#i'm in pieces because of this i'm going to have to visit the fales archive to read the whole thing

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from kathleen hanna's 1993 zine my life with evan dando, pop star. (via)

I fell in love with Evan because it seemed like the worst thing i could do at the time. I fell in love with Evan because it was totally uncool and pathetic which is how i felt inside. I fell in love with Evan because the band i am in started getting all this weird attention and i felt like he was the only one who would understand. I fell in love with Evan because sometimes i wish i was a boy and that the worst thing that ever happened to me was having too many girls like me. I fell in love with Evan because i wanted him to die and thought if i could get him to love me i would show him what a broken heart really was. I fell in love with Evan because he is a total slut and everyone thinks its very cute, unlike when i was in jr hi and high school and the word "slut" followed me everywhere at arms length. I fell in love with Evan because i don't do drugs and so i need other destructive pasttimes. I fell in love with Evan because i can't deal with real boys barely at all and yet am wildly attracted attracted their flat chests and strait hips (sometimes) Evan is my perfect boyfriend because i am allowed to invent him all by myself.

#i'm in pieces because of this i'm going to have to visit the fales archive to read the whole thing #god!!! kathleen!!! one of the most brilliant women to ever live #kathleen hanna #evan dando #the lemonheads #writing tag #u90sbn