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destiel fans when the song has the word “angel”, “grace”, or anything remotely related to religion in it

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7x21 “Reading Is Fundamental” // … suddenly, new hope in life, ad for a redacted chemical company (1962)

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‘Dad’s on a hunting trip, and he hasn’t been home in a few days’

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Sympathising with my mother but at the same time

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in s12 the writers really said “we’re gonna make sure that people know that angels and humans can have sex, fall in love, get married, and have kids. also angels can have a male vessel without identifying as male cause it’s different for angels. also we’ll do market research into dean’s sexuality. don’t worry about it though.”

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season 4 I guess

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genuinely evil that we didn’t get to see this play out onscreen

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ok but i need to know if marie actually sent dean those fic links

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every sunday i tell my liberal father that i'm off to go get another sex change. he tells me "yass monarch slay". but in reality i go to church to study the teachings of the lord. if my liberal father knew this i would be disowned. this is joe biden's america

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watching a very supernatural christmas and in the flashbacks sam is only just now (at 8 years old) finding out about monsters. which means that for 7 1/2 years dean has been bearing the burden about worrying if their dad will come home from “work” alive or not ON HIS OWN. sam thinks john is some sort of travelling salesman (?) up until this point. and dean has to live with the fear that he’ll lose their dad as well as their mom while also not clueing sam into the fact that john is in danger. constantly. no one to confide in or get comfort from. and in fact he is the one doing the comforting! he consoles sam about their dad being gone and in 2x01 john even says then when he came home from hunts dean would put a hand on his shoulder and tell his dad that everything would be okay. EVERYTHING YOU DO HAS BEEN FOR LOVE. THEE MOST CARING MAN I HAVE EVER KNOWN. if you even care

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i love angel lore

this actually lines up well with what cas's canonical interest in bees represents at that point. bees being another order of angel, cas admiring them for their structure, their hierarchies, their closeness to god, and everyone with a job to do, during a time where cas feels like his every choice and action has led to disaster. he's desperate to be back "in the fold," to have a job and do it well. and bedlund saying here that angels are also the "closest to his missing God" also supports the idea that bees = a longing for heaven and order. honey!cas is cas at his lowest and most "helpless." he feels defeated, he wants things to be simple and easy again. this cas is perhaps looking for the guidance of that "missing God." he's searched desperately for god before, when he believed god had all the answers and would help them. following the bees, admiring them, wishing to be like them, ties into those themes of feeling helpless and looking for structure and purpose again, the kind of structure and purpose he found in heaven for millions of years. but observing the bees also twines with cas's love and admiration of earth and god's creations. it's a very cas way of longing for the familiarity of heaven. instead of just being like, "ah yes i miss heaven and it's structures" he goes and admires bees for those same attributes. (also imagine cas, in this broken defeated state, telling the bees of all his faults and trauma and regrets. the bees as angels being tuned into angel radio, receiving and relaying cas's confessions) anyway, bedlund saying bees are possibly another order of angels just !!! slams home the idea that cas is looking toward heaven at this time. and again that his interest in bees, while seemingly cute and wholesome on the surface, runs much deeper in ways that are often glossed over or not represented in fandom

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big win for the girlies (gn) who like beelover!cas despite the haters

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Just some tartarus memes inspired by my reread <3

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things I wouldn't believe happened if I hadn't seen them with my own two eyes:

cain implying cas is dean's collette

dean breaking cas out of naomi's mind control

cas' entire confession

dean's s13 widower arc

"I left, but you didn't stop me."

"he was your boyfriend first."

"the stench of that impala is all over your overcoat" or whatever he said

"don't make me lose you too."

dean turning aaron down not because he "doesn't swing that way" but because he's on a "federal investigation."

in fact, dean's entire reaction to aaron hitting on him

dean's disappointment when he found out aaron wasn't actually into him.

dean's siren being a dude and sam not questioning it despite still being under the impression that sirens infect people through sex

destiel divorce arc

dean completely giving up on life whenever cas dies

dean staying in purgatory for an entire year even though he could have left at anytime simply because he didn't want to leave without cas

dean seeing cas everywhere after purgatory just like how sam saw jess everywhere after she died

dean rewriting his memories of purgatory because he couldn't handle the fact that cas willingly chose to leave him and it was easier to believe that he failed cas instead

dean telling cas he's not going to let him die a virgin

"he's in love...with humanity."

cas putting donatello into a coma because he hurt dean

the handprint parallel (and that being jensen's idea)

"you have me confused with the other angel. you know, the one in the dirty trench coat who's in love with you?"

"sorry but i'd rather have you, cursed or not."

destiel dressed up as cowboys

"are you going to look at more anime or are strictly into dick now?"

"and how is it that you lost dean? I thought you two were joined at the, you know...everything."

the look on dean's face when he realized jack broke cas out of the empty (and the look bobby gave him in return)

"you're hoping castiel will return to you."

dean canonically being cas' human weakness

dean dropping to his knees and praying to cas while sobbing because he was scared of losing him

dean and crowley having orgies together

the mixtape

dean flirting with a guy through charlie

just the general way dean and cas look at each other and interact with each other like idk what else to say lmao