#but overall idk how i feel about hitting myself bacause it doesn't take the itch away completely like cutting or scratching

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One of the most gut punching things that has happened in 2023 so far is my childhood best friend of maybe 15+years who knows very well that I self-harm coming to me for advice how to deal with it for some random girl, despite never asking how to help me

#the way my body suddenly became cold when I read the text and realized they really don't give a fuck about me #and I feel bad for feeling anything negative towards the girl #especially since she's a minor #but my 'friend' still refuses to tell the girls parents because 'she can't break her trust🥺' #tf the girl is a child! and she needs a professional care! tell her parents so they can provide it #that shit won't go away on its own #anyway i relapsed 3 times in the last 3 days ✌😘 #at least im not breaking skin this time instead i hit myself until i bruise which is quite the feat since i don't bruise easily #the named the big bruise on my arm 'bruce the bruise' #i think it's hilarious #but overall idk how i feel about hitting myself bacause it doesn't take the itch away completely like cutting or scratching #but it's way easier to hide it and if discovered to lie about it which is big plus and it goes away after few days #which is both a blessing and a curse #tw self harm #vent