#granted ig if you tell them you were actively trying to harm or threaten someone i think they're legally obligated to hold you in a ward

[trashycosmos]

can we talk about the funniest thing of the whole experience was someome who sb me for almost 10 months straight saying they were upset i wasn't nice/distant/cold and didn't apologize for it and when i called out their behavior there was no apology from them they just didn't want to talk anymore lol

#literally laughed out loud reading the message #like one of us wanted was trying to be a murderer without getting blood on their hands (literally) and i'm the asshole bc i had the normal #HUMAN response to their bullshit #honestly they ought to consider themselves lucky i'm much more stable than they are or will ever be #the hilarious cherry on top of the whole fuck sundae is i wasn't even in therapy for at least the last 3 months of it all and they were #which is incredible #also a stark reminder that if (some) people can't be honest with their therapist then why are even you going roflmao #granted ig if you tell them you were actively trying to harm or threaten someone i think they're legally obligated to hold you in a ward #the level of narcissism was u n r e a l #it's not like i pretended to have been a perfect example of how to handle things but! there's! no! rulebook! on handling a sb piece of shit! #the truth shut them down & up so quick it was almost cathartic #kudos to them ig for cutting back on it after but goddess help the next person they try it on and give them the same patience/fortitude #moral of the story (for me) don't lie to your therapist (or another person's) or hide things from them #1) you aren't going to get any better 2) they have spent years learning to read people and they can see you for who you are and 3) you won't #even get the proper medication(s) (if you need it which goddess they need a significant number) for your illness(es) #honestly might explain quite of a bit of their spiral tbh and listen to your therapist when they tell you smoking weed exacerbates paranoia #i'm not saying don't smoke i'm saying smoke intelligently and safely. there's no shame in taking a break to better your mental health first #i've certainly done it #they could always start with why they were yelling about someone oddly specific on different occasions bc you know #it didn't present as suspicious in the least or why they couldn't pay others certain compliments like you're not subtle and again #not to be a broken record but that's what your therapist should be there for! #Falling Apart And Coming Together #i should come up with a label for it for me and when they potentially wanna snoop on my blog again rofl #but to anyone who('s) goes/going through similar i'm so sorry and i hope you refuse to give them the power to influence or control you #it usually comes from a place of them feeling like they have no control over themselves and it shows #i will say the closest i ever got to snapping (meaning yelling) was when they whispered to Nettle they hoped she'd die and manhandled her #several times #accidentally killing a stranger's cat might have awakened something in them but i sure as fuck wouldn't them try intentionally harming mine #or the one's they own #i think they even collected payment still after the incident which is actually sickening