umaimayasmine

[umaimayasmine]

I am just a girl trying to over come my anxiety my depression and all my traumas. All alone by myself. Please don’t be so harsh on me. Please let me heal.

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[umaimayasmine]

Being hurt by the people you expected would not turn out like everybody else did, this feeling of loneliness, the emptiness in my heart and the agony in my tears.. the way my own breathe chokes me at times. It’s never going to end.

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[umaimayasmine]

I just crave gentle love, gentle hands, gentle words, I just want someone to make me feel safe and calm. I want someone to make me feel it’s okay to open up it’s okay to feel anything and share anything with them. I want someone who makes life easier and doesn’t just let me survive but encourages me to live to the fullest. I want someone i can curl up in and cry when i want to. Someone who will put faith in me and make me more confident and proud make me accept myself.

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[umaimayasmine]

it's so easy to deny yourself basic things, like food and sleep, in order to punish yourself. but you deserve better. you deserve tasty foods that make you smile, to sleep in and go to bed early, to be warm and cozy. you never have to "earn" that. you deserve all of that and more just by existing. you're allowed to be kind to yourself. kindess is brave.

[umaimayasmine]

A truck hitting me or a car running over sounds pretty good rn.

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[umaimayasmine]

I wish i was loved enough by at least one person in my life so I would have never have this feeling of being lonely and it would’ve helped me with so much shit i go through every single day every night crying in my pillow choking myself up. I wish someone knew how to not be so harsh, how to actually just treat someone with love care and affection just pure genuine affection. Ion want no materialistic things nothing sexual or physical. All i need is love, someone to listen me, Ask me genuinely how my day was, what made me smile today, what actually hurts me and makes my anxiety worse, how to cheer me up and make not feel that bad what i always feel about self. I wish someone appreciated what i did for them at least once in a while. I feel so bad i have to wish about all these things one might just get from their family, friends or any loved ones, but i have no one.

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[umaimayasmine]

THERE'S A VOICE IN MY HEAD SAYS I'M BETTER OFF DEAD

#borderline identity disorder #anxiety #broken #spilled words #depression #i hate my life #bruises #you broke my heart #lonely #suicidal #triggering content

[umaimayasmine]

You can’t even imagine how much I hate myself sometimes.

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[umaimayasmine]

sucks that i’ve lost my life to mental illness just because some people thought it was okay to treat me like shit

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[umaimayasmine]

I’m sad in a way that’s exhausting and painful

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[umaimayasmine]

wow having bpd is so much fun like you can be doing great for a while then the smallest hint of rejection or abandonment comes and hits you then you spiral down back into chronic emptiness

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[umaimayasmine]

Sometimes I wish my poor mental health would manifest physically so people around me would take it more seriously

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[umaimayasmine]

Not having your emotional needs met as a kid makes you a very lonely adult

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[umaimayasmine]

I love being toxic to myself.

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[umaimayasmine]

How did you survive?

I didn’t. I died. Over and over again.

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[umaimayasmine]

Something that confuses many people and confuses myself as well is how quickly my bpd can make me go from feeling the need to deflect attention to feeling the need to attention seek and vice versa. One second I’ll be so deep into a conversation about my problems and the shitty life ive lived and ill be literally SOBBING into someone’s chest and absorbing every ounce of comfort they’re willing to offer up. Then the next, I’ll be throwing out jokes to change the subject, or just starting a conversation about something else that has nothing to do with the previous topic. It’s confusing, even to myself. Please be easy with me.

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[umaimayasmine]

Tired of ruining lives of everybody i love.

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