#and after randomly venting into these tags out of nowhere I've come to the conclusion that this probably isn't normal

[the-cinnamon-snail]

I look too much like both of my parents and act too much like them as well.

#vent #like. i fucking hate it. #at least people mostly just say I look a lot like my siblings because they are so much older than me #but jeez. every time i bite the skin on my finger tips and my nails #i get reminded that dad does that all of the time and I picked up the habit from him #i fucking hate it. i hate it do much. #i mean #i look in the mirror and i know it's me #but thats not who I want to be. thats not what i want to look like. #I don't know what i want to look like but it's not like my parents and not like a girl and that gets rid of barely anything #i just. don't feel comfortable like this. but what the fuck am I supposed to do about it? #i mean. there's nothing objectivly wrong with how I look. 5'3 and about 145 pounds. green eyes blonde hair. it's fine. #but it's too much like them. and it just doesn't feel like me. I don't want that to be me. #every time i wonder if I'm not trans/agender at all. i get reminded that adding calling myself a boy into pep talks makes me so happy. #along with that. when my hair gets dark in the winter and my hair gets tied back. i look in the mirror and it's a bit better. #but not fully better. i still have my chest and every other bad thing about myself. #and after randomly venting into these tags out of nowhere I've come to the conclusion that this probably isn't normal #snd something else is likely wrong with me. but eh. just add it to the pile I guess.