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I took a week off work after I started flaring with my Crohn’s symptoms (started with sleeping 24 hours straight after a shift and spiralled from there). I was starting to feel like it was manageable for work so I decided to go back today. I had an in person study day for my masters literally 7 hours long and it’s knocked me off, the symptoms have spiralled again and I’m meant to be working 2 12 hour shifts the next 2 days. I feel like I can’t call in sick when I literally go on holiday on Friday (not that I’m gonna enjoy it if I’m still flaring) so trying to grin and bear it. But clearly work is exacerbating things atm. Once I do these shifts I need to do some bloods and stuff for my IBD team to figure out if I need new treatment etc. 2 days to get through, wish me luck.

#hannah rants #chronic illness #crohns disease #Crohn’s flare up #flare up #basically I have the shits #and I keep sleeping for 24 hours straight #and work is making it worse

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Now I’m crying about the little boy giving his mum CPR in 3:10. I’m never usually this emotional wtf is going on.

Is it just me that tears up at the end of Athena Begins as soon as Rise Up begins playing? I’m full on bawling every single time I rewatch from the first note.

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"Buck and Eddie are endgame," I say into the mic.

The crowd boos. I begin to walk off in shame, when a voice speaks and commands silence from the room.

"She's right," they say. I look for the owner of the voice: Ryan Guzman and Oliver Stark themselves, clutching their AO3 fic recs.

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Is it just me that tears up at the end of Athena Begins as soon as Rise Up begins playing? I’m full on bawling every single time I rewatch from the first note.

#it breaks my heart every single time #Athena’s breakdown is the worst thing #when Bobby has to literally catch her #Angela Bassett is an amazing actress #angela bassett #Athena grant #Athena carter #Bobby mash #bathena #Athena begins #911 #911 rewatch #911 abc

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Okay I’m emotional but I didn’t realise how much of a sucker punch the end of season 2 and start of season 3 was for Eddie until now.

First you think your wife is pregnant but she’s just late, and then she asks for a divorce right when you think you have your family back. And then she dies, right infront of you. And then to top it all off your best friend gets crushed by a ladder truck and almost dies.

And at the start of season 3 said best friend starts vomiting blood when you think everything is better. Then you let him take your son for the day and he and your son get lost in a tsunami that you don’t even know about until your friend is staring you in the face telling you he’d lost your kid. Only he didn’t because Chris found his way back to them both.

And then your best friend is cut off by a lawsuit and you get into an illegal fight ring

And that’s just over 6 episodes. God they put him through the wringer.

#911 abc #911 rewatch #I feel for Eddie I do #but I love the whump and angst #we also don’t talk about the lawsuit #unless it’s in fics so things can get sorted a better way #also crying at Josh showing Maddie the callers she helped #so will be a mess when I rewatch the truck bombing episode #which is right now #Eddie Diaz #hurt!eddie Diaz #Evan Buckley #Eddie Diaz whump #Christopher Diaz #Buddie

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So doing my rewatch of 9-1-1 before I actually start watching season 7 (although feel like I’ve seen most of it through here and twitter) and in Chim Begins, Chim saves Tommy from dying from a methane leak. So in conclusion we have Chimney to thank for BuckTommy and bi!Buck revelation

#let’s all say thank you to Chim #and Tommy for that matter #bi!buck #evan buckley #chimney han #bucktommy #buck x tommy #9 1 1 #911 abc #911 spoilers

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Sending gentle hugs to you!

Not on here but on ao3. Brother by my side! Will Halstead and Jay halstead. This is one of my comfort fics!

Thank you! I will check that out 💕

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I’m currently flaring from my IBD, for the first time in a long time and I’m in a lot of pain. Send me some comfort fics please, I need some distraction! fandoms I’m reading currently (9-1-1, Chicago fire, Chicago med, Chicago PD, marvel - specifically stucky, Natasha, Wanda and Tony, vampire diaries, the originals, bridgerton) or anything you think I might enjoy! Open to poly, m x reader, f x reader or character fics with no reader. Anything that will distract me from my Crohn’s hell

#in need of comfort fics #comfort #fic recs #fic recommendation #send me fics #fic recommedations wanted #9 1 1 #911 abc #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddie #matt casey #kelly severide #will halstead #connor rhodes #jay halstead #adam ruzek #kevin atwater #stucky #steve rogers #bucky barnes #natasha romanoff #wanda maximoff #tony stark #the vampire diaries #the originals #bridgerton #elijah mikaelson #klaus mikaelson #stefan salvatore

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IVE BEEN AVOIDING EVERYTHING BECAUSE IM SO BUSY WITH MY MASTERS I HAVEN’T HAD TME TO WATCH AND THIS POPPED UP ON MY TWITTER WITH THE VIDEO AND IM SCREAMING! SO WISH I DIDN’T HAVE TO GO TO WORK RN I WANNA CATCH UP! ONE STEP CLOSER TO BUDDIE

BI BUCK CONFIRMED FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#911 #evan buckley #911 abc #one step closer to Buddie #bi!buck

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If you see this on your dashboard, reblog this, NO MATTER WHAT and all your dreams and wishes will come true.

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HI! Are u ever gonna continue your writing for Tom Padalecki?

