#I've bought a cookie cake for myself each year ever since like high school

[leejeann]

Local craft place is doing a pottery wheel session (like you can go and they’ll teach you how to make something) that is in my budget, outside of my work hours, and 2 days before my birthday, so I’ve officially figured out what this year’s “birthday present to myself” is gonna be lol

Their art classes always look so fun but usually are either a few weeks long and therefore out of my budget, or it’s a one-off class I might be able to afford but it falls during my work hours. It’ll be so fun to finally attend one!

#there were a solid several years when my birthday made me really depressed #just had some various unrelated bad associations with it #so the past few years I kind of unofficially decided to do a nice thing for it each year #since i don't really organize a party or expect gifts from anyone #(though my mom almost always gets me something even if it's just money) #(and my best friend has gotten me gifts the past couple years which is really nice) #Kinda try to rewire the negative associations #And it's working so far! Really well actually! #I've bought a cookie cake for myself each year ever since like high school #but the past two years I got myself minecraft in 2021 and then a guitar last year #And it's helped the negative stuff a LOT #because those are like lasting things #playing Minecraft has become one of my favorite comforts #and learning guitar has been really fun #and both are ongoing parts of my life I will always associate with my birthday now #Sorry I'm rambling again lol #anyway I'm hacking my brain and it's fun #lee speaks