#but on the other hand? BECAUSE they're still treating him like holo!Rimmer in a lot of ways and BECAUSE they're welcoming him into the grou

[lizardthelizard]

Thinking about nano!Rimmer again, and, like...

Do you think that Lister ever causally mentioned something to Rimmer when they were in the cell together -just a small 'hey. remember when..?', something along those lines- and that question was followed by an indignant 'what the hell are you talking about?' from Rimmer, before both of them awkwardly simultaneously come to the realisation that Lister was referencing something wholly specific to holo!Rimmer?

Do you think that they just sit there in silence for a beat as Lister starts thinking about holo!Rimmer and about Ace and about whether or not he'll ever cross paths with him again or not? About whether or not holo!Rimmer is even 'alive' still or whether he's already passed the mantle onto the next Ace Rimmer?

Do you think that nano!Rimmer feels this loneliness all of a sudden? This inadequacy, this feeling of coming second to himself? Do you think that a part of him almost feels jealous in the exact same way that holo!Rimmer did when he saw how well Ace and Lister were getting on?

#red dwarf #arnold rimmer #I know that...like....we ALL prefer holo!Rimmer to nano!Rimmer because of COURSE #but idk nano!Rimmer has been on my mind lately #he brings a different type of angst to the table you know? #and it's so bittersweet!! because on the one hand you've got him feeling separate from the group #(because they know him better than he knows them) #but on the other hand? BECAUSE they're still treating him like holo!Rimmer in a lot of ways and BECAUSE they're welcoming him into the grou #he suddenly ends up being more loved than he ever has been in his life #sorry started writing this at 2am last night so blame that for any incoherence