One day I’ll finish BIBF but I don’t know when. I don’t really write anymore and if I do it’s purely for myself in unfinished fics. I wrote parts of the ending years ago but never had the inspiration to finish it, but I started writing that 6 years ago. I’m so much older now so I’m not even in the same headspace as the 17/18 year old I was then. Although I still fangirl the fuck out of shows I don’t post much anymore, just read. I haven’t watched supernatural in years and I didn’t even finish it (it’s on my list to do a full rewatch but I have a full time job and it’s hard to find the time) so it’s not at the top of my radar. At the time I had a full second book planned out of their college lives. So not anytime soon, but eventually I will. But know that they were meant to be.

#bibf #supernatural #spn

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dealing with the worst case scenario

your condom breaks

you feel a lump on your breast

your friends are ignoring you

you’re stranded on an island 

you got rejected by a crush

you get into a car accident

you got stung by a bee/wasp

you got fired from your job

you’re in an earthquake

your tattoo gets infected

your house is on fire

you’re lost in the woods

you get arrested abroad

you get robbed

your partner cheated on you

you’re on a ship that’s sinking

you fall into ice

you’re stuck in an elevator

you hit a deer with your car

you have food poisoning

your pet passed away

you fall off of a horse

you or your friend has alcohol poisoning

you have toxic shock syndrome

your house has a gas leak

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I’ve just finished the vampire diaries for the first time, and man that finale was sad. But I loved it so so much. Now on to the originals and then hope I can find legacies somewhere 🤞🏼

#tvd #tvd universe #the vampire diaries

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@nymika-arts said that Buck probably didn't even know he had lichtenberg figures because he was in a coma for days and then she chose violence by also saying 'eddie tracing patterns in his skin where the figures once were and buck never knowing that that's why' so then I had a heap of feelings and wrote this about it

It’s not the first time Buck has woken up like this: Eddie’s body a warm weight against his side, the room dim in a way his apartment never quite gets, Eddie’s fingers tracing idle patterns on his shoulder and down his chest, lines branching out over his heart.

“Morning,” Buck mumbles before he gets his eyes open, blinking away sleep so that his boyfriend (his best friend, his everything) comes into focus.

Eddie’s hand skims down over his stomach, then disappears. He’s smiling when he answers, “Good morning.”

Buck smiles back. “You okay?”

There’s a tiredness in Eddie’s face that wasn’t there when they went to sleep last night, a heaviness dragging down his shoulders, but even as Buck watches, something lighter creeps in to chase it away.

“I was just thinking about how lucky I am.”

“Oh yeah?”

Buck tugs him in by the shirt and Eddie comes easily, his arm bracing on the pillow as they kiss. The first time they did this, Buck tried to turn away—wait, I’ve got morning breath—but Eddie just rolled his eyes and said, I’ve waited five years to kiss you, do you really think I care about morning breath? It might have been the most romantic thing Eddie has ever said to him. Or perhaps just the most memorable for the way they both laughed through the first attempt at a kiss and ended up getting up to brush their teeth anyway.

“Mmhm,” Eddie hums against his lips. “Because you’re going to make me breakfast.”

Amusement bubbles with the happiness coursing through Buck’s veins. “That’s why you’re lucky?“

“Well,” pretending to think about it, “I got to wake up with you too, so.”

There’s a soft, gooey spot in Buck’s chest just for Eddie. It nudges right up against the spot for Christopher and the one for the little family the three of them make, all overlapping his heart.

“Yeah,” Buck breathes. “I’m pretty lucky too.”

When he holds Eddie close to kiss him again, his hand finds the spot where a bullet almost took his partner away and he swears, for a moment, that he can still taste the blood. Then Eddie’s hand slips under his shirt to touch warm skin and it’s just them, the early morning, and the life stretching out in front of them. Suddenly, it doesn’t really feel like luck at all.

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So I now have swollen lymph nodes on the right side of my neck too, a total of 8-10 all mirroring each other. My ultrasound is in 2 days. Still waiting for my blood results.

I had a panic attack at work and had to go home, I’ve been getting palpitations since. I’m not in a good headspace. My friends are taking me to do something fun this afternoon and one of my work mums is coming to my appointment with me as my mum is unable to. Work is really supportive, and I’m lucky to have such caring co workers.

Send good vibes

A couple of months back (probably more like a year ngl) I found a neck lump and kinda just assumed it was normal. A few months ago it started growing. And then I found one on the other side. I got them checked had some bloods, and apart from a high inflammatory marker no further action. 3 weeks ago I found a lump in my armpit, then 2 days ago I found another one in my neck. I currently have 2 pea size lumps in my neck, 1 small lump in my neck and a pea size lump under my arm.

I finally went back to the doctors today. (I’d left the armpit one as I get boils and thought it was that but it never came to a head). I’ve been referred on the 2 week cancer pathway to get my lumps checked by a specialist. The doctor said it could be reactive lymph nodes but as I kept getting more she wanted me to get checked out.

I’m shit scared - but when dr google told me this months ago I had more of a panic then, I think I’ve now just accepted it could be something bad or it might not be. I was prepared for this outcome. So now we await an appointment over the next 14 days for some more investigations then 2 more weeks for results from then.

Moral of the story get your lumps checked peeps. Don’t delay like I did! The doctor was lovely and checked my armpits and neck thoroughly to find all the lumps she could. Now we wait🥺