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My dad asked me if I believed in God and I asked him if he wanted an honest answer. He said yes.

I told him I didn’t.

Then my dad told me 3 words I never expected to hear:

“God doesn’t exist.”

Both he and my mom left Catholicism, and became atheists. And they are beginning to acknowledge the pain religion has caused me.

I don’t even know what to say. I just feel so much more free now

#it started when I came out I guess #it made them question the church #then it all just fell apart over time apparently #i have more to say about this I just #I don’t even know #this was a lot to hear tonight #we all cried #excatholic #exbeliever #exchristian #apostate

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Unlearning any harmful things taught by your previous religion is not easy.

Try to be patient with yourself, and please, know that you are not alone ❤️

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Art by Yuming Li

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Do I get exchristian points for seeing 21 pilots live last night?

#it was a birthday present for my partner #i actually know very little about the band lmao #but we had a great time

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So we’ve been off our meds a while (got put onto lithium yesterday) and the most fun symptom besides wanting to be dead is the intense urge and “calling” to be religious. That’s like a mental health red flag for us

Shockingly, Ravenna is the culprit this time. She wants to get back into theistic satanism

So let’s see how that goes :/

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local fairs are…… something else

#we might go and see this

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I may not be religious anymore but seeing relics, especially of St Sebastian, is always cool as hell

#they had soooo many relics at this museum #personal fav her tho

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for all the apostates who were taught growing up that it was selfish and sinful for them to care about themselves, to try and keep themselves safe, to be self-focused in any capacity: self-preservation isn't selfish. survival isn't selfish. kids being self-focused isn't selfish, it's literally just how humans are at that age. being self-conscious isn't selfish. spending time alone isn't selfish. buying things for yourself because they make you happy isn't selfish. so much of what we were taught is sinful and selfish actually isn't. you deserve to survive, you deserve to thrive, you deserve to be happy and love yourself and, yeah, you deserve to be selfish!

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Happy Pride you all!

omg tumblr didn’t show me this ask

Thank you!!!! We had a good pride month ^^

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7/4/2022

So, first off, I actually made most of a comic related to Current Events and pro-life shit last week, but it looks like my computer ate it, so that’s one that will never see the light of day. ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯

Second off… Yeah. If you’re wondering why I haven’t been putting out much content lately, this comic kinda explains why! Ain’t brains fun. Really though, it’s like, okay and all, I’m grateful that I can be more functional and generally happier. But it’s just weird, and I often find myself questioning the validity of my experiences if I can’t really connect to them anymore. Does anyone else feel like this? Feel free to share your experiences.

#oh as a system with religious trauma this fucking hits deep

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The Evening Angel (1848) - Alexandre Cabanel

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Autumn in the fog // Michał Skarbiński

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i went through old blogs i used to follow. lgbt christians who somehow can still have faith. i remember being able to be like them.

i tried to read the bible and i felt no connection. there is just an emptiness. i WANT to believe in god but i feel incapable. not sure what i exist for now.

this used to be my blog. i used to have faith. the others have successfully deconverted us, and im happy for them. but now i cant even feel anything remotely close to faith and that was my one purpose. what now?

#did problems i guess #leo speaks

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The way I see anti-choice Christians talking about abortion is really making the religious trauma act up today. So on top of grappling with the realization that I lost human rights yesterday, now I'm dealing with religous trauma and anxiety resurfacing. Please take care of yourselves guys it's tough out there today

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this used to be my blog. i used to have faith. the others have successfully deconverted us, and im happy for them. but now i cant even feel anything remotely close to faith and that was my one purpose. what now?

#hi its leo ex-host wannabe priest #im so depressed #where is the manic love of god i used to get pre-2020? #i miss it