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Matchato con una ragazza su bumble dopo che l'ultima mi ha ghostata e dopo letteralmente tre (3) messaggi mi ha chiesto di uscire allora calma dov'è l'emozione il racconto di una storia io non sono abituata a queste cose!!!!!!

#questo è il karma per aver ghostato io stessa una ragazza qualche giorno fa #mi mettono ansia queste app bastaaaa bastaaaa #elena rants

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Che ridere mi sono fatta mille paranoie per la tipa di bumble che mi ha chiesto di uscire tre giorni fa e adesso mi sta ghostando......... vabbè torno a respirare

#non so se dire peccato perché secondo me saremmo andate d'accordo #o menomale perché almeno non ci devo più pensare #che stress il dating world io non ci volevo entrare #elena rants

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I was talking to a girl on bumble and she asked me out and now I'm panicking. I mean. it was to be expected tbh, but I'm not sure I want to meet her? not because of her, but because I have terrible commitment issues and I just know it wouldn't lead anywhere and it would only add to my anxiety, but. idk. maybe I'd be missing out on something potentially nice?

#the thing is - and it's insane to say - it feels like i'm cheating on my best friend. #i don't even know how to explain it it's just. idk. #don't say it's because i'm in love with her because i know i'm not #i just. i don't want us to get into relationships or even go out with anyone? i just want it to be me and her #not in a romantic way #just. god it's complicated. #i feel like i'm getting myself into something bigger than me and i don't know what to do #because i always complain i've never been in an actual relationship and i want to know what it feels like but #do i? because i don't think so. i think i like complaining about it but at the end of the day i don't care that much #and i'm okay with things being the way they are i think #but if my bsf ever got into a relationship or started seeing someone then i'd be like. ok i need to do this as well. #and it's an insane thing to say like??? why??? #elena rants

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Pensiero del giorno se potessi scriverei la tesi di laurea sull'omosessualità repressa di John Lennon ma non credo che unimi sia pronta per questo

#elena rants

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Sto morendo di freddo ho mal di testa ho 30 messaggi non letti sono bradicardica e per giunta non funzionano neanche i link per la diretta dei pompieri io veramente rischio di commettere un crimine stasera

#abbiate pietà della mia persona e della mia anima #elena rants

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henren ∘⁠˚⁠˳⁠° 911 abc + s06e06

requested by @hearteyesdiaz

ID in ALT

#lesbians who own my heart <3 #me and who #henren #911 gifs #911 6x06

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I get drunk on jealousy

buck/eddie | background and temporary buck/tommy | explicit | 5.7k words

“Is he in bed with you?” Eddie asks instead and Buck stumbles in his steps. “He just left,” Buck mutters absentmindedly as he hops from foot to foot, doing practically freaking gymnastics to put on the pants with one hand while the other holds the phone and the hoodie hands carelessly and dangerously from his shoulder, slowly sliding down and on the verge of falling to the ground. It's too late and Buck is too fucked for this shit. His ass is still a little sore— not really in a painful way but there. In that way you feel that phantom sensation when you move. That ‘I had a big dick up the ass and was fucked all the way to Sunday not even half an hour ago’ kind of sore. “Oh, okay.” Eddie murmurs, voice crackling. or: Eddie calls Buck in the middle of the night at a not so covenient time, words are said, feelings are revealed and Buck's strenght is tested.

read on ao3

#OH MY GOD OH MY GOD #i need to read this immediately!! #buddie fic #to read

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✨9 people you'd like to get to know better ✨

Thank you @liabegins for tagging me!! Just so you know, my dms are always open and I'm always more than happy to get to know new people in the fandom :)

last song: we are golden – mika

favorite color: dark red

currently watching: yellowjackets s2

sweet/savory/spicy: maybe savory but really it depends on the mood

relationship status: (painfully) single

current obsession: 9-1-1, crocheting, thinking about books without reading them 👍

last thing you googled: how to raise low blood pressure 😭 it's not even summer yet and i'm already struggling <\3

not tagging anyone specifically but everyone is more than welcome to join <3

#tag game

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I'm gonna ask you guys something and I need you to not make fun of me alright I feel like I'm 14 all over again but I have no one else to ask this, so.

I can recognise when a guy is attractive and might even find him attractive myself, in the sense that I can appreciate male beauty, and I make jokes about wanting to [redacted] male celebrities/characters even though I don't truly feel that way. In fact, I have no interest in pursuing a romantic/sexual relationship with a man. Sometimes I'm flattered when men show an interest in me, I don't find it annoying; I just don't have it in myself to even try and go on dates with them. I think I would be more comfortable dating a girl.

