weighward-journey

[weighward-journey]

Day 3

Anyone have any idea how long peanut butter stays good? Like, say it’s been sitting around for 5... 6... ish... months. Asking for a friend... *cough* >_>

Still no improvement on the water front as of yet. I’ve been too lazy to get to the store after work to pick up anything that could help. I was appointed as an account lead for this specialty client at work (deemed “specialty” because they’re a bit pickier and more demanding versus most of our other clients) so that’s been kinda crazy. Especially since I’ve only been at this job for about 8 and a half months now, fully trained only for about 7. There are people on my team who have been there much longer who aren’t account leads on anything, so... I guess my supervisor likes me? XD

Anyway, other progresses: I’ve started parking on the top floor of my apartment’s garage. Well, 2nd from the top as the very top is uncovered, and I like giving my car shelter. :D My apartment access in on the very bottom level of the garage, so that seemed like a quick and easy way to work at least a little extra activity into my day. The garage is only 4 levels, I park on the 3rd now, so it’s nothing too major. But, hey, every little bit helps, right? As I said in my first post: baby steps. This is only the beginning, and hopefully I can keep working up to more from here. ^_^

#weight loss #none yet #well there might have been but I still don't have a scale #make healthy choices! #i'm working on it #baby steps #not even a confident baby #a baby just learning how to walk who still holds onto the coffee table for support sometimes

[weighward-journey]

Day 2

Hmm, what to say today...

So. My goal #1 from yesterday - cutting out sweets. Heh. I mean, I’ve been better, at least. It used to be donuts for breakfast, chips and candy from the vending machine at work for lunch, and some kind of cookies or cake or other dessert with dinner. It was a lot, y’all. I did pretty well all day yesterday, but then shortly after posting my first entry, I ate the last Cinnabon in the 4-pack my friend brought over on Sunday. Sigh. And THEN, tonight, my last pack of PopTarts after dinner. OTL

At least it was my last pack, though! And I won’t be buying any more. I picked up some sugar free pudding last time I went grocery shopping and made it with unsweetened vanilla almond milk. I was really hoping that could help satisfy my sweet tooth. Except. It didn’t set. At all. Not sure if it was because it was almond milk or because it was unsweetened, but either way, I wasted two boxes of pudding. Gonna have to see if I can find dairy milk that has less sugar. (Seriously, have y’all ever looked at the amount of sugar in regular milk? It’s crazy, you guys!) More sigh.

So, I guess to sum up the day, there’s been some progress but some room for improvement, too. Not so much a surprise; I’m a constant work in progress. And, I dunno, that’s kind of exciting in a way, isn’t it? That you’re never really FINISHED? Well, I think it is, at least. ^_^

#wayward af #ish #i'm gonna get there y'all #weight loss #sorta #getting healthy #hopefully #why do all my tags have qualifier tags? #because i'm a libra and thus not decisive on anything ever

[weighward-journey]

Day 1

And so it begins…

Here’s the thing. I don’t have any of the Kim Rhodes/Briana Buckmaster Wayward AF tees/merchandise. None. The times they were on sale were probably the times I needed them most, because I was Stressed AF, Self-doubting AF, and Anxiety/Depression-Ridden AF; I was also Broke AF, literally depending on my parents - in my 30s - to pay my rent for me, which was a major contributing factor to those other three states. (And before anyone says, “Well at least you weren’t in your 30s and living in your parents’ basement!”: I had just moved out. Thus the need for them to pay my rent.) So. No t-shirts for me, even though I probably could have used that confidence boost.

 But, here’s the thing. Even if I could have afforded them, there was a part of me that felt as though I didn’t deserve them. Because there was really no part of me that felt Wayward in any way. Now, let’s be clear: I don’t think badly of myself, as a general rule. But I don’t necessarily think positively of myself either. I’m just kinda… here. I’ve always wanted to be, though. I wanted to be the kind of person Kim and Briana would think was pretty cool.

So that brings us here. To this little blog all about how I hopefully go about becoming the person I want to be. And while the title is “My Weigh-ward Journey”, it’s only partially about weight. It’s more about… getting healthier, being more active, becoming someone who can kick ass rather than just sit around on hers. 

Goal #1: I’m starting small. Ish. I’ve decided to cut out sweets. Yes, completely. And to those who want to try to preach the “moderation is key” speech: Stop. I’ve heard it. And I also know you don’t tell addicts to moderate; you tell them to quit, because something in their chemistry makes them almost physically unable to moderate. So, sweets are gone. For now. I’m hoping once I break the bad habits I’ll be able to start reintroducing some sweets, mostly on special occasions, but we’ll have to see how it goes.

Goal #2: I was also going to try to drink nothing but water in order to cut my addiction to sodas/drinks with artificial sweeteners. And that’s where I ran into my first major obstacle. See, here’s the thing. Plain water? Gives me some hellacious heartburn. Literally, just about the only time I get heartburn is when I drink plain water. Not sure why that’s a thing that happens, but it does/is. So if anyone has any ideas on that, please share with the class, ‘cause I’m not sure what to do there… :/

So, there you go. Day 1 of what I’m sure will be a crazy/frustrating/emotional/rewarding journey. Just for some ‘accountability/progress tracking, I’m starting this journey at 5′5″ (I don’t expect that number to change… XD), ~246 lbs. (I was last weighed 2 weeks ago at my chiropractor, but I don’t expect it’’s changed much since then. At some point, I’ll invest in a scale for myself. >_>), and size 18 jeans.

Keep your fingers crossed for me y’all. And if you wanna cheer me on sometimes, I wouldn’t turn that away, either.

#kim rhodes #briana buckmaster #my heroes #i wanna grow up to be just like them #wayward af #someday #weight loss #hopefully #getting healthy