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#home

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#spring #april 2024

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Ahahahaahah, I’m taking more selfies of myself and they’re so cute!!!!!!! I love seeing for myself how cute I am…

#loving myself

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#new york #march 2024

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#home

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Perfect Days (2023) dir. Wim Wenders

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I Am What I Am (2022) ‘そばかす’ dir. Shinya Tamada

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#window shopping

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Acceptance, Kind Of

I was going through really intense feelings earlier, with my mind going 40 mph…

I wish I could see how amazing of a person I am, and that it’s really important for me to not center criticism, because it’s a really unhealthy habit to continue to cultivate.

So this week I will practice:

1. Advocating for myself. Cheering myself on!

2. Take time to write a love letter to myself, expressing my affection for myself, NOT only focusing on my strengths, but on areas I don’t feel confident in.

3. Try my best (like I always do), even if whatever I’m doing is hard or boring.

4. Take better care of myself. If I’m feeling overwhelmed or sad, I allow myself to take a break. I will actively take a pause every time self-judgment arises.

I’ve been feeling really uncomfortable thinking about the dissatisfaction I feel about certain things in my life.

I feel irritated just thinking about it so for now, I’m going to stop here.

Instead, I’ll practice gratitude! I add an exclamation mark because it’s my own gesture of trying to smile to my painful feelings.

Anyway,

I feel grateful for:

My friend who I’ve found really endearing and wonderful.

The rainy weather. It makes me cherish the warmer weather

Seeing my teacher and gifting her flowers. I got to see her dogs too 💕

The ốc my parents got for me

Morning text from my dear friend/sis, S

Practicing gratitude

Sending another (lol) message to someone I had lunch with last week at L*nked*n. I’ve been feeling anxious about this, and I’ve felt this way with other people (I’ve sent messages to) who haven’t responded my gestures for connection! I have been feeling a lot of shame and embarrassment related to this, and it’s something that I struggle with. I think right now, I accept that I struggle with it and deal with the painful feelings that arise when I feel ignored.

Sleep. Good night!

#long time no share

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Favorite is 32:00

#charles yu #introspection

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#san francisco #asian art museum #ranuculus #takashi murakami #salesforce park

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#lemaire #croissant bag

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#jacob ham #vulnerability #authenticity #trauma #confidence #power #Spotify

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#writing #coding #storytelling #nicole zhu #read