ŰŁÙ ŰŁŰ·Ù ŰčÙÙÙÙ
- Mahmoud Darwish
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donât do anything for social media. donât let it affect your media consumption too much. or how you spend your time. or how you see yourself. donât watch a tv show you wonât enjoy just to post about it, donât buy a pair of jeans you donât really like because itâs a trend, donât become a spokesperson for ideologies you havenât truly read and thought about first yourself. operate as though you donât have a social media whenever youâre not using social media. this is what stops it from seeping over the borders of the time you give it into the rest of your life. let your real life influence what you choose to do with your time more.
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"I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it - to be fed so much love I couldn't take any more. Just once."
- Haruki Murakami
(starting the month as a hopeless romantic? Hell yes.
Happy November to all )
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all i can do is swallow my questions and leave her to her fire
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Why Zarry?
Zayn had nudes of Harry on his phone. He accidentally tweeted it once with the caption âEnjoying my view ;)â but took it down. The pic is still on the internet, itâs not that hard to find. And he also said that he accidentally sent a nude of Harry to a group message of 6 people. They also used to post joking-lovey shit about each other on twitter too, like comfortable âbromanceyâ stuff that you only do when you really click with someone.Â
Probably the most convincing thing about Zarry is the fact that even though Zayn and Harry were super close, as much if not more than they were with the other boys, when Zayn left he said in an interview âI never spoke to Harry even while I was in the band, so I never expected much of a relationship with himâ. I think til this day, they have never cleared up in any interview whether or not they actually talk to each other, and I think Harry only started following Zaynâs twitter again in 2017 (Zayn left 2015). Even Liam was confused and said he was never aware that Zayn and Harry were never friends.
 This basically means Zayn is straight up saying bullshit lol. Why exactly would he (kind of vehemently) deny a relationship, even if it was only a bromance, if he wasnât bitter about something? And if they were ânever closeâ how could you even be THAT bitter about something to the point that youâre trying to deny that you ever had a relationship to begin with? The fact that heâs lying speaks volumes. Zayn first got in touch with Liam, Niall shook his hand at music award (he kind of wasnât expecting it and was shook) and theyâre okay now, and Louisâ late mom kind of forced both of them to reconcile because it was her last wish. Literally the only person thatâs up in the air is Harry, and NO ONE has anything bad to say about Harry (except tswift but sheâs irrelevant). Zayn is the only other person ever that I know of who has come close to shading Harry in a weird apathetic way. No one knows why, no one asks them why.
 Thereâs a lot more stuff though (like A LOT) and itâs still going tbh. Like 2017, before Harryâs tour, he was promoting his album. He blanked out his instagram and posted 3 empty squares on March 25 (exact same date Zayn left the band and released his official statement that heâs quitting). Back in 2016, Zayn did THE EXACT SAME THING when he released his album (blank instagram, 3 empty squares, on March 25). After Harry did this, Harry posted a teaser of him walking out through a smoke screen, and ON THE NEXT DAY I swear to god, Iâm not making this up, Zayn tweets âClouded in your love, but Iâll follow itâ. They did this during a time where they were supposedly NOT talking to each other.Â
To add to this, Harryâs songs are so fucking⊠omfg almost every song on his album relates to his relationship with Zayn in some way, like its all about sad, bittersweet love, sexual experimentation, losing someone, not communicating enough in a relationship, having arguments. And small aside, Harry has never had a serious girlfriend that we know of so idek where all this sad, hurt boy persona is coming from if youâre looking at his âgirlfriendâ track record. And heâs been writing songs like this since Zayn left the band (listen to If I Could Fly). He chose to cover this song called âGirl Crushâ. Itâs about a girl, who has a crush on another girl, who took her man away from her. The lyrics are like âI want to taste her lips cause she tastes like youâ, âI want her long blonde hair, I want her magic touch, so maybe then, youâd love me just as muchâ, he uses female pronouns, and Zayn has been dating blondes (Perrie and Gigi).Â
Harry also wrote his own song which he says is âthe most honest song on his albumâ called From The Dining Table, and in this song heâs crooning over some lost significant other, the lyrics are like âWe havenât spoke since you went away, comfortable silence is so overratedâ and âWoke up to a girl who looked just like you, I almost said your nameâ. Harry was dating Kendall at the time.
This isnât even the tip of the iceberg. If you want to ruin your life over IRL pinning, get into Zarry lol. I donât ship real people, and even when I do, Iâm always conscious of the fact that theyâre not actually in a relationship and I only ship for fun and aesthetic. But JFC Zarry makes it really hard to think that way when there is literally too many coincidences. Itâs also worth mentioning that Zaynâs songs also parallel Harryâs. Harryâs motif is always âcall me pls, I miss youâ (He sings 1D songs in his concerts and he actually said âI miss youâ on his tour after singing Zaynâs part) and Zaynâs lyrics are all over the place, but a couple of his songs have âI wanted to call, but I didnâtâ (Too Much ft Timbaland, itâs recent) and they both have this weird âaffair and cheating, Iâm addicted to youâ theme thing going on. Harryâs is more âI want u, I want uâ, Zaynâs is more âI want u, but I cant have you, I dont know what I want, life is hardâ.Â
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