#and I (<- perhaps not-smart) was like 🙄 ok sure lets go with this but only cause I know that's complete bullshit

[faust1926]

sometimes for the first few hours of the day I’ll be like, “why do I even call myself ‘insane’, I’m such a try hard. I’m literally normal. why don’t I let myself be normal instead of acting so embarrassing?” and then the moment I hit hour 4 burn out at like 9am I’m vibrating 2′ above this reality.

#Really really itching to make protective sigils rn #(<- not against any of the spirits I talk to hfhfdg I prommy even when I'm mad at them it's not like that) #and honestly I should just let myself that's a harmless outlet I think #but dear. Lord. I really hate that like Only a week ago or so one of my angels was like #frustrated with me for being kinda doubtful/hostile towards them #so she's like. ''ok fine fair how about this: u don't like how vague we are about shit around u so here's some Specific details about - #- something that's supposed to happen within the next two weeks. and if that happens that's proof u can trust us :-)'' #and I (<- perhaps not-smart) was like 🙄 ok sure lets go with this but only cause I know that's complete bullshit #especially in such a short time frame... like it was Not even vague either. and I make a lil note to myself thinking #''oh yeah well cause there's only .01% chance of this being accurate this is just gonna 'disprove' all this if anything lmao'' #thinking what I /actually/ needed to prepare myself for was whatever re-write my brain would pull trying to make sense of it not being true #and yet. Less than a week later and I 😐 am noticing #can't say this is making me ''trust'' them anymore but it's sure as hell making me uncomfortable!