#like i don't feel passionate about the school im getting my MA at. but ive also had a full-time job i love with people that i love so

[daddy-socrates]

i've sent my thesis poster and zoom link to two of my undergrad professors, hoping they have a forwarding email for the retired professor whom i blame for my whole second degree in this shit

#i'm not expecting any of them to join but i wanted to give a little sense of what i'm up to #i miss them and i love them and i'm !! holy shit my five year reunion is next fall. woagh #embarrassing! local adult has affection and relative pride in undergraduate alma mater #i mean i paid [REDACTED] to attend and have [REDACTED] left in loans so i would sure fucking HOPE i do #blah blah blah #thesisposting technically #vibrates excitedly. two and a half weeks #i should get going on my defense presentation powerpoint. lol #screeches #remember what i made you all promise to me last year when i thought i was defending in april: i take a break before applying for a phd #HA! JOKE'S ON YOU THIS SEMESTER WAS MY BREAK #im just trying to convince myself to focus on one (1) or two (2) things at a time. and start looking into programs AFTER. my defense #im not trying to find and start one in the spring though 1000% #gonna take the spring to research and visit and apply and hopefully find a place that i LOVE because that would be 5 years of uh. #living and working and Being the Program. and if i don't love it i won't finish it. #like i don't feel passionate about the school im getting my MA at. but ive also had a full-time job i love with people that i love so #my community and support is currently at my job! #but if im gonna commit. i need to make sure i can have a community of support at the next thing. #look at me Not Focusing on the one (1) or two (2) things i keep needing to focus on. lol