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This, it’s a strange longing.

To have known someone so intimately and then nothing, to be strangers again.

I hope that they are okay and in some way will let me know that they are okay in the end

online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

#lost friends #thinking #longing #tumblr

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Okay but like

What if they give forehead kisses instead

I’m so fucking touch starved god help me

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I love this

Humans are adorable.

Supporting evidence:

1. Humans say ‘ow’, even if they haven’t actually been hurt. It’s just a thing they say when they think they might have been hurt, but aren’t sure yet.

2. Humans collect shiny things and decorate their bodies and nests with them. The shinier the better, although each individual has a unique taste for style and colouring

3. Humans are not an aquatic or even amphibious species, but they flock to bodies of water simply to play in it. They can’t even hold their breath all that long; they just love to splash!

4. When night falls and the sky goes dark, humans become drowsy and begin to cocoon themselves in soft, fluffy bedding.

5. Some humans spend time in each other’s nests! Just for fun! It’s not their nest; they’re just visiting each other.

6. Some humans use pigments and dyes to make their bodies flashy and colourful! They even attach shiny dangly bits to their cartalidgous membranes!

7. Humans are very clever, and sometimes adopt creatures from other species into their family units. They don’t seem to notice the obvious differences, and often raise them alongside their own young!

8. If a human sees another creature in distress, they can commonly be observed trying to help! Even at their own risk, most humans are deeply compassionate creatures!

9. If a human hears a particularity catchy sound or tune, it will often mimic it, even to the point of annoying themselves!

10. Sneezes are entirely involuntary, and completely adorable. Especially when the human in question becomes frustrated

11. Humans love treats!!! Some more than others. Many humans will save these treats specifically for a later date when they are in need of comfort or reassurance. IE, pickles, pop tarts, Popsicles, etc

12. They’re learning to travel in space!!! They can’t get very far, but they’re trying!!! So far, they’ve made it to the end of their yard, and have found rocks

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I could either be in pain to the point where every little inconvenience will break me down, bring me to tears and make me wish I was dead, or dissociate to the point where a disastrous event will mean nothing to me.

There is no such thing as "a little" when it comes to my emotions. I either feel way too much, or feel nothing at all.

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The way I’d fold for a real vampire in my life right now, or for a sexy older man or woman to sweep me off my feet for a night just saying

#vampcore #vampire lore #vampyr #real vampire #im a simp #aestethic #gothcore #in love with a fictional character

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Life’s getting boring again .. I want to live to feel something.. not just survive

#photography #aestethic #sad aesthetic #full moon #i am tired #survival #bipolaire #i just want to sleep

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sunset from my drive the other night

#chasing the light #sunset #sunflower #my photos #photography #aestethic

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Da best loafs

Loafing around

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Imagen Alu is like a fucking cat. All the typical things a cat does, he does too. Just glue fucking ears on his head, man....

- He purrs when happy (yeah I know that bats can purr too)

- He hisses and claws

- Very clean (high maintance)

- Jumps up from sleep when he smells something good

- Yells when everybody is asleep

- Needs comfort even though he says everytime that he is independent and doesn't need that shit

- Gets jumpscared by a toaster or a cucumber

- Wants attention

- Can't be seen most of his awaken phases

- Sometimes very narcisstic shit

- His pupils dilate when he sees something he likes

- Smacks shit off of every surface

- Would hiss at the roomba when Seras puts googly eyes on it

- Stares right at you

- Stares at seemingly empty corners to make you feel paranoid

Maybe more edits to come, you can comment your own ideas if you want though!

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I mean like I’m sure I wouldn’t mind

Nobody is immune to the neck kiss

#vampire #neck kisses #thoughts #text post

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“I cannot rid myself of the feeling that I’m not in the right place.”

— Franz Kafka

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Yes, I feel old when I get excited about a new dish strainer 🤣🤣🤣

Grandmas were so right about puzzles and knitting and crocheting and solitaire and reading slow and slippers and baking and watching deer in the backyard send post

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“And that quote, “The only disability in life is a bad attitude,” the reason that that’s bullshit is because it’s just not true.” - Stella Young

[IDs: Screenshots from the late, great, Stella Young’s TED Talk: I’m Not Your Inspiration, Thank You Very Much. Stella is a wheelchair-user sitting up on the stage in front of a massive crowd. In these screenshots, she’s saying, “No amount of smiling at a flight of stairs has ever made it turn into a ramp. Never. (Laughter. Applause.) Smiling at a television screen isn’t going to make closed captions appear for people. No amount of standing in the middle of a bookshop and radiating a positive attitude is going to turn all those books into braille.]

I use this speech and the underlying theories a lot in my PhD, but Stella Young honestly had one of those voices that needs to be heard by everyone, so I figured I’d post my favorite part of the speech here. If anyone remembers that time I threw myself onto the floor For The Vine, you’ll know that I also hate the quote: “The only disability in life is a bad attitude”. Stella just conveyed the message with less pain.

Link to Stella Young’s TED Talk | Link to the transcript

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Mood.

sir those are my emotional support 6 month old browser tabs

#meme #oops sorry #emotional support #lolz #not me having 5 ao3 tabs open at any given time

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What’s the strangest fact about yourself that when you tell people it and no one believes you

I’ll go first

I’m in my 20’s and still a Virgin

What’s yours?

#bored af #strange fact #just bored #idk what else to tag #fun facts #tell me