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[ampiiiiihellish]

Been receiving questions & messages. But tumblr won't let me read them as every time I check my inbox, Tumblr says that there's nothing in it. ☠️😞

#just some random stuff #writing

[ampiiiiihellish]

Words,

You have been my companion for a bit long time

But things happened and unfortunately went south

Time came when my lips forgotten how to feel you

You tried to stay still and just remain as understanding as you were

But then, for the first time I tried to reach you

Uncertainty and indifference could be easily spelled on your mere surface

I guess, it's the price I gotta pay for the distance I silently drawn up for some bits of time

#Random #Poetry #Poet #Writing

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Tostado na yung brain cells ko. Ma'ammm wala na po bang ibang options? Sure na disss? 💔😭

[ampiiiiihellish]

My brain after my continuous 6 hrs. class with purely major Accounting subjects. Lunch break wasn't spared. 🔪☠️☕

#just some random stuff #emotionally drained #school #college #hell week

[ampiiiiihellish]

@ampiiiiihellish took up HUMSS during her SHS journey and now currently lifting her spirit up as she conquers the challenging life of being an Accountancy student. Reading books has been one of her therapeutic drugs whether she would want to beat a hasty retreat from solitude or to soar out of the sea of anarchic thoughts. Besides she's feeling bloom as words clothed with unbearable feelings burst out of her bubbles of imagination. Her heart rate dances with the night breeze of soothing abode of solace and anguish. Yet then, amidst that euphoric instance, grasping the appropriate frames of expressions to keep those emotions breathing has been aloof for most of the time.

But...

She will always find ways to lay hold of the liberty that her soul highly hopes to caress and enfold.

-@ampiiiiihellish

NOTE: Photos aren't originally mine. Credits to the rightful owner(s).

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[ampiiiiihellish]

Title: EPHEMERAL ADDICTION

Story Description:

I badly want you

As I also need you

You're nothing but my everything

The ultimate

The one and only subject

Of my ephemeral addiction

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"I may not be the smartest motherfucker. But I assure you that I've been walking in the path of righteousness as I uphold principles and integrity that most of them have been trying hard to take a grip or have just let it slip."

Words soothingly seethe down my tingling skin.

Taste of strawberry mint and cigar immediately assaulted my half opened mouth. Before I could equal the tension, his soft lips withdrew and left my soul hanging with bittersweet ecstasy.

Damn man!...

Bit by bit, I move my head up and look directly in his wet lips.

"I have been bewitched of pure misfortunes whilst breathing lifeless. I've walked down the lane with no soul. Have been dreading to at least touch some strings of freedom but end up in suffocation."

........

"So, why just now? Why come up right now when you're eventually taking your flit?"

Written by: @ampiiiiihellish

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[ampiiiiihellish]

Beneath the sands

Of arcane arcadia

Lies one’s cognizance

Of his sentient essence

Waiting to be blown by the wind

As the sands of time

Emerge with his spectrum of variation

 

Soul drove out of an ocean of seeds

As waves of reminiscences

And a heap of prudence

Speak volume

Of one’s scorching growth and creed

Come across the dots

Sounds tangled

Still step on the edge of the unknown

Fulfilling the labyrinth of the empty vastness

- @ampiiiiihellish

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EPHEMERAL ADDICTION

Every touch of thy hands

Burns not just my soul

But the strings that tie my sanity

Every kiss

Every word slipping from your tongue

Slowly killing and healing the devil in me

I don't wanna want you

I don't wanna need you

But I can't keep it that way

I badly want you

As I also need you

You're nothing but my everything

The ultimate

The one and only subject

Of my ephemeral addiction

✍️: @ampiiiiihellish

[ampiiiiihellish]

Hope I could just simply walk away

Hope everything would eventually fade as I choose to close my eyes

Hope I could just pretend easily that each page is smoothly turning around its pace

Hope every wind's whisper will finally be heard

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[ampiiiiihellish]

So drained. Just finished my departmental quizzes. 😭 Energy - sucking monsters are totally inhabiting in me. Oh God! 💔

#just some random stuff #exhausted #emotionally drained #mentally fucked

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HYPNOTIZED

Mellow melodies

of that same song

that she used to

listening to

Are echoing

in this circle

with confusing angles

I can't forget

how those

doe eyes of hers

have been reflecting

the same fire

that almost

burn my faith

Cracking parallel lines

have almost

choke the naiveness

and purity

of what has been

robbing my sanity

My mind

has been screaming

to just let this

unknown emotion

fly away

But

I just

simply can't

Because now

I finally believe

to the power

of those doe eyes

that kept me

hypnotized.

