#i could see them struggling with infertility but i don't love that headcanon either since as compared to lovett

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the headcanon that lucy and benjamin had a miscarriage prior to having johanna is very interesting to me, but i've never liked it and today i finally realized that i'm not a fan is because if he's known child loss before, then benjamin would've went after getting johanna first instead of getting his revenge.

#it's also my own personal headcanon that lovett and albert started trying for a baby after lovett got jealous of the barkers #and it ended in loss #i just think that if he lost one kid then he would be too determined not to loose his daughter #and i don't want there to be that parallel between lovett and todd #since that was deprived from envy as things commonly are for her #i don't know how to put it into words right now #i could see them struggling with infertility but i don't love that headcanon either since as compared to lovett #lucy is the perfect victorian woman of their status #and unfortunately that would make her less of a perfect woman #but then again lovett wouldn't know that so?? #the tags are just me rambling #and lovett and lucy were best friends first okay #it's interesting to think about how lovett's jealousy tore apart their friendship and adds depth to their interactions in the show #*❈ ‣ i’m a silly little ninnynoodle — ( ooc. ) #tbd. #miscarriage tw #child loss tw #infertility tw