xashtray

[xashtray]

it's easier to love you when those eight letters weren't so familiar on our lips, when your kisses never left a mark on my skin, when your fingers never wrapped around mine so tightly. it's easier to love you when it was just me, when i was all alone and you didn't see this part of the story.

—a.m.

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keep a loaded gun into my mouth

shoot down right to my guts if i dare to open them out

and tell me that good girls swallow the bullets

I'll be bratty, mean, and sarcastic

just to spit them out

—a.m.

[xashtray]

forever drawn to my unconsciousness, no use of running away from my fate. at the end of the day, I'm forever my father's daughter with the mouth and the mind of my mother

—a.m.

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omg my bf is the cutest little shit ever and im so grateful to have him <3

#personal #xashtray

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He brings another to the table, got me savoring every taste on his fingers. Everything I couldn't digest, I swallow whole. And he loves me for that.

—a.m.

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"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.

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“thank you for doing that to me”

“thank you for letting me” 🖤

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Nobody wants to be as close to me as i want to be to them and i know the closeness i want is unrealistic and probably unhealthy but it doesnt make me want it less 

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Crushes are called crushes because thats what they do to your heart

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you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

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My traumatized brain: everyone will hurt you and no one can be trusted

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i just want to cry in the dark and hurt myself alone

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I swear I'm so tired. Deep down I just wanna sit and watch me fade away

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