#it's not about only making a thousand bucks per concert cycle or whatever it's about the experience

[supercantaloupe]

i had my zoom meeting with maestro and the assistant conductor today to talk about the manager job and it all sounds okay to me (i'll feel more comfortable about the whole arrangement once i can come in and shadow the last two rehearsals this semester and get a feel for the job in person) but it's a little funny how frequently maestro kept assuring me that. well if it sounds like too much work or just not something i am capable of or even want to do it's okay no pressure he'll be fine without me it's totally up to me don't sign on if you aren't absolutely one hundred percent okay with it and even if it's too much let me know because we can adjust the duties and help you out it's okay. and also him being like the pay isn't that good i'm going to try to ask for more money to pay you and the assistant conductor and maybe partially fund you if you go on tour with us next summer but it really should be more pay than this i'm sorry anyway here's like seven other ways you can make a little extra cash through related jobs like arranging extra parts for the orchestra and subbing on english horn as needed and maybe i can find some money for you to write program notes also have you considered teaching at the local music school it's a good way to get your foot in the door and make a little extra on the side sorry it's not much i hope it's okay for you

#and the whole time i'm sitting there like Okay 👍 Thamks #i wanna talk about me #it's very endearing how much he seems to care about me. both my comfort with the responsibilities and the pay haha #he was even like You know maybe if you wanted to take conducting lessons. #(with the lowkey implication of 'you could be assistant conductor in a couple of years too and then i could pay you more LOL) #(and he kind of complained about how the hall and the organization have an assload of cash at their disposal they're just stingy with it ha) #i'm not in it for the money rn really. i mean obviously it would be nice haha #but i'm getting by okay rn with my fellowship and gigs #(and the fellowship means i'm hardly paying anything out of pocket for grad school which is certainly a huge help here haha) #i'm not doing it For The Exposure cause like. idk that sounds trite and also exposure to What. i've known maestro for eight years... #but it IS really good experience for me. a job handed to me by someone who knows and trusts in my work #in my target field of work. with a highly regarded youth orchestra at an amazing concert hall. #i'd be such a shithead to pass that opportunity up!! #it's not about only making a thousand bucks per concert cycle or whatever it's about the experience #and getting to put [redacted] concert hall on my cv. invaluable!! #anyway nervous but cautiously optimistic about next week i'm shadowing the last rehearsal before their december concert #i'll feel much better about the whole job and everything involved once i can experience it in person #i'm a 'learn by doing' kinda guy anyway