#like i think literally being sad becuase 'i cant insult people :(((' is ubsurd. like hi hello.

[caruliaa]

btw being annoying abt this thing that happened almost a week ago at this point bc had no tumblr then but i remember at one point when we were with our cousins and kinda just chatting and hanging out nd stuff my sibling just like. was repeatedly like being mean and insulting me for the most minor things and like it was rude but didnt rly hurt that much it was j whatever yk but they kept doing this but i was mostly like whatever even though they were being pretty mean nd at some point they were like "go walk of a cliff" and i was jokingly like "ill tell mum you said that" and then they were like "well you can tell that to her but i can tell her things too yk" basically threatening to out me or like. tell our parents about me having online friends and shit which is a pretty fucked thing to say and like. a completely inordinate reaction to me making a joke but we were around other ppl nd my i wasnt out to one of the cousins so i cldnt be like "hey what the fuck is wrong with you for threatening to out me over a joke" so i was just like "you kept insulting me and our cousins thats rude!" and then they got so sulky and was like "oh im not allowed to insult people but people are allowed to insult me?" even though that like. i never said that ?? and none of us were insulting them ??? and when i was like "i never said that its wrong for people to insult you too" they started talking about how im allowed to be annoying though and thats not fair when they cant insult me or whatever. hi.

#LIKE WHATS WRONG WITH THEM. HI. #like i think literally being sad becuase 'i cant insult people :(((' is ubsurd. like hi hello. #AND LIKE I LITERALLY GET JOKING BANTER AND BEING JOKINGLY RUDE BUT THEY WERE LEGIT BEING SO RUDE. #but also the insulting wasnt even that big of a thing i j pointed tht out bc its the only thing i cld say in that situation #the big thing was fucking threating to out me like. hello ??? what the actual hell is wrong with you ?? #like. idk if i got the tone across right in this post but like. they were fully serious when they said that and like. ik it seems vauge #but istg they were fully alluding to either outing me; telling my parents about my online friends; or telling them that i do not like them #(using semicolons as commas there) #which is like. what the fuck is wrong with your threatening to do any of them considering the consequences to me #in hindsight i think they thought i was being serious abt the telling our mum abt what they said thing but like. #even fucking then thats not an appropriate reaction to that?? like ?? #like the thing is if i had told our mother that she would have just been like “thats wrong you shouldnt say that!” and then we wld move on #but like. hiii if u told our parents the shit ur alluding to there it cld put me back into one of the worst places iv been in in my life #and ruin so much fucking shit for me and destroy my mental welbeing and force me to go through a major traumatic even again basically #like thats what wld happen to me as a result of how out parents react to that . nd if i did what i joked abt ud j get scolded once. hi #also the thing is theyre also fucking queer so they should fucking know better than to jokingly threaten to out me. wtf. #also we were hanging out today nd they threatened to stab me jokingly and i joked about calling 911 about being threatened #nd it was literally nothing. even though tihs ended up being a whole fucking fisaco. okay . also i didnt even enjoy hanging out w them #i wanted to be alone. but they were just in my room so i played this very boring for me game w them w playing the first sec of a song #hi. the moral of the story is the post w quotes abt how sibling relationships survive sooo much going around its true but its a negative #why do i deal with this. like spending time w them is sometimes fun but it is nott worth this i think. hi whats wrong w them #<- will prob change my mind on tht later tht post j kinda annoys me. when did we go back to the blood family is the most powerful thing bs #flappy rambles #ask to tag