#i know im scared and cowardly at heart and my studies gave me so much security. 'i can't do that i have class'. 'i can't do that i must

[catboyrightsdefender]

i think i might be having some sort of breakdown because of the fact that being done with my degree and studies changes everything

#like ...i can do anything now and i Have to do it. this is both terrifying and exciting #mostly terrifying rn but. yknow #and i realize how much i was hiding behind my studies and stopped myself from doing things that would put me out of my comfort zone #i know im scared and cowardly at heart and my studies gave me so much security. 'i can't do that i have class'. 'i can't do that i must #focus on my thesis'. and know i have no excuse no things to hide behind #the number of things i lost because i hid myself makes me so sad. i hate how scared of everything and cowardly i am. now i'm gonna be #forced to change which is a good thing i think #.txt