#and wishing u luck on ur osdd journey!!! i don't know a lot abt dissociative disorders but i do know that good ppl won't turn away

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Everything is too scary, i have been going through the stress of a very important school year, constantly studying, remembering trauma i had forgotten, cutting off an abusive person off my life and trying to figure out if i have osdd1B (i have been researching for at least 5 months and logging my symptoms, i cant be so sure yet) and for some reason i keep finding myself telling people (online, the only person irl i have told is my therapist) abt my symptoms, in some cases telling them i might have osdd 1B and while one part of me wants to tell deeply and to be free from this burden of hiding it, another part of me is so so scared. Of turning out to be wrong, of people hating me in result, of people fake claiming me for something i am not even sure yet. So i have kept ot hidden after an incident like this 5 months ago. But now after i have told my therapist about my issues with my identity it all started unraveling

I am trying my best to keep going, i study for hours a day every day, try to regulate my mental health and try to know who i am and i just need to hear that someone is proud of me regardless. Regardless if i succeed, regardless if i fail, regardless if i have osdd1b, regardless if i don't i just. Need to hear that everyone wont hate me because i am questioning if I have that

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#you're working very very hard and i'm proud of you anon!! this sounds like a lot to juggle but you're doing wonderful!!! #i hope the stress of the school year passes w/ grace and things begin to settle gently into place :] #and wishing u luck on ur osdd journey!!! i don't know a lot abt dissociative disorders but i do know that good ppl won't turn away #only bad company turns away!!! good friends love you unflinchingly <33 #you're doing wonderful :] may ur stress pass like a spring breeze