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wisp-of-thought · 1 month

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Instead I say: Falasteen

Because I hope

That when the colonizer comes for me

Somebody says my name right in the eulogy

Like my mother intended

With all the history of my homeland

I hope in one final act of rebellion

I refuse to fit comfortable in their mouths

I hope these consonants cut their tongues

I hope they choke on these guttural vowels

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wisp-of-thought · 1 month

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I lost track of the wounds

In the end

The only one that mattered

Was the one you gave me

In the end

The only one that mattered

Was you

In the end

It was the betrayal that slaughtered me

Before the blood loss

When your eyes sliced into my soul

Puncturing the vital organ

I was dead before your blade parted flesh

Ghost before my body hit the ground

~

In the end

My final breath

An exhale of your name

That still tasted like home on the tounge

My blood forgetting to be afraid

In your familar palms

~

But if I am spirit

Why I am the one haunted?

By you

Or some part of you that perished

With me

Begging for mercy

I do not know how to grant you

~

And if you lived

Why did I find you

Haunting your own shell

When I returned to

Forgive you

~

~And Caeser Thinks: If Betrayal Is A Kiss, I am Glad I Tasted It Last From Your Lips

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wisp-of-thought · 7 months

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wisp-of-thought · 1 year

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In the end

When redemption comes for me

He looks so much

Like you

And is not what absolution has always been?

You

Coming back

To me

And in the space carved out for forgiveness

He plants "I love you, still" instead

And is this not what mercy has always been?

Love where guilt once grew

Burying the hurt in an unmarked grave

A field of second chances blooming over it

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wisp-of-thought · 1 year

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And even now

When I think of you

In mourning of us

It is her ghost

That haunts you

While I wait my turn

To be remembered

For it has always been her

And the girl who wears her sheets of grief

This time

Until they grow tired of playing a dead thing

For you

And even after everything

It is her ghost that you take to bed

And mine that lingers by the door

Watching

Wondering

Wanting

Forever

For I cannot even

Haunt you

Better than

She

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wisp-of-thought · 1 year

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And I will always love you like you

Are my first

And you will always love me like I

Fall somewhere inbetween

The beginning and

The end

And what can I do

But keep falling

Short

of forever

A memory that will not last

No matter how hard I try

To hurt you enough

For the scars to linger

Even after I am gone

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wisp-of-thought · 1 year

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The doctor tells me I might have arthritis at 9 am on a wednesday in november

My shoes are wet, my coat is soaked, my umbrella is broken

I have to catch a bus in time for class

In 20 minutes, 19 minutes, 18 minutes

18 minutes

18

The cold is seeping into my aching bones

The doctor tells me I might have arthritis

But he does not believe the MRI results

He says I am only 18

18

He says it should be impossible

For my body to be is such a state of

Inevitable disrepair

And this is all I have ever wanted

For someone to tell me that I am too young to be this old

That all this ache belongs somewhere

That I am allowed to hurt

And that they are going to heal me

The doctor tells me I might have arthritis

And there is nothing we can do

Which is of course not exactly what he says

He says here are our options

And i hear

There is nothing we can do

I hear

This body

A broken record

Only getting worse

The song you once loved eventually

Unrecognizable

It's surface covered in scar tissue that runs

Too deep

To love back to healing

But you remember

You remember

What it sounded like

When it was capable of beauty

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wisp-of-thought · 2 years

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wisp-of-thought · 2 years

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And the darkness calls to me with all the names my mother said were too soft for me

The shadows think I am delicate and I let them, try to let them convince me too

That somewhere something may yet still think I am worthy of gentleness

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wisp-of-thought · 2 years

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I am a wound

And the longing it will scar

I am the irony of the guilty begging for mercy before the end

And temptation to give it

The ache of dreaming of the redemption you will never let yourself have

The agony of an artist without a muse

The desire that overcomes you when your center of gravity shifts on a precipice

The reminder of how final an edge is

How peaceful the end

I am the nights when missing him is longest

The false memory of his gentleness

The phantom promise of what could have been if you let yourself be reduced to repentance

