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i know everyone have said this already loads of times but i just need to vent out lol

i'm tired of hearing that ocd is when you always clean everything and store everything in a particular order. i wish ocd was like that. in reality ocd is like when you count berries you've already eaten because you're afraid of some numbers and you don't want to eat this numbers berries. ocd is like when you can't buy a chocolate bar cuz it seems like if you eat it you will die in a couple of days

actually no wonder many people with ocd also have depression cuz anxiety just paralyzes you. you can't do anything cuz you wanna avoid anxiety but the faster you run from it the faster it reaches you and it's like vicious circle. and it is scary

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i thought i can finally rest for a bit cuz i finished all my assignments for this semester but ocd is right fucking here i want to blow up my head it is difficult

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i started having terrible headaches this month. actually each december is full of intrusive thoughts and anxiety. since 2017 or something. I feel physically exhausted even though I only wiped the floors today and I feel so miserable

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so this year's beginning was fucking crazy for me and I didn't know if I'd live through it or not. it's not because something awful was happening in my life (thanks for it actually /gen) but because I had a bad ocd episodes and didn't even have something I can get distracted by because it was winter holidays and I literally had nothing to do.

I got diagnosed with ocd, started therapy and started taking antidepressants and until my second uni year I felt? well not that bad. it was just ok. better that the first uni year. but now.. seems like I'm back again in winter holidays from january 2023 just with other obsessions and compulsions.

it's so frustrating. I just don't know what to do because my current anxiety level is higher that the mountain everest. I'm just tired of being anxious all the time, like literally everything brings me anxiety.

it was just a went out post. thanks for anyone who reads this. and for everyone who struggles with ocd too – know that you're not alone.

#ocd

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Reasons to nut:

-DAZAI AND KUNIKIDA ON A DATE

-Official art by Sango Harukawa

-Dazai's eye mask

-DAZAI SHOWERS/BATHES (Take that, Twitter!)

-Kunikida with his hair down

-100% pure Kunidazai fluff

-Dazai being too cute for words

-My OTP (almost) naked in the bath, together!

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sharing is caring

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@femslashfeb 2019 day 8: silent ♡

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femslashfeb day 24: listening! ☆

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past memories

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modern 

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if if if

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Their one and only  ;;A;;

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 strawberries part twoo🍓🍓🍓

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a date? comic, for a small gift exchange. @wellthengetouttathesoupaisle asked for a stsg date/outing!

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it’s especially annoying cause he actually likes them