#it's so fucking scary man his mom (my dadi) died when she was younger than him from a heart attack i feel so fucking scared why won't he

[siriuslynephilim]

why does everyone in my life have one foot out the door i just want to have someone reliable someone dependable and trustworthy who fully comes inside the room of my life and takes my hand and locks the door and promises to stay forever

#or at least as long as they can #my dad actually came to get a full body checkup and he has iron deficiency like too much of it and he seems so weak after it #cause too many tests and i hate seeing him like this so tired i hate him when he's here but i hate when he can't wait to go away that he's #making tickets so soon #he can't fucking leave i hate him im tired of him i want my parents to get a divorce but i still want him don't i get to feel like i have #atleast one parent #it's so fucking scary man his mom (my dadi) died when she was younger than him from a heart attack i feel so fucking scared why won't he #take better care of himself i can't bear to lose him he made me stay here in his stupid house and lose everything until he was the only one #i had left and now he wants to go too #no you fucking don't