The curiosity of what it would be like to part flesh and bone, to shed your skin and be reborn without this name

The fleeting hope these seams will split and the clock will stop and the mirrors will shatter

I am poetic justice in all her cruel beauty

I am the universe in all her lonely infinity

I am the forgiveness that comes for you when you are least worthy of mercy

Just because I can

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wisp-of-thought · 2 years

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You return for me

Once I've finally

Bled your name

Out my veins

Sometimes there is grief

But most days there is only

The space in my heart

You left behind

Where nothing grows

Anymore

- somedays missing you is an ocean and somedays it is drought

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wisp-of-thought · 2 years

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My favourite Poet gets married

And I lament to my friend that there will be no more heartbreak poems

And is this not the kind of tragedy we all long for

The thing about art and

Artist

Is that they are confusing most of the time

Until you have lived the heartbreak of a muse

Until you have lost a child

Or a childhood

Until you have buried your mother

Or resurrected yourself

Until you have spent a summer drowning

In your own oceans

Until you have forgotten the colour of the sky

Or his skin

And maybe this is why I am so

Confused

Because I have not lived this heartbreak yet

But every one of her poems was about a lover lost

And I think of all the loss haunting her love

I think of all the ghost girls under their bed

I think of all the poetry she wrote about someone else

And I cannot understand it

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He tells me that he loved her for six years

That she was the person that knew him best in the world

He still says her name like he may yet summon her ghost

The consonants getting caught in his teeth

I imagine he tastes her with every mouthful of promises he makes me

All the songs he sings me reminds him of her

I keep them all like scars

~

He says he loves me

And I try to believe him

But it is hard when

All I can imagine is how he would have loved her till the end

If he could have

- to the poems I never had the heart to finish because of you

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wisp-of-thought · 2 years

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I know

I will never

Fill the craters

She left in your heart

And I know

When we are over

I will take nothing of you with me

But pieces of her void

And you will have nothing to remember me by

But the memory

Of how I could not love you

Like she did

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wisp-of-thought · 2 years

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I am still forgiving myself

For the time I wasted

For the people I loved who did not love me back

And I knew

And I am still forgiving myself for the staying

For keeping the loneliness

In all the parts of me

I swore I'd never let it

Touch

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wisp-of-thought · 2 years

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I grow old and wonder if writing poetry has always been this hard

I wonder what I wouldn't sacrifice for a muse

I would give my youth if I had any left to offer

The only thing I have ever wanted more than to be a writer

Is to be loved

But these days I wonder

If there is really a difference

For where do I exist if not between the lines of every poem I have never written

And if I do not write my story who will

And if I do not claw my metaphors into your tear ducts

Who will remember me

- Hiatus

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wisp-of-thought · 2 years

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I wait for inspiration at the door step of my youth. But she has long forsaken the promises we carved into my childhood bedframe. And this is the abandonment of the muse. For there was a season when poetry herself wooed me into unfurling my untried fingers to her pen and for a moment she was encapsulated by the way I bled ink for her. How deep I was willing to tear myself to reach the sweetest similies. Capillaries and couplets. And she kept me. Until the metaphors melted into puddles of half remembered melodies. And she grew bored. I cannot recall which came first.

I always knew her gaze was fickle. Her favour easily shifted with the tilt of the light. And how easy it is to fall into shadow. How beautiful the canvas of the sky when closest to darkness, when teetering on the precipice of the end. I write to her still. Shove the love notes composed of subpar symphonies under the porch where she promised she would return for me. And what does poetry know but already rotting vows.

In some letters I miss her. And in some I ask her forgiveness. In some I bleed, and leave this offering to be unfound. I wring out the papers drenched in desperation, and ask her to hold me. One last time. I ask for a poem. And I use the letters to burn my past to ash. For perhaps the smell of smoke carries farther. Perhaps ash and charred memories, will linger longer than love.

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wisp-of-thought · 2 years

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Oh the blood I have shed

Oh the youth I have lost amongst the grief

And for who?

In hopes a river of sorrow,

Or a pathway of scars

Would lead love back

To the hollow parts of me

I carved out

To make room for the forgiveness

I deny myself?

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