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regretfulzephyr · 1 year

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I really, truly hope you read this.

The gravity of some things you only realise after you've fucked up in life, and believe me the realisation and regret I constantly experience every day since that day (you know full well which day I'm referring to) is insurmountable. You know who you are, because you are probably the only person who can read this (without tags) since you're the only person who follows me lol. If you're reading this (if not now, then probably some time in the future for certain, as I know you unconditionally continue to support and like whatever I post, despite what may have occured between us), then I just wanna apologize to you. I considered you one of my best friends ever (i don't keep random people in my life for no reason and believe me my friend, you are no random person) in fact you are the farthest from any random person. Now I don't know where I rank in your life, as I know you have a ton of other friends you'd rather invest your time in, than a sad loser like me. I feel so ashamed to admit that this used to be one of my gripes with you, that i probably don't even matter to you, among the sea of friends and attention you have, but I'd like to believe that I was wrong, I'd like to hope that I was wrong, that it was probably my overthinking brain that was doing all the talking. I'd like to believe that me thinking, that I was nothing to you, was nothing more than a stupid misconstrued notion on my end. I really want to believe that, since the notion that the person you invested in so much emotionally, didn't even care about you at all, is scary and disheartening as fuck, albeit technically the truth, if that is the case however. I'm ashamed of my bitterness and jealousy of you being with someone else at this point, so much to the point that it blinded me. Ever since you left, its like a void has developed, which I no matter how desperately I try to fill away with other people, remains empty. I was dumb to believe that ghosting you, with or without an explanation, or quitting social media for a week or two then coming back like nothing happened ever seemed like a half decent idea. If anything it only really worsened things for me, and it made us fall apart even more. I know at this point in time, you have probably moved on me, and you are probably content with your life and friends, just everything the way it is. It is only naive of me to expect that you haven't, just goes to show how quickly life passes away. I have not yet fully been able to overcome all these things, I'm- its just the kind of person I am. I either don't give a shit, or invest in people I think are worth to a massive degree, and when my heart aches this much, I realise that I've reached the point of no return. You see I am not so different from the name I chose for this blog after all haha. The way I broke things off with you was not me, I'm not like this, yet I chose to make what i now reaffirm was a huge mistake. I'm writing this on the first day of the new year, with a pining of not wanting to drag on to past stuff, i would really like to apologise to you again, for what happened between us. hit me up whenever or if you'd like, because I clearly don't have the guts to approach you directly. (I think I'm being farfetched here but if you wanna meet irl sometime and talk about feelings like a bunch of losers i will be so down lmfaoo)

Writing this hoping that you'll read this someday, and thinking about friends who don't talk much, but I too truly, genuinely hope they're doing well in life.

Here's to a great 2023 🥂

Cheers

regretfulzephyr

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fantasydaydreamers · 2 years

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✨ A New Years Message To My DayDreamers ✨

Hello my lovely Dreamers welcome to the new year!!!🥺💕🥂 I hope everyone had a wonderful 2021 and I hope an even better year finds you in 2022💕

In this post I want to address a few things, give a little 411, and address the probably the most asked:

"What happened to Behind Brothel Doors?!"

Please read if you can~😊

• First and foremost, not to get all TMI or anything but 2021 was not a great year for me😭 I had a health issue come up in May that lasted until pretty much November with no help from doctors. So, months of suffering/confusion on what could be going on...sucked to say the least🥲it took a heavy toll on my mental health. Thankfully, I found a doctor who suggested an answer and so far, I would say it's helping!

→ It might be too soon to tell because it's only my second month since I've seen the doctor, but I would say I noticed a difference and I hope it stays that way!

• Secondly, I owe every single one of your guys an apology. My activity on this blog decreased drastically as well as my interaction from you guys. I'm going to be honest and say because of everything I went through in 2021, my priorities for writing were pretty much non-existent. I was not motivated and was depressed because I had no idea what was going on with my body. Even so, I take responsibility for this. I miss interacting with you guys😭 it's hurts to see how I haven't had that in a while.

Bouncing off of this, and because I think I've found a solution to my problem, I want to make an effort to write more this year and get the requests (that some of you sent in at the beginning of 2021!!) finished. When I made the posts saying "I have so many ideas/drafts I don't know where to begin-" are completely true. I still have plenty of unfinished drafts and projects I need to finish including:

• The Real Thing - Kirishima x Reader Side Story

• Streamer Shinsou - this idea I believe we agreed to change to Streamer (Y/n) with pro-hero watchers

Now...for the big question...

