#but yknow it's very possible we'd never have a relationship again anyway

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Take a shot for every time I use an unnecessary comma. I don't recommend this, as you are sure to die of alcohol poisoning before you finish the first paragraph.

#me? writing a tumblr post to avoid the work i need to be doing? it's more likely than you think #if you've read any of my posts then you know im working on a very important project and have been for the past 1.5 years #(unrelated but im at a coffee shop and really need to use the bathroom but someone has been in there for like an hour) #so far i'm the only person (except my two siblings who helped me with some formatting and made sure all of my links work) that has seen it #but now... the time has come for me to share it with all of the relevant people #that's like... eleven people? #they're all very important people and uh #one of them is a person i can no longer speak to and honestly shouldn't contact in any way. but here i am playing with fire #maybe fucking up this nonexistent relationship by breaking our promise not to contact each other #messing up any possibility of us having a relationship again #but yknow it's very possible we'd never have a relationship again anyway #and she deserves to see this project so uh. guess ill do it and maybe regret it for the rest of my life #and now im going to offer up this piece of my soul to people who may judge or hate it #or who may judge or hate me #this project has been the reaon i stay alive for the last 1.5 years. the reason i get out of bed. the reason i leave the house #what happens when it's done? when i have no more of it to work on? #im finally sharing it because it's reached the end of what i can do for awhile #im effectively done #now what do i do with my life? #im sending it out today or tomorrow and then... i dont know #if any of yall have watched psych. yknow the yin yang trilogy? yknow when yang is caught #and Mary says hes spent the last 15 years pursuing yang? and now he doesnt know what he's going to do? #thats me right now