i think i am ok. it's dangerous to indulge in thoughts that are self destructive.
it isn't so tempting anymore.
the key is surrounding myself with good people, and i know what that means to me. i know how i am surrounded by so much goodness and to be able to experience the tenderness of others is something i hope everyone can experience multiple times in their life. i hope it's plentiful.
i have met and reconnected so many good people in these last few years, and i want to take time to acknowledge that.
my life feels so much fuller knowing that—how my relationships have improved, how i am developingy inner motivation, how so many of those i choose to surround myself with inspire me, how i don't take anything so seriously anymore, how i have learned to accept myself and process my own feelings/emotions...
it all matters.
i still take a lot of things in my life for granted and i am privileged in many ways. acknowledging that, i want to be better.
i always want to be better.
practice, effort, focus, concentration, "being in the zone", perseverance,
there's so much more to that.
understanding my inner motivation and letting that lead me to hidden opportunities.
i really do feel so lucky to be surrounded by such good people in my life. i am so inspired by their drive, humility, (inner motivation).
there's no use in trying to prove myself to others because i don't need to.
i just want to be honest, a lot more self-aware, mindful, and light-hearted!
i just want to live as myself! and not be concerned with others!
i am happy. really.
even though there's so many things i want to fix about myself, i am not afraid to be myself. i wouldn't want to be anyone else, or be anywhere else. i like myself, and there's a lot of things i want to do.
as always it's okay to make mistakes. mistakes are necessary, and it's never a big deal. it isn't. really!
so live as yourself. make lots of mistakes while you're at it