"What happened to Behind Brothel Doors?"

I can't even begin to tell you guys how many asks I have in my inbox asking this question that I avoided the whole year just because I genuinely didn't have an answer, but here's what I do know:

I DO plan on continuing this series.

I DO plan on moving it to Ao3

I DO plan on going back and revising the chapters I had already made

I DO plan on updating it every week WHEN it gets moved to Ao3

However, I DO NOT have a definitive plot for it yet.

Seeing the positive feedback and genuine love for BBD made me so unbelievably happy and I felt like it would be even bigger and better than my The Real Thing series. I WANTED to make it bigger and better.

I hand-made the Dabi and Bakugou images from the Brothel Book and had asked you guys if you wanted me to continue (I think the answer was yes). Overall, I want to focus on this series this year and bring it back to life.

• Last but not least, with everything else being said, I'm also trying to figure out a career to pursue. I finished all of my basic classes in college and now I have no idea what to do next. I also had left my job in May/June of 2021 because of management issues (I hate retail and I never wanna work in that field ever again😭). So basically, while managing everything that's been going on, I'm also trying to work on what I want to do with my life.

All I know is that my new years resolution for this blog includes BBD, being more consistent + active. For my IRL resolutions...well...I hope I figure out what I want to do 😅

✨ If you made it this far, thank you so much for taking the time to read this I want every single one of you to know that I love you very much and every day I think about my blog and the stuff I WANT to write. Every. Day. At some point it did seem more like a 'need' than a 'want' but that just made me not want to write even more.

I hope everyone has a WONDERFUL 2022 and I hope to have something out for you guys soon and I can start working on BBD ✨

#thank you for reading #fantasy update

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staysuki · 3 years

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Miss Love is back🥂

I have no idea what is happening at this point under this blog lol. I’ve completely lost myself ☹️. I tried to get back on track by reading everything I’ve missed but I’m lowkey hungover and it’s probably one of the hardest things I’ve tried to do half sober 😞.

Vice President Somi… got nothing against her but I just don’t vibe with her. At all. Irl thoughts aside, we’ll see what kind of person she is in the story, without prestigious 🤐.

Here’s the thing.

Yeji was completely transparent. It was impossible to pin her because nobody had the balls to take action. She knew she couldn’t get caught if no one tried to get in her way so she made a point to let herself be known. But as it goes to show, a tempered girl will always be equal to a lack of awareness. She looked like she was all there but in reality she wasn’t. She never planned anything out, it was all planned out for her. She only did what was necessary, stear clear of cameras and distance the truth from her family. No one really ever questioned her motives, majority of who felt the wrath of Yeji allowed her to out of fear of her wealthy and ability to deceive. Something mental was going on with her. An illness of the mind. She wasn’t all there and if anything Yeji needed the most love and care out of all of the characters. The most drastic usually do.

Somi already is showing higher signs of intelligence. Her real personality is unknown right now, like how a black and white movie makes you guess the colours of the set. Is she strong blue or harsh red? She’s apart of the student council which promotes peace and fairness however, she’s already showing how bossy and snarky she can be. She not a bully like yeji, or at least not so far, but maybe a whole different set of stones all together. Somi might need to understand that being someone in charge doesn’t give you control over others but rather gives you assumed responsibility to be a good influence and redress correction. Our best example is our considerate Christopher Bang. Chan’s dealt with her before, would it be safe to say he could deal with her again, consequence or not? She’s going to be a problem for Chan, Ryujin, Yuna and Seungmin if she keeps domineering. Chan is patient but as read in how he copes with Lia, some people who undermine his head authority tip the scale on his tolerance 🤷🏼‍♀️.

Yessss, my guess came true. I knew Jeongin would surpass Seungmin, perfect addition to both arcs. Now that jeongin has outpaced seungmin he’s gonna have an ego with a glittery cape that says ‘looks what’s hot now’. He’s already been hot property with the girls and an intelligence to go suit. Not to mention how Jeongin seems to be trying his luck to get close to Y/n. How will seungmin react now that he’s been stripped of the things he values most? We know Seungmin was pretty popular due to his academics, known for his place in the student council and has been the closest to y/n until jeongin stepped in. He’s been stepped down in all three categories.

