#emergency c-section because i really like reading about home birth and in theory i'm interested in it(even though i don't want to have kids)

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#i can't stop thinking about my mpreg breastfeeding story idea #i'm working on one of my homeworks and i'm trying to decide whether to go with home birth as the background or premature birth and #emergency c-section because i really like reading about home birth and in theory i'm interested in it(even though i don't want to have kids) #but i also like the hurt-comfort side of the premature c-section one with the skin-to-skin cangoroo moments and the worrying and hoping and #everything #i'm leaning to the c-section one a bit more and maybe leave the home birth to another story but it's hard to decide #and there's one more thing. it'll sound stupid. yeah. so. #i kinda want to make carlos the one who's breastfeeding the baby but... i also want to make charles the one who gave birth to her #(but then couldn't breastfeed because of complications and i don't know) #but then sometimes i really want to make carlos the one who gave birth and have the scar and everything because i like the idea of charles #taking care of him #but i also like the idea of having charles as the one who was carrying the baby #why is it so difficult to decide?! #also please don't try to find any logic in this carlos breastfeeding but charles carrying the baby-thing because there isn't any #since i've started writing in english i just want to enjoy it and try not to worry too much about making the stories #as realistic as possible #my useless posts