#anyway I'm going out for dinner now BYEEEEEEEEEEE!

[bistaxx]

thinks about q!hgduo's final conversation before purgatory and how even though it ultimately changed nothing in the end it still said so much about how stubborn they both can be,,, and how little they value themselves alone despite how many people love and care for them... or maybe it's how willing they are to throw themselves into the flames for those exact people even if it's not what they'd want from them.

They both left that conversation shaken by what the other said yet with their resolve to stick to a of path of self-destruction strengthened... And those paths ended with Cellbit lost in purgatory for months under control of the watcher and Bad dying before reviving with no memories of his time on the island... and with the people they love most- their family- Cellbit's husband and Bad's children- suffering the worst- can anyone hear me-

#qsmp #badboyhalo #cellbit #hgduo #gossipduo #qmockingjays #it's still one of my favorite roleplay moments #I just think a lot about Bad's side in particular how he kept on trying to appeal to Cellbit #by reminding him that he has people who love and care for him who'd be devastated if they lost him and Cellbit #tuning him out and refusing to back down... Bad briefly realizing that the pain he felt watching Cellbit in that state #was the exact pain he was going to inflict on those who love him... but still sticking to his plan anyway o(-( #I'm not in the right place rn to fully word out my feelings but like... it's loving people to the point that you'd do anything for them #but really they just want you around :( they don't need you to destroy yourself for them... they just need you around. #anyway I'm going out for dinner now BYEEEEEEEEEEE!