I can’t wait for Y/n to reach out to Yeji. I love that she’s in the A.S.S club now. I saw it coming which made it so much better to anticipate 💕

Omg 🌖 anon is so smart! I feel a partnership forming lmao. Nice pick up on the wealth of Somi, you might be onto something about that point Ryujin made about maid and butlers. Heres my thoughts tho. I was thinking it might have been symbolic of Somi being demanding of those around her and the fact that she makes others do the thing shes careless of. If you put this together with the idea of it being a parallel of Lia controlling Y/n, It could makes sense for her character growth. She might be someone who makes others do her dirty work.

Also the unknown anon who gave a full debunked insite on Somi, you deserves a fat kiss because that was just pure mind power. Wish I got to it first 😘💋

‘Let’s give us another go’. Am I the only one that thought it was because they had a mini argument in the cafe 💀

Ps I’m still reading the Halloween special. I’ll keep fighting 😭✊🏼

~ Lovegame anon

welcome back!!! we missed you so much, i was honestly counting back the time 😔🥂 cheers love.

don’t worry about catching up, we’ll always be here and you can take things slow until you’re feeling much better (though trying to do things while half drunk is always fun, i would know, i wrote SLC’s chapter 6 while tipsy!)

“she looked like she was all there but she never planned anything out.” exactly as you say it lg anon, this was very much showcased in the halloween ball when she confronted yuna and ryujin (and y/n). all she had was the balls, all bite but no bark. she relies on intimidation tactics and hope that it would work all the way, hence why she was so easily riled up by y/n, she was one of the few that wasn’t scared of her and her status. that led to her having to “attack” y/n because she got backed up in a corner, the tables turned against her, and she had zero plan on how to go about such a situation. she was not afraid to be such a person because she felt high and mighty and untouchable (given the fact that she’s been such a person since high school).

the thing about somi as well is that she’s a more complex character— she’s bossy and snarky but she believes it’s all for the better. she’s driven by duty and civic responsibility, she thinks that what she’s doing is truly what is the best for the student body. this was apparent already in the first few chapters available when she addressed the yeji bullying situation: how seungmin was so careless to reveal the identity of the victims when it could’ve very much put them in danger, they were trusted by the people and somi felt angry that the council would break that trust easily to help a friend out, like she said, the council had been too lenient under chan’s ruling— she’s the kind of leader that shows that too much empathy can sometimes be a disadvantage (this is shown at how chan had been student council president for two years now and has never once been able to take down yeji and help people like lia). she also wasn’t afraid to confront people who are barely of help in the council (like ryujin— who has already admitted in season one that she lets seungmin do her paperwork) and employ help from other students who can do better (eunha). she knows what’s best, the only problem is that she’s not a team player, evident with the fact that she uses her position to be a dictator and ignore logical solutions like what Changbin suggests (a proper process of election).

YESSS the jeongin v. seungmin conflict. this might honestly be one of my favorite planned arcs, so many things that’s going to center around these two and i CANNOT WAIT. though i would say that jeongin isn’t really trying to get close to y/n but more like they’ve already been close per se. they were both transferees hence they’ve gravitated towards each other since episode one, they both felt like outsiders that were simply welcomed in by the jisung-felix duo. their closeness is evident with how jeongin tutored her in the past and wasn’t reluctant on being angry at her (season one, episode one)

and it also shows with the way jeongin easily teases her whenever he feels like it. it’s also been shown that they’ve had the same views about things (like how they both think yeji is a ridiculous caricature) and are just in the level of “comfortable friendship”— perhaps this is because of jeongin’s chill energy and the fact that he’s not trying to romance her, hence why y/n gravitates towards his company compared to someone like hyunjinnie or minho where y/n feels pressured because of their advances. anyways, their relationship is v v cute but poor seungminnie, i wonder how he’ll react to this :((( it seems like everything in life hit him like a bitch.

yes!! ass club yeji, this side arc is a more obvious one honestly but i’m excited for one of my very first villainess redemption arcs!! i’ll do my best 😤

the other anons also pulling in clutch at the somi analysis, i’m in love 🙏💓

though it’s been behind the scenes in season one, i’m excited to finally reveal more background details here in season two (like jeongin and y/n’s), i’ve alluded to it in the past but now it’ll come into full view. i think i kinda like this method of narrative, secret behind the scenes stuff that others don’t know because they don’t talk about it in chat but now it’s gonna come full circle 🙏

take your time lg anon, i missed u sm 🤧💔

#ehaloj thoughts #anon: lovegame #welcome back!!#we missed you uwu

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