✍️: @ampiiiiihellish

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[ampiiiiihellish]

Death

have finally

come along her way

Whilst

the growing chaos

have serenaded

those tears

and cries of pain away

Only left

with nightmares

along the cracks

and blank spaces

Beneath

those cloudy montage

That is

perfectly made

with scarlet red paint

Dripped

from her soul

And licked

upon by

her sinful lips

as she

finally approach

the new beams

of tomorrow

✍️: @ampiiiiihellish

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[ampiiiiihellish]

Breathe...

"Breathe"

- @ampiiiiihellish

"Breathe." She said. Her voice feels like feather. Softly tickling my sanity. Waking me up from dozing off with the tempting trance.

I felt like flinching when her milky white palms slowly reached for my cold cheeks. But I couldn't move.

"Don't stop yourself from living. Breathe away from your past. I ain't telling you to forget about it. You don't have to. Coz what you really need is to accept it. Embrace it."

As she speaks her eyes are twinkling. Her softness delightfully reflect at those chinky ashgray eyes of hers.

"Acceptance means freeing yourself from being chained with what's keep on choking you to breathe. Don't let your past halted you from enjoying what you have and for whatever that have been waiting for you in the edge. Just breathe baby."

Breathe. This is the last word that I could clearly remember.

White. White is all I can see. Am I dead already? Am I in heaven?

Oh no!!!! The hell am I doing here?

Shoot!!! I'm in heaven!!!!

I felt like I'm crazy as two different sides inside of me are having a cat fight.

Oh geez you fucker. You fucked up your life. Yet you're expecting to end up in heaven?

Stingy pain assaulted my inner peace. I felt like my head is terribly hammered.

I shut my eyes intensely. Then pain slowly left me for a bit while.

Indistinct voices could be heard nearing to where I am.

Undistinguished apparatus and equipment are surrounding me.

White. IV. Some weird apparatus glued in me.

That's when I figured out where I am.

I guess....

I'm still breathing.

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[ampiiiiihellish]

I ain't that numb

not to feel

the rift

that have grown between us.

BUT

I guess

I am that dumb enough

to just let your vains

and ill feeling towards me

to grow deeper.

- @ampiiiiihellish

#Chaotic mind #Scribbles #Vent #spilled poetry #spilled ink

[ampiiiiihellish]

Is it?

It is. Isn't it?...

"Is it...?"

- @ampiiiiihellish

Is it madness?

If my eyes show the color of the ending

While my heart is breaking over unknown nothing

Is it madness?

If my mouth blurted out the lines

That my mind does not intend to chime

Because it might be a crime

That could kill one’s sanity in some perfect imperfect time

But could eventually mend my scars and be fine

Is it madness?

To feel some hallow

Beneath those words of shallow

Is it madness?

To feel indifferent

Towards that silhouette peeking upon the dusk

Reflecting the scent

That I keep on wearing as a mask

Is it madness?

It is.

Isn’t it?

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[ampiiiiihellish]

Personal Growth...

"Change for the Better"

In the end, growing is a part of life. But the decision is all up to the person if he’d choose to stay as a seed scattered in the ground 'til it dried up and get rotten without even seeing its essence, without even trying to live up. Or he’d be choosing to survive. Struggle to get a life. Giving himself the radiance of self-love. Curing his thirst with fluid of self-respect. Letting himself to breathe away from the pests of negativities that has been trying to conquer his state of being sane. And letting his nasty flowers of self-pity and dried leaves of characteristics to fall and be replaced by brand new, changed, and nurtured leaves of hope, self-love, and acceptance.

Before, I would say, “You don’t have to change just to be liked or loved by other people. Because there will be someone who will probably love you for who you are.”

But NO. If toxicity illuminate and radiant from yourself, then kindly spare the people to stay with you and force them to accept you because it’s JUST and already been you since then. Because truth is, people have higher tendency to give up on you than embrace you.

So, “Change is coming. Change for thyself and not for others. Embrace yourself with positivity and grow in your exact and right ground.”

(Excerpt from "Grow")

✍️: @ampiiiiihellish