#like i'm probably never gonna be involved in some john wick style armed brawl

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i wish i could enjoy leverage but so much of that show is watching bad people getting their comeuppance in terribly uncomfortable ways and rather than deriving any pleasure from this, my anxious brain just kicks into overdrive of "what if that happened to us"

#i watched a good number of episodes with my friend who's a fan #and that episode where they replace that guy's anxiety medication with caffeine pills and trap him in an elevator? #or something like that? #actually quite upsetting to me. even just remembering that scene makes me feel anxious #i guess shit like that gets under my skin more than say‚ straight-up violence‚ bc it feels more plausible in day-to-day life #like i'm probably never gonna be involved in some john wick style armed brawl #but the thought of someone intentionally driving me into an anxiety attack bc they hate me feels much more real and personal #it's kinda funny bc i think that putting the bad guys in Sensory Hell rather than doing anything ''worse'' #is the show's way of keeping things light-hearted #but for me it's like ''NO THANK YOU‚ I'LL TAKE THE VIOLENCE PLS'' #idk idk i'm weird‚ i just know i'd happily take a pistol whip to the face over caffeine pills during an anxiety attack any day