Does this mean I'm a lesbian? Can I consider myself a lesbian even though I feel attracted to male celebrities/characters (or even irl people, if they're attractive) without feeling the desire to actually be with them? Because I've identified as bisexual for the longest time, but I don't think bisexual girls feel this way towards guys. I think they may want to actually fuck men, y'now, not just... appreciate male celebrities like they would with a beautiful painting.

Does this make sense?

#i feel so dumb posting this but it's 1 am and i can't sleep because i keep thinking about this so. might as well. #i've been calling myself a lesbian for a few weeks now but idk. it feels weird and idk why #elena rants #wlw

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I fainted twice this morning and scared the shit out of my parents they had to call the paramedics 😭 and we have no idea what happened 'cause I was never one to have such a low blood pressure??? Anyway I'm better now but GOD finding myself on the floor without knowing how I ended up there surely was An Experience

#hopefully it won't happen again tomorrow morning and it was just a one time thing #i feel so out of it today #elena rants

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9-1-1 otherwise known as THE GAY FIREFIGHTER SHOW

#my favourite tv show <3 #911 gifs

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Being a lesbian and finding a girl to go out with is hard in and on itself but finding someone that doesn't ghost me after two text messages and that isn't the fucking personification of boredom is even harder

#the people i matched with on dating apps? BORING #half of them couldn't keep the conversation going #the other half gave me friends vibes #then of course there are the ones that never even texted back #exhausting. #i don't know where else to meet queer girls that live in the area #considering that i don't want to go to a gay club #the only interesting girls i find live on the other side of the country ofc #and sure i wouldn't mind a long distance relationship (i think?) but i kinda want to go on dates and kiss and have the full experience #since i never got to experience it before #oof. i'm tired. #elena rants #wlw

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I want to kiss a girl so bad if I don't kiss a girl soon I'm afraid I'll die

#it's true the doctor told me #elena rants #wlw

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i know we’ve been saying this for so long but like, this is almost unprecedented, y’all. normally when you want queer characters and queer relationships you have to SEARCH for them. you go into shows knowing they have lgbt+ rep and ships. especially for m/m otps. they’re planned beforehand. they are introduced with the idea of “these characters are achillean and will get together.”

but this? buck? i can assure you no one on the 911 team thought he would be introduced as bisexual at any point. but the truth is, just like it happens in real life for so many bisexual people (and queer people in general), he’s found himself. he’s found his truth, his light. he’s realizing this was always who he was even if he did not understand it before or have the words to express it properly. we’ve watched a character organically grow into one of the best (if not the best) representations of a bisexual individual there has ever been on tv.

and buddie? oh my god don’t get me started on buddie. they bloomed. they’ve happened organically. they were never ever ever supposed to be what they are. and yet here we are, 6 seasons later, knowing we are getting there. knowing they are each other’s heart and soul. knowing they will be together not because execs created them to be together but because they make sense. finally there has been a show brave enough to see the magic and beauty of what they themselves created. they’re taking a chance on them, on us, and i think there will never be anything else to top this.

we should enjoy this. we should savor it. this is special. a once in a lifetime kind of thing (just like buck and eddie are living their once in a lifetime love story.)

#how lucky are we to see it all unfold #knowing that it's bound to be important for the lgbt community and its representation #that it already IS important #it makes me shed a tear #buddie

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Of course, you want to hang out withe Eddie.

#insane thing to say to someone you're clearly flirting with #he's a bisexual mess fr #evan buckley #tommy kinard #911 gifs #911 7x04

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SCREAMING 😭😭😭😭

#this is truly the funniest thing ever #WHY is he so LOUD man get a grip!!! #video

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But what happens when Tommy takes Buck home and they’re standing in the doorway and he kisses Buck goodnight and he goes to pull away but Buck reacts and grabs the back of Tommy’s neck, pulling him for another, deeper kiss that turns a little hungrier and Buck whines a little in the back of his throat and he feels Tommy smile into their kiss and then they pull away and Buck’s basically panting while Tommy seems barely phased, that fucker, and he’s grinning at him and Buck whispers “you-you could come inside if you want?” And Tommy’s smile softens and he says with a flirty, teasing tone, “I don’t put out on the first day, Evan” and then kisses him again before turning and walking away and Buck stands frozen in the doorway filled with so much queer joy (and arousal, that too, definitely arousal) and he doesn’t even move for a solid two minutes…. What then?

#I'M SCREAMING buck deserves this he deserves all of this #let him live and experience his queerness omg #evan buckley #tommy kinard