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It’s 104% okay to come to your DM and just say, “Hi, can we be friends?” And then start asking you random questions.

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Tw: ed

Ed's are so competitive. I always feel like I have to "beat" everyone around me by eating and weighing less than them. Even tho they dont have an ed Im still scared that one day i'll meet someone who does and they'll "beat" me by having it "worse" and I couldnt stand that. I feel like it will never be bad enough, only if I die because of starvation or almost die idk. Its so tiring to always try to prove that im sick and not just faking.

#eating disoder things #th1nspiration #th1n5p0 #th1gh g4p #th1nspø #i want to be sk1nny #starv1ng #tw self destruction #tw selfhate #ana tingz #anorexi4 #4n4mi4 #not pr0 just using tags #4na tips #made of styrofoam #fatspo #styrotwt #tw sh related #self h@rm #tw self destructive behavior

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Tw: sh

I feel like my sh scars are never going to be bad enough. I dont want them to fade. I want them to stay there forever, so that people will see how much i've struggled til the end of times. I wanna cover myself in cuts. I know im an attention seeker for thinking this. But i just want to be seen. And although right now no one cares about how horrible im doing mentally, im scared that without scars i'll just matter even less.

Being mentally not okay became my whole personality, im no one without it. I dont have anything else. This is all that I am.

#tw self destruction #tw self destructive behavior #self h@rm #fresh cvts #tw cvts #tw selfhate #mentally fucked #mentally ill #anxi4ty #i want to disappear #i wanna die #i want to be sk1nny #made of styrofoam #tw sh related #sc@rs #beanstwt #styrotwt #self mutalition

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If you’re suicidal and still alive, I’m so fucking proud of you.

If you’re suffering from an eating disorder and still eating, I’m so fucking proud of you.

If you’re suffering from a mental illness and your fighting, I’m so. Fucking. Proud. Of. You.

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This is my first ever vent post, so idk if anyone will even see it... TW: ed, sh

So today I ate over 1200kcal which is rlly not my goal so I ended up cutting myself at night bc thats the only way I can feel proud of myself. Either that or starving. Does anyone relate?? I shouldn't feel proud for self harming but I still do. Anyway, tmrw im gonna get back to eating 800kcal (or less) so I can lose weight.

#ana tingz #i want to be sk1nny #fresh cvts #starv1ng #th1gh g4p #th1nspø

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My toxic trait: I hurt in silence and pray that someone loves me enough to notice I’m not being myself.

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Have I reblogged this before? Yes, but nothing has changed.