Anyone who is or has ever been a dancer of any kind knows that the way you maintain balance and momentum through multiple spins is to find a spot. This is a non moving place that you focus your eyes on and whip your head back to as quickly as possible on each turn.
Having said that pls accept the following head canon: Nesta used Cassian’s eyes as her spot, because it was the only place in the crowded ballroom that she knew wouldn’t move, would never cease to be focused entirely on her, the only place that she would be able to find with perfect ease even as her body twirled around and around itself. He was her anchor in the sea of people, and she could only complete the turns because, as she knew he wouldn’t, he never looked away.
Some of ya’ll have never fallen into a rabbit hole of reading incredibly intense historical romance novels where the entire point is that one of the characters is deeply emotionally damaged and lashes out because of it and the other gets pissed off and they fight until they fall in love and then everything is happily ever after, and it shows.
People going off saying Eris isn’t to be sympathized with or that he’s evil because he called Mor a bad name or that he’s the devil incarnate… ya’ll really are new to this game huh???
Listen to be clear I am Nessian 100% unless something massive happens in this book, BUT…
Everyone needs to fuck off with their Eris hypocracy. He had a hard life with a tyrant father and a mother who is practically a shell of herself. He did the RIGHT THING by Mor and I don’t care WHO thinks I’m lying here. He let her go so that she could be herself because he saw how badly she didn’t want him.
Yeah, he insulted her. With sexual words even. What a completely unforgivable thing…. OH WAIT EXCEPT THAT RHYS PAINTED FEYRE UP NAKED AND MADE HER GIVE HIM LAP DANCES LIKE HIS OWN PERSONAL STRIPPER FOR DAYS AND WEEKS ON END AND HE IS FORGIVABLE???!?!?!
“But Rhys had his reasons”
“Rhys meant the best”
“Rhys was in a hard position”
YEAH WELL WE DO NOT KNOW WHAT ERIS’ REASONS ARE.
We don’t know his situation other than that he let Mor go and only pretends to hate her to save face. We know that he tried to MAKE Beron fight in the war. We know that he made a covert deal with your own precious IC to overthrow the tyrant that is Beron.
Everyone is so desperate for two dimensional villains that they easily forget that no one is the villain in their own story and that the exploration of three dimensional characters is what makes SJM books so intriguing.
MY FEEBLE NESTA ARCHERON LOVING HEART CANNOT HANDLE THIS!!! THE BRAVERY! THE BEING ADMIRED! THE CASSIAN JEALOUSY! I NEED IT TO BE FEBRUARY NOW!!
“What a remarkable thing it was for the woman who thought herself incapable of love, and the man who thought himself underserving of love, to fight and scream and heal and forgive until they both found exactly what they were looking for, exactly what they never had- a home. And a family. And a love that is truly unconditional.”
Thank you to everyone who came on this journey with me! I hope you enjoyed my version of Nesta and Cassian’s story, and now it is only a little over a month until we get their real one!
Repeat after me:
NESTA HAS NEVER USED HER TRAUMA TO JUSTIFY HER BEHAVIOUR.
NESTA HAS NEVER TOLD A SOUL WHAT THOMAS DID TO HER.
NESTA HAS NEVER TOLD ANYONE WHAT SHE WENT THROUGH UNDER THE CAULDRON.
NESTA HAS NEVER TOLD ANYONE THE AFTERMATH OF THE WAR.
NESTA HAS NEVER TOLD ANYONE ABOUT THE NIGHTMARES, ABOUT HER FEARS.
So stop saying that Nesta’s traumas shouldn’t justify her behaviour because SHE HAS NEVER USED HER TRAUMAS TO DO IT.
She has never sat down and retold her story again and again to gain any favours or empathy.
In fact, in Wings and Embers when Cassian asked her who hurt her, her first reaction is to ask:
“Would it change anything if someone had? Would it make you see me differently, treat me differently?”
She never say anything about herself, she never tell people about her misfortunes.
So stop fucking saying that she cant use her traumas to justify her behaviour because SHE ALWAYS PRETEND TO BE FINE. She always pretend that nothing affects her, even though she’s feel things x1000 more than anyone else but she suffer it in silence, away from people.
That’s the reason she left Feyre’s house after the war. Because she could be alone, away from her sisters, away from anyone that would judge her every move and force her to keep pretending that she’s okay.
Some of you have never experienced shit and it shows.
This has been my thought since day 1- NESTA LITERALLY ONLY ASKED TO BE LEFT ALONE. THAT WAS IT. She didn’t seek anyone out and be rude to them, she didn’t attack anyone, she was checking in with Amren and having a relationship on her terms. She fought and almost died in a war and ALL SHE AKED FOR WAS RENT MONEY ALONE TIME!!!
And to the money point- Feyre literally says every 3 pages in ACOFAS how fucking rich she and Rhys are so it’s not like Nesta is even taking anything from them that they don’t already have in abundance. They have 3 fucking houses.
Every day ACOSF draws nearer, and every day my fear that Cassian is going to give Nesta the “tough love” drill sargeant treatment and spend the entire book being angry at Nesta for her poor mental health and blame her for hurting him when really it’s his own inadequacy issues and fragile masculinity that hurts him, and has been hurting him, since a half millennium before Nesta was even born but that she will ultimately learn to appreciate his “strength” and basically get fucked into submission until she is nothing but a Feyre-esque superspecialmagicfemale™ that is only a shell of all the potential Nesta as a character has…increases.
I’m never gonna get over the fact that Feysand has THREE big mansions in the same city. Like…what, you just didn’t like the other two so you decided to get a third? Who needs that many houses? At least sell one of the other two or turn it into something else? No one needs three houses in the same city. It’s for their “family” but the rest of the IC already have their own places and estates. The only other person consistently living there is Elain, even Nesta has her own place.
They also could have used that third mansion’s land for something more useful. There’s slums in Velaris, so there’s probably people who are displaced after the war or already homeless. Use that land for a homeless shelter, or a public kitchen. Make a hospital, a library, a school, a museum. Make a town hall so that your people don’t have to climb fifty flights of stairs to tell you that the infrastructure of the city needs fixing because of your fucking every building to oblivion.
I for one would not be sad to see a guillotine show up next book…
Feyre has become more Marie Antoinette than the actual Marie Antoinette
Feyres ‘let them eat cake’ line is 'let them make art!’
Just saying that Nesta fully points this out in the sneak peak at the end of ACOWAR. “Which house? She has 3, after all.”
Headcanon where Nessian has a set of twins- a boy and a girl- and Cassian and Nesta both train the girl way harder than the boy and one day Azriel or Rhys or someone asks them why and:
Nesta: “Everyone will assume that he is strong. She will have to prove it, and when that moment comes she can’t just be as good as the boys. She has to be better, and now she is.”
Cassian: “because I know how us fucking males think and she needs to be able to castrate them with one hand tied behind her back!!!”
Azriel responds: “why? Her mom will do it with just a look anyway”
Nesta: “Damn straight”
Nesta Archeron as a character just really appeals to the female fantasy. You know, the one where we all want to run away to the woods and live as vengeful powerful witch goddesses wrecking havoc upon unsuspecting mortal men who mistreat women.
That’s what people mean when they say the female fantasy, right?
People out here being like “you don’t have to hate Rhysand to love Nessian!” And I’d like to be very clear- you absolutely don’t.
Some of us (me) just personally, do in fact hate the rice man for our own reasons… and that is also okay because all of these people are fictional and don’t care if we like them or not.
“I don’t need to resort to threats” I don’t care what anyone says, in my mind this is a full on reference to Rhys and his “sit down” bullshit and Nesta is smiling because she can respect someone who is powerful and is even happy to go toe to toe with them but her real problem is being given orders or being treated as less than because in the human world she was always ordered around and treated as less than for being a woman.
As with all of my babbling posts where I put thoughts and words into the minds and mouths of characters to make them fit my narrative so that I may live my own fantasy until the book arrives, I won’t be taking questions about my logic at this time thank you all happy Nessian year bitches!!
Can I just say how much I love the SIZE of the Nessian fandom? I think it’s so perfect, big enough that artists don’t feel like they are throwing their stories and drawings and such out with no response, but also not so massive that posts and things get lost in the mix. I know this might change when ACOSF comes out but for now I really love that I can so clearly identify top fandom contributors and we feel comfortable enough to throw out actually controversial opinions, and that we’ve almost all read the same like top 20 fanfics if that’s our thing. I just really enjoy it so thank you all for being here!!
Imagine throwing your body over someone else’s on a battlefield and deciding to die with them and then like a few months later they fully ignore you at a party , tell you to get over your PTSD, and call you unlovable.
I ship Nessian, I honestly do, but we really all gotta ask ourselves how the bar for men got so damn low that the fandom pushes these things aside Nd focuses on his good points while doing the exact OPPOSITE for Nesta (focusing only on her bad points and not all of her badass, downright heroic moments).
Remember when Azriel showed up to take Feyre away to learn flying because Nesta and Cassian were bickering on the rooftop?
OH HOW THE TURN TABLES AZRIEL
Shadow boy is Nessian shipper #1 and I won’t be taking questions at this time, thank you.
The Taylor Swift Evermore songfic that I could not get out of my head- exploring the missing Nessian scenes between ACOWAR and ACOFAS with the song that makes us all finally accept the hard truth- that the most dangerous thing a lover can be is indifferent.
OR- my quarantine angst has reached a new level and I would not have peace until I go this out of my brain.
I know everyone is all in on tolerate it being Nessian and I agree, but I’m still over here dead focused on Closure literally being Nesta and Feyre. So on point.
The one where Nesta and Cassian are entirely different mates, people, and rulers than RHys and Feyre and I make no apologies for that.
Cassian by the end of ACOSF:
No matter what anyone ever tries to say about Nesta OR Feyre in the fandom I literally just always find myself coming back to the basic fact that they are 24/21 and the other characters are 500. Like I’m sorry shame on all of you.
Shame on Rhys for blaming a mentally ill woman for mistakes she made at 16 and refusing to move past it and for making his 21 year old wife have to be the “reasonable one”
Shame on Cassian for not growing the fuck up, defending Nesta to the others, and being THERE FOR HER (I get she wasn’t always there for him or she closed herself off but AGAIN- 24 vs 500!!!)
Shame on Mor for essentially using Cassian as a shield for 500 years.
Shame on Amren for being such a petty little shit after whatever this fight with Nesta was that she wants to watch her be banished and humiliate her.
YOU ARE ALL CENTURIES OLD PLEASE STOP ACTING LIKE FUCKING HIGH SCHOOLERS GOOD LORD!!