#i'm really gna have to sleep soon though oh my god how do i survive weekdays when i never get enough sleep unless i'm sick 😭😭

[noxtivagus]

>< it is 4 am i will sleep soon but

#🌙.rambles #it's not easy to just stop being confused and lost & stop worrying but #i feel a lot better tonight after remembering a lot of things n crying did help >< i think it's fine for me to do more tomorrow instead #regrets are hard to deal with but i know i'm stronger than them. so i'll prove it and rise above all that #oh yeah there's some stuff in particular that's weighing me down that r too personal for me to share with anyone but #i think i can handle that better now. in time. #we're all still so young n there's so much we have yet to learn and experience. we're still developing.... n that's part of being human. #GOD WAIT THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEANT TO WRITE WHEN I MADE THIS POST BUT YEAH POINT STANDS #i've just been listening to music for the past few hours i think while writing n doing other stuff #wait my mind is wandering;;;; i barely ate anything today.... just breakfast then some pastries then. half eaten lunch? #i'll take better care of myself tomorrow. this weekend. and next week especially when sembreak ! yes #i'm really gna have to sleep soon though oh my god how do i survive weekdays when i never get enough sleep unless i'm sick 😭😭 #anyways. wait. music ! KINGDOM HEARTS.... FINAL FANTASY XV #started both in 2019 n finished in 2020 summer when i picked them up again.... wait.... my mind is wandering #i find it really interesting how the way we help others really says a lot about us ourselves as people #i've analyzed that a lot before n i am again now at 4 am oh no . i realize though that. for my own self #i'm actually rather affectionate at heart huh;;;; it makes me a bit shy thinking about that . i blame the stories and the final fantasy #compliments from the heart. how much i value you for who you are. and what you mean to me. i love to be direct about that #advice as the sort of person i know you are. because i love you. i'm romantic ! but not in a relationship way or wtvr here ok . #on that thought sometimes i realize i may often come across as aroace but goddamn i really just get shy n hide with that sort of topic #i will Deny till the day i die </3 #i cld ramble more about this but it is now 4:20 n BACK TO KINGDOM HEARTS #hmm i was barely a teen when i played kh3/ffxv. thinking abt it n especially the latter really influenced me for life #earlier while listening to her ost i was thinking about how since i only played kh3 i don't know too much about the series' lore #& xion. but i find it interesting how. her theme is my fav from the charas. i really loved her name (i used it for the protag in a short #story back in gr9 for school). i never really knew too much about her but god i feel like. idk just a connection that's. hmmm #older now thinking more of her character she really really appeals to me. from her design n personality n it seems like fate. we're similar #wait this is so fucking dumb i searched up noctis n i immediately smiled . damn . he. 🥹 still so special to me #i shld replay kh3 n ffxv soon. my childhood. anyways it is nearly 4:40 holy shit i have to wake up at 5:30 GOOD NIGHT