#currently though i am sad that i can't even find stories and fantasies anywhere in the world that feel like what i like

[spiderlegeyelashes]

WHY AM I IN SUCH A LOVESICK MOOD LATELY GOD WHY DO I CRAVE ROMANCE (not for me necessarily.... i'm still not sure what my stance on that is..... but i do love watching it) WHY DO I YEARN...? and if only i was normal about it too, things would be so much easier, but whatever i find beautiful and meaningful and important in love is generally not part of what most people have in mind when they thjnk of romance, so i can't even fucking FIND a story that i actually like currently.... gods help me whay do i do.... I KEEP FUCKING SINGING! I KEEP SINGING! IN A SMALL VOICE I KEEP SINGING!!!! SHORT SONGS ABOUT LOVE! WHY? WHY AM I SO LOVESICK?

#maybe i am lonely #and maybe part of the ache of it is that whatever i feel is so different from what other people expect and feel and understand #i feel somewhat alone in the way i love #in the end i may not be aromantic yet #i may just be well a bit too different #someday i'm sure i will find people i am happy with #currently though i am sad that i can't even find stories and fantasies anywhere in the world that feel like what i like #i feel like a freak #i think i want to be loved and i know i do love #i'm just different ahoht it #what i want what i expect #it's not normallllll #and i wish there were more people like me that spoke out about how they feel and made more art about it #kill me i am YEARNING #trajkotanie