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The state of things.

I am cooking.

I recently experienced a hard drive failure but I have managed to back up and recover what I needed. Like always, I'm bouncing back and forth between several things at once to keep my brain entertained but I think it's about time I double down and focus on one thing.

I spent my time writing a little prequel for Eternal Fault and liked how it turned out so I'm also making a little game out of it. Little, I repeated, trying to remind my brain that it should stay little. I really liked fancy little elves so I made them into fancy little elves.

It's about how a woman who is a goddess and even gods aren't infallible to wrongdoings. Which... doesn't hit much now that I wrote that down. I... will think about it more later.

I also write and rewrite so often that I can scarcely recognize anything I've written these days. A lot of my stuff I hoard and covet like some gremlins in deep mountains. I also wrote another little thing, which sadly spiralled a lot out of little scope but I kept it strictly text save for the few decorative illustrations so it should be fine. I said, convincing my mind to believe in a hopeless delusion.

This one is about a dead prince and the desperate schemes and machinations to cover up the fact he's very dead. You get to play as a hot lady of the court, as always.

I'm in the habit that I don't want to reveal much unless I know for a certainty that I will release the thing in a soon timeframe, so I have a lot of stuff going on underneath the surface, but as always, I don't really want to show anything because I've learned from my experience of creating past disappointment.

I also spent a lot of time practising writing smut in the past few months so my level of degeneracy is high. I'm currently editing Eternal Fault to implement more mature scenes into them since I left them to last due to my inexperience the last time I wrote.

In doing these, I also had to change other scenes around them because... dynamics.

...Anyway, here's the main cast of all three stories. I try to cater to different flavours/preferences, but since each main characters have her own personality, their sexual contents would also be wildly different from one another.

You can't really pick to be submissive or dominant, but like I mentioned before, I provide the option to skip if they aren't to your liking.

#eternal fault #development log #(did you change title again) (yes) #interactive fiction #visual novel #otome game

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you are doomed to hurt forever but! not all of the time. the pleasure forever ripples too

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its all fun and games and “i love characters that are made to be a pair” until one of them DIES and the other is just LEFT BEHIND!!!!!!

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“my memory is a crooked wheel that perpetuates sadness my memory is in love with you”

— Mary Lambert, Shame Is an Ocean I Swim Across; “My Weakness Is a Crooked Wheel”

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from @leocostelloe on ig . “sterling silver bow on white ribbon and chain”

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FASHION + RELIGION

Eugenio Andrade Schulz / Alexander McQueen, American Express Black Show 2004 / Vogue Hong Kong, March 2022 / Mirror Palais, Spring/Summer 2023 / Guo Pei, Spring 2017 / Alexander McQueen, Fall 1996 / Christian Dior, Fall 2000 / Alexander McQueen, Autumn/Winter 1997-8 / Versace, Fall/Winter 1997.

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floral print from Indigo’s floral notebook { xxx }

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Villa Pisani, Venice

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i feel like so many people misunderstand redemption arcs. they’re not about forgiving past actions. they’re not about softening previous behavior. redemption arcs are about realizing past behavior was heinous and resolving to be better, do better. that’s why so many redemption arcs fall apart upon close scrutiny.

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Incision

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Sorry for the absence and the absolute obliteration of my contents, I was unmedicated.

#also redoing the blog themes again and filling contents is pain

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eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.

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"Immature people crave and demand moral certainty: This is bad, this is good. Kids and adolescents struggle to find a sure moral foothold in this bewildering world; they long to feel they’re on the winning side, or at least a member of the team. To them, heroic fantasy may offer a vision of moral clarity. Unfortunately, the pretended Battle Between (unquestioned) Good and (unexamined) Evil obscures instead of clarifying, serving as a mere excuse for violence — as brainless, useless, and base as aggressive war in the real world."

Ursula K Le Guin at it again, being right as always

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my dad likes to call the stretches of time where you’re not creating “dreaming periods” and says that they’re meant to allow you to absorb all of the beauty, life, and inspiration from the things around you so that when you’re able to create again, you will have fanned your spark back into a flame. sometimes its hard to see those moments as anything but stagnation, but he always says that they’re natural and healthy and needed—things that should be embraced rather than feared.

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“Go and love someone exactly as they are. then, watch how they transform into the greatest truest version of themselves. when one feels seen and appreciated in their own essence, one is instantly empowered.”

— Wes Angelozzi

#love

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arabic poetry is so beautifully yet painfully romantic, i mean “they asked “do you love her to death?” i said “speak of her over my grave and watch how she brings me back to life" and “because my love for you is higher than words, i've decided to fall silent" and "it is not enough to say love in Arabic, you must say 'be the thing that buries me'" could have got jane austen crying and shaking

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