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You know, just once I'd like my best friend to reach out just to ask how I'm going, not just to gossip.

#alex rants. sorry.

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Love how when I'm going through something my family tells me any and all emotions I have are invalid.

#alex rants #makes sense in the context of my life i promise

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Update on my life that literally no one asked for: I'm taking meds and getting treatment at the moment and a side effect is constipation. To counteract this, I drink a lot of coffee. However this has a downside as some of you will know wherein it kinda... sneaks up on you.

So there I am, lying in bed with my cats, when suddenly "Well shit" and I wasn't wrong. I need a life

#alex talks #tw: sickness #recovery #tw: constipation #alex has a bad sense of humour

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My cat Loki thought I got up too early this morning and so she screamed at me until I went back to bed. I love having a cat that aggressively (And loudly) takes care of me whether I like it or not

#alex talks #i have six cats

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Not me forgetting to tell my best friend what time I'd be arriving at their place to make sure they were awake when I got here

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Me: is telling my dad about something cute my cat did when I had a coughing fit last night

My dad: "well why didn't you wake one of [My parents] up?"

Me: "it was just a cough and there was nothing you could have done about it anyway?"

My dad: "we would've come and sat with you anyway so you should tell us when you're having coughing fits"

Me: because obviously my first thought when I wake up in the middle of the night coughing is going to be: gee. I think I need to let my parents share this experience with me 🙄

#alex talks #tw: sickness and coughing

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I know it's selfish, I know, but I really want someone to put me first. Obviously not all the time, that's narcissistic and toxic, but like maybe 1 day a year, things could be about me without me being sick. And again, I know it's selfish to want anything to be about me, but I'm sick of being put last.

#Alex rants #fml #im probably being toxic just for wanting things to be about me for one day. maybe ots asking for too much? hows an hour?

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My sister: goes out of her way to be mean and cruel and hurtful to me

Me: tries to get my parents to stop her from doing it

My parents: you're mean to her a lot too. You should just deal with it

Me: unlike my sister I know the difference between mean and cruel

My parents: yeah we're not going to do anything. She's the favourite

My sister: smug and comfortable in the knowledge that she won't get more than a slap on the wrist for anything she does or says

Me: because that makes sense

#alex rants #my family #fml

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Not to be touch and affection starved on main, but I think I'd literally die if someone used Cherry as a nickname for me.

#alex talks #no not cherry from sk8. just cherry because i love cherries (the fruit and the design) i don't know and i dont want to know what the emoji

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My parents have spent the last 19 years, telling me "not everything is about you" for everything. Including my birthday. And are now exasperated because I can't stand being the centre of attention at all and am incapable of believing that I am in any way important.

#alex rants. sorry. #family #fml #sorry. if you wanted me to believe i am more important than your work. you shouldn't have spent my whole life putting your work before me #males sense in the context of my life i promise #*makes

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Well then. My sister is learning that there are consequences to her actions.

#fml #alex talks

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You know. I think I preferred not knowing. Fuck.

Y'know, untreated and unknown medical diagnoses are fucking scary man. Two months ago I started coughing and having trouble breathing, got tested multiple times, not covid. Went to a doctor for the cough, got meds that helped, but was only given enough for a few days. Went back to the doctor, got more of the same meds but was instructed to only take them for 5 days, and found out my heartbeat is way too fast for normal ranges, hot told to see a heart and lung specialist but sike, he's not available until next year.

That brings us to today, where I am curled up, with pain in my chest, specifically my lungs and my kidneys, and crying because I'm actual scared right now because I don't know what's wrong with me and I don't want to be in pain any more.

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the funniest tiktoker to me is the guy who's tattooing their own legs every day for a year (up to day 241 rn) and all the tattoos look like dogshit and everyone is so so fucking mad in the comments but the guy simply could not care less. vibing.

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"I could look it up but it's more fun asking friends" gang

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Y'know, untreated and unknown medical diagnoses are fucking scary man. Two months ago I started coughing and having trouble breathing, got tested multiple times, not covid. Went to a doctor for the cough, got meds that helped, but was only given enough for a few days. Went back to the doctor, got more of the same meds but was instructed to only take them for 5 days, and found out my heartbeat is way too fast for normal ranges, hot told to see a heart and lung specialist but sike, he's not available until next year.

That brings us to today, where I am curled up, with pain in my chest, specifically my lungs and my kidneys, and crying because I'm actual scared right now because I don't know what's wrong with me and I don't want to be in pain any more.

#alex talks #vent #medical (not mental) problems #im scared man. #help comfort or conversation